#depressingmood

[zombieducksareshemur]

Body Image

Hi

I need a vent. I understand you might not want to hear it, but anyways here goes

I hate my face and body. People think that because I take a lot pictures of myself, that I must, at least, be happy with the way I look. They could not be more wrong.

I do not take “selfies” because I love the way I look. Sometimes I’m proud of the way I did my make up, but that is only cause it changes the way I look for a little while. I never go out to school or out with friends without make up on. That is terrible, I know. But its like I feel so disgusted with my appearance I have to change/cover it or I won’t be comfortable at all. 

The reason I change my profile pictures on social media so often is because I get so sick and tired of seeing my stupid face doing a stupid smile or pulling a face everytime I log on. So, I change my picture to something new to see if its any better. But each time, I get sick of the picture and my face eventually. 

This just proves the point that you only see the surface of things. Is that girl vain for posting that much pictures? Or is she insecure that people think that picture is ugly? Is that girl attention seeking and slutty for posting a picture that shows off her clevage or butt? Or is she craving someones approval because she lacks confidence? You’ll never know. So never assume you know someones reasons behind their actions. 

Okay, vent over:D

[thewaywardpoint]

Tuesday

Tuesday was happy Tuesday was sad Tuesday was nothing Nothing but bad Tuesday liked friends So many, she lost count Tuesday liked parties Ones with drinks Older men and drugs galore Tuesday was fixed Addicted to the buzz Addicted to the meetings More and more popular she grew Tuesday was taken Tuesday was drugged Raped on the pavement Right next to a club Tuesday was gone In a bloody pool Tuesday was forgotten Another reason to stay inside And stay naive About the demons in the night

*Depressing atmosphere yay. But please be careful when you go out, because I’d rather not want people to become traumatised and other stuff but thank you for reading!”

[me-amore-vole-fe-yah]

Stalked your gorgeous uni friends modelling profile.

Checked your bank balance.

Its time for cake. 

[lithiumrox]

I'm editing a paper for my best friend for the first time in...many months. 

As of a few weeks from now, I will have graduated a year ago, and I've only been back to campus twice in that time. 

Reading an academic paper for her again is: 

(a.) Making me miss the world of academia

(b.) Making me thank my lucky stars that I don't have to deal with final exams and term papers anymore

(c.) Making me miss my best friend

(d.) All of the above but mostly c.

ETA: Oh God, I almost forgot what a bitch paper-editing makes me! Please, for your own sake, never ask me to edit a paper for you, unless you want me to tear you apart. I start out all tentative and "maybe you might want to consider this?" and then quickly devolve into "This whole section makes zero sense, you're clearly just trying to up your word count by adding in extraneous BS. And for the love of god, stop using exclamation points in an academic paper"

[alwaysadreamer26]

Everythng WIll be Alright-the killers

First lie they've ever told me but hey they helped

[kevinsaysthis]

Here's a current update:

- Break

- Sister who I adore is leaving the country for 3 months.

- More hours at a job I hate.

- Gas prices are higher.

- Gaining weight.

- Stressing out more about "Future"

- Losing valuable friends to random shit.

- Thinking more about older friends.

- Over analyzing too much for my own good.

- I have an urge to fight someone who is truly being ridiculous.

- Feeling dumb for not going through with my urges.

- Being happy for my best friends.

- Even though their doing better thing in a direction thats not towards me.

- Feeling somewhat friendless at times like these; someone to shoot hoops with.

All of this random shit to update, on a lighter note:

- New room

- New pair of Nikes.

The pros and cons may not necessarily add up to the positiveness one may need to raise their sense of, 'worth'.  

[megzray18]

I want to be wanted and desired.

[lithiumrox]

Apparently its really depressing to constantly have low expectations for everything...

But I'm trying to remind myself not to get too excited and get my hopes up about how awesome DH is going to be. Going to the midnight premiere is going to be awesome and tons-o-fun and all, but I just don't want to the actual movie to be a disappointment to me. Because I do tend to have a lot of problems with the way the movies do things (Sometimes plot-wise, sometimes tone-wise, sometimes character-wise). So while part of me is like "OMG, all of the trailers are so awesome! And they look like they're being really faithful to the books! They're FINALLY gonna get the plot right for the first time since CoS!" there's another part of me that's wondering what's going to be this movie's Sandwich Montage or Burrow Burning. I know it seems silly not to let myself be excited for something this exciting, but I just don't want to come away from tomorrow night pissed off just because they screwed up the scene where Kreacher smack Mundungus upside the head with a copper saucepan. Because to me, that would be more depressing than always keeping my expectations low. I dunno, am I making any sense here? (But seriously, if they screw up that Kreacher scene, I will not be a happy camper)