#depression maybe

[6piecesofsalami]

you ever wanna curl up in a big hoodie with all of the stuffed animals you own and watch bluey and eat crackers and chocolate milk.

just me?

[everythingisredisetitonfire]

It doesn't matter whether I'm at my lowest. I'm at my low, and that's enough.

[marshmallowthebat]

Do you ever just wanna lay on the floor and stay there?

[project-stormblessed]

No matter where I go, what group of people I find myself in, I always feel like the odd man out. I always find something that separates me from the rest of the group in a huge way. I feel so alienated all the time, no matter what setting I’m in. I hardly feel like a person at all.

I’ve got this deep pit of sadness in me because I’ve spent so much of my life feeling so separate from everyone else, and frankly I feel unloveable.

I’m tired.

[giganticrodent]

Posted to my FB but Imma post here too bc it's important

Hi friends! TW??

In the continued interest of normalizing mental health issues one chapter of my shenanigans at a time, heres the next.

I'm currently waiting to be seen by a doctor to assess my mental state and how much of a potential threat I am to myself.

As you may/may not know I'm in the middle of changing my medication because it stopped working. Dropping my dosage slowly until it is nothing has resulted in a lot of terrible things. For one I think about hurting myself almost all the time. I'm either sleeping too much or not sleeping at all. I'm quick to anger about almost nothing, and I cry all the goddamn time because I cannot regulate my emotions. While I have no plan I think about ending my life a lot. I could be having a nice time or hanging out reading and these thoughts sit slowly creep up louder and louder.

It is something I don't want to live with and something no one should live with.

So here I am, possibly on my way to being admitted for inpatient treatment if they find me a big enough threat to myself. I'm terrified for sure but I'm glad to live in a country where these services are more or less readily available. I'm also very glad I have a partner who was more than willing to drive me here and sit with me while I wait for answers.

According to statistics about 30% of all Ontarians will experience some form of mental health emergency in their lifetime. That's a lot of people suffering and chances are you know at least one (other than me). It's not for attention, it's not for sympathy, and it's certainly not "just in their head" tho I guess it technically is since that's where your brain lives.

Be kind to those suffering, and if you're suffering yourself you're not alone.

[bean-there-before]

I’m dropping lines like “yeah I don’t feel much anxiety anymore because there’s too much to be stressed about so I’m numb” like I’m soft launching mental illness or sm

[smelly-cherry]

nothing i feel is simple

[ocean0913]

Such a nothing day

Blaaaaaahhhh

I feel nothing and feeling nothing makes me hate that I feel nothing

Wooooo