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[theforgotensblog]

Afraid of relationships

Okay, I'm gonna say it...

I am afraid to be on a relationship.

There, I said it.

It's not that I'm scared of the ideal of 'relationships"

It's just I'm scared of being hurt and used.

I met a guy who i really liked and I think he likes me to

But I was to anxious and my fear started to take over

I kept ignoring the guys signs.

That's when I started to think.

Why am I scared of going out with a guy that I might actually like?

Look, I've met guys

And I thought I might of liked them

But intill I met him my feelings were diffrent.

I mean this is a great chance, isn't it ?

But something was holding me back...fear!

This is how it all started.

My fear.

One day my crush asked me out - great right?

Well it turned out that it was all a joke.

Even my best friend knew about it!

I pretend that "hahah you got me"

once I went home I cried.

Few years later

Then I had this little thing (one night) with a Fuck boy - we all know who this can be.

After that I felt used, ugly and just like my feeling were dirt

And this is how I kept feeling.

Like everyone who I gave my love just walked over it.

Just like dirt.

I always looked for approval from other people.

Then when I met him

I felt it.

Like there was something...

But I couldn't bring myself to be forward

I didn't want to be used, hurt, I don't want to hurt him and I don't want to be a burden.

I've never had a boyfriend because I looked in the wrong places and I was afraid of what a relationship was going to be like.

Hoping I will date someone but at the same time I didn't.

All because of my fucked up head and my fear.

So many more things play in this factor.

But in truth I'm afraid of relationships.

[synsick]

I’m not a holiday person. The holidays are so depressing and living here in the city it is the worst. Can’t wait for all this to be over. Seriously, this isn’t “the most wonderful time of the year”. 

[neapolitangirl]

Sometimes I get depressed because I remember I don’t have many friends in rl because I don’t talk to anyone I want to be friends with and then tell myself I’ll get more online be acting different.

And then I proceed to act exactly the same on every website I’m on.

[thewelderchick]

Last contact

She writes as though it will never be read. Her deepest secrets coded into poems and short stories only to be misinterpreted as just creative writing. The last thing she writes from her heart is something like this. "I leave now for peace and quiet, I'm sick of being in such a riot. We won't ever speak again. This is how our story ends." As all ways she would post it so they could read it. Swift and short came the reply only to never be read. "Please, don't go." It was to late that was her last contact

[unexpectedlinkcosplay-blog]

Depressed as FUCK.

[lovelyheart-wickedways]

Sometimes I feel like I don't know myself. I haven't truly figured myself out. Some days I tell myself that my soul was put into the wrong body or vice versa. I may like my whole life not knowing my true identity.

Me at 3AM