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[hyperspacehost]

I'm thinking about making a silly little JRPG/Pixel Art game. the game itself is a concept that a trauma holder showed me as a front intrusion and is too much staireizing dark things for me to be able to show anyone. Trust me people would be offended - it's that kind of dark jokes about your own traumatic experiences type thing that most people don't understand. I have found it helpful in a way I can't quite explain to try to create the things i'm shown by my system as something that actually physically (or digitally) exists.

I have chosen to use HTML5/WebGL and to program in Java using TeaVM to compile to webassembly. I will have to recruit one of the few alters in my system who can do art to do the pixel art, as I do not want to use AI. I more or less know how to go about doing that and I think she will be happy enough to participate.

I have forgotten all my WebGL so I am going to have to refresh my memory. I apparently own books on the subject, so that's good :)

[hyperspacehost]

I'm not wanting to turn this into a Jairi blog by venting with my first post. But i've had quite an emotional return.

When I woke up this morning, I hated everything. I was getting extremely irritated by the inconveneicens of being a wheelchair user. I know that this is me integrating the reality that my body is now disabled after my return from dormancy, but that knowledge doesn't make it any easier to emotionally cope with. Ended up having a sleep to cope with the emotional exhaustion.

In terms of coding projects, the last thing I remember working on is trying to get an animated character (3D) on the screen and working right with keyboard/mouse controls. I was having a lot of difficulty with that. Hopefully the alters preserved the project files so I can have another look at it.

The computer has been wiped since I was around and Linux has been put on, which I will have to adjust to.

Linux is supposed to be quite good for coding though, so I will give it a try.

The project was WebGL based, so switching to Linux shouldn't make any difference to how the code runs.

[leviathan-system636e]

i wonder >.>

*{do i just let the alter that likes social media the most handle this. like. why dont i just let him have all control over this stuff. i can do that. im the host. i can just offload it to him.}

*{this might be the last post conceived by leviathan systems host if i go through w/ this. uhmmm i want people to react to us so i'll ask another question}

*{i cant be the only host thats incredibly antisocial and dysfunctional, right? im starting to feel a little bad about it.}

[leviathan-system636e]

tired body/system/alter

a03 story updated... look if you want... we put our ao3 name... in... some post... idunno.

its called like. alderhearts no good bad awful terrible day i think.

im goin to sleep

[leviathan-system636e]

Synesthesia. ...And Colourblindness.

*{this system has synesthesia and we hate certain colours. We also cannot see certain colours.}

*{found out this year that our favourite kinds of coffee arent orange. its apparently either brown or tan. also food related, but we cannot stomach green foods. you know. like carrots. or fish. green.}

*{this basically means we cannot be relied on at any point for colour. do not show us any colour close to each other next to us. i will fight you. i. clover. you walk up to us with a png of a rainbow im finding you.}

[leviathan-system636e]

Very Confused Host

*{wait i just realised since when did we have a tumblr. who did this. which one of you little rats in here did this someone tell me. why do we have social media now. oh god oh god oh no oh god no no no.}

[leviathan-system636e]

Clover. Tenshi. Host.

*{the host is fronting. i dont want to post here, but i guess i will. i dont know how much information the people who look at these have on some alter quirks, but i want to talk about one anyways.} *{alters can be multisourced. a source is a "imagined origin" or "psuedomemories" of sorts for an alter. our main sonic, named Black Knight, has all the memories, or, source, up to the sonic storybook games.}

*{thusly, an alter with multiple sources has multiple of these. today, i, tenshi, the host, am also clover. i, obviously, have my memories as tenshi, but also as clover.}

*{there was no real reason behind saying this. i just didn't want anyone to be surprised. i have many sources.}

[leviathan-system636e]

Quetzal from Leviathan System here!!!

Quetzal again! I'm saying hello and making another post again (besides the fact that js because im still in front) because I've resolved to making posts giving info on alters! We aren't very much the most knowledgeable system on such things like flags or specific labels, but I hope I'm at least in the category of "Not too bad". I'm not the host, of course, that's Tenshi/Clover, but I'm so far the most active on this social media website! (because Clover is paralyzed right now). Speaking of Tenshi...

Here she is! Our host is named Tenshi Kanchi Dorei Rinne, and she's been around for about 2 or 3 years in the system. I don't expect her to front alot on tumblr currently considering things that have been going on, and even so she's typically naturally shying away from any sembelance of human interaction, so it might just be mostly me on here. She's a little bit unstable and a big bit sad, but we love her all the same (and the meds that she should have but doesnt). Next up, and last for explaining today, is me!

I'm Quetzal! Generally not someone all too important in the system. I just happened to be fronting and resolved to actually commit to our tumblr account since we have like >.> two other social medias max HEHE. I'm very excited to be on here and super happy for getting to put myself out there, I guess!

That'ssssss basically it for now! Remember to always love yourself and never stop putting your all into every little thing you do! Bless!