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~ just derealization/god complex things ~

suicide mention, trauma mention

• having a lack of sensible empathy towards others because you think “i’m making their problems up anyway, they don’t really have emotions”

• hearing about tragedies in other parts of the world and not feeling anything because according to your brain the people who went through it aren’t real

• feeling proud of yourself when you see something cool or hear about a cool concept because you’re proud of yourself for “making it”

• feeling like you have god-like powers because you “control” everything but when you actually try to use your “powers” they obviously don’t work and you get mad at yourself

• getting really mad at yourself for being upset about things that happen because according to your brain, you made it happen - thus, more self hatred!!

• when good things happen you feel numb because you feel its not real and doesnt actually mean anything

• + getting your hopes up and then telling yourself “hold on, its not real, you’re making it up” etc.

• being astonished that your brain can “replicate” the same song over and over perfectly (almost) every time (idk if that made sense)

• ^ however sometimes music sounds way too fast, slow, harsh, etc. and the same song will change with different times you listen to it

• feeling that your trauma is invalid invalid invalid invalid invalid

• having the hardest time thinking that there’s More after death

• religion? who?

• being amazed that you can eat food!!! wow!!!! how did i make my body do that????!!!!!

• brain: “if i die, there’s not going to be anyone to actually miss me?? im making it up???”

#derealization #derealize #depersonalization #dissociation #dissociate #actually dissociation #mental illness #mental health #god complex #godcomplex #narcissist #narcissism

ive depressed myself into dissociation

#not even like #idek how to explain it itsnot the normal #depersonalize or #derealize #maybe it is #idk but nothing here is mine #if i look outside i wont be where i was a minute will i #like im in some alternate world??#idk i dont own anything here #this account isnt even mine is it #everythings so bright

floating through time and space. my body is heavy but my head is empty. asking: 'do you see this too?'. acting like a robot. always scared that i am not aware of what i am doing right now. not talking to your parents because they also seem like robots. not recognizing people.

how does it feel?

#dissociation #depersonalize #derealize #actually dissociative #actuallydissociative #description tag