a lot of people think that Emily and Lauren are separate people and thus, Lauren was in love with Doyle and some part of Emily was too. What do you think of this? I disagree and I think that mostly Emily has a very clear imagine of who she was dealing with but sometimes the lines blurred a little, whether she was seeing him being soft with his son or Ian having a brief moment of kindness, but I think right after that he’d do something horrible that snaps her right out of it. I don’t think she was ever in love with him and the idea that she was is literally crazy😭
Ohh interesting.
I think she loved him. I don't think it was ever simple. Like I don't think she ever thought he was a good person. But nobody is all bad, and I honestly think for some people (me, for example) it's very hard to be that close to a person and not love them at least a bit. I think she saw the humanity of him, and for some people. . . love is how they approach humanity. And then on top of that, she's having to do all the things that physically, chemically make us fall harder for a person, to do her job.
And I don't think Emily grew up with the right kind of love around her - I think she's always been someone who was starved for love and affection, and I think having the kind of too-bright love Ian had for Lauren would be so addictive.
Everything is chemicals, love especially. So yeah I think she loved him, and I think it was complicated.
I also don't think he was like on the daily doing terrible things. I think being as high level as he was, day to day at home with her, he was probably just a guy. And idk how much you know about the IRA, but. . . there are still a lot of people who basically agree with their principles and that their methods were an acceptable means to an end. He 'went freelance' obv but he was raised in a set of beliefs that I don't actually think would've felt outlandishly evil to her. And I don't think she thought, even then, that she was squeaky clean. She's exceptionally nonjudgmental.
I think she was there to do her job and she was always going to build the best profile she could and get him arrested and locked up, but I think it felt complicated. I don't think Lauren felt completely separate from her.
All that was a long way of saying I think you're right that she had a clear idea of exactly who she was dealing with. But you can love someone a lot without thinking they're a good person.
One of my favourite things about this arc is that it introduces so much complexity. Like there are a lot of reasonable ways to interpret this imo.












