#diary tag

[yellow-cat]

[gasperyjacques]

Gimli's starting chemo on Tuesday for his multicentric lymphoma, please send your love & wish him luck 💌

[timebe1ng]

met gala stuff making me sad this year. Like no matter how beautiful any of the individual pieces are I just can’t. I can’t take the bread and circuses of it all. I know that the escapism is the point for people but all I’m seeing are the people who sleep outside on my street, the immigration application on my husbands computer, my coworkers who couldn’t retire, my disabled friends and loved ones with no healthcare. And at the top of it all is this small group of people that profits immensely off all our pain and suffering. I want to see beautiful things but idk i also want to touch them and use them and live alongside them, i dont want them to be a tool of oppression. Idk idk idk will probably be staying offline for a bit lol

[spiderworries]

i really can't tell if i'm overreacting about this whole thing/ just kind of paranoid but the idea of someone deciding my space is theirs to enter as they wish without my knowledge or permission is giving me a genuine panic attack (even though the actual situation is not particularly that serious.)

[thelasttreeline]

I guess I do owe it to the system to ensure this body is bathed at the very least

[chicago-geniza]

good morning chicago it is a beautiful day i woke up at noon thirty i am eating paneer and listening to yo-yo ma. i need to go for a walk outside and do an invoice and go to ADHD group. we're talking about breaking avoidance cycles, which i REALLY need help with. it is probably the Great Problem of my Life. i am if kafka's burrow creature were a human being. i am the most avoidant person i know and it is actively ruining my life lmao. BUT the sun is shining and i figured out that vampire IFS made me stop being afraid of my apartment / the shower, i.e., made it stop feeling "unsafe," and that trapped-animal, "unsafe" feeling, as though i am being stalked and surveilled, returns under very specific, replicable, and psychologically predictable conditions. red laser eyes freud.png. they fuck you up, your mom & dad, etc etc etc. thanks to the vampires who live in my brain at the château which is also the hotel-palace at marienbad. gd yo-yo ma fucks. you know how people in yiddish literature were always saying that the fiddle "wept" or "sounded like weeping in its grief" or whatever? (anne rice seizes on this to characterize nicki's melancholy too, it's a cliché for a reason, string instruments are plaintive and mournful in the hands of a master klezmer.) BUT. my main man yo-yo ma makes the cello cry DELICATELY. what a deft hand on the bow. exquisite.

[catboymoments]

How was your day today, Fran?

Really good actually! I got a lot done and I went out cuz I had a day off work :) I signed up for my fall classes and I had a yummy lunch and snack because I got paid! and then I went to target and got some things for my new bathroom and I came home and made a really really good dinner like holy shit that chicken parm was excellent. My outfit today was very cute and I felt really confident and I got a new book for myself (Danganronpa 2 Chiaki manga) and a gift for my partner :3 (surprise…)

[isorottatime]

reading hamlet for the first time. THAT is the context for 'the lady doth protest too much'?????