So I've been slowly tapering off my anxiety medication since August and I am slowly rebecoming myself and I didn't realize how much I missed me.
I listened to music this morning and actually got goosebumps.
I've been finding joy in things and actually laughing.
I can actually plan out more than one thing at a time.
The medication definitely had a purpose when I started but it was crazy to me that my doctor expected me to be on it indefinitely. Even when I told her I was having memory issues and concentration problems she actually told me the anxiety would be worse and those were not side effects of the medication (yes they are). And I have done enough work in therapy to be able to handle my anxiety and work through the backlog of trauma healing without being medicated.
I would have been off it by now but the withdrawal symptoms were bananas. I spent most of September and October in an almost constant migraine until I figured out the right taper speed.
I have a couple more months to go (maybe less) and I am so looking forward to being fully me again.













