#did mpd

[dissociative-memes]

Trigger warning: Sex

LITTLE WANTS TO WRESTLE.

SIGNIFICANT OTHER THINKS IT IS A SEXUAL ADVANCE.

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[graphenelayers]

Pretty neat to have a signature on this old book. Also there are appointment receipts and addresses in here, fairly recent dates. Highlighted paragraphs. Whoever had this book last I hope they're doing great.

[dissociative-memes]

Paranoid post man thinks you’re a criminal.

Due to constantly getting post in about 15 different names.

Submission from TheShotgunOpera on tumblr via whynot-dissociativedegu circa 2015

Also DID:

The use of multiple different names... except nicknames or when used for illegal activity (cough!)

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[loveiswhereeveryoulook]

When your partner holds you, and it makes your skin crawl and you really just want a cigarette at 5 in the morning.

And the little shit told us we couldn't stay up with them while they're having shark week issues. Now we're having the problems awake by ourselves. Yay Zyme, how do you do this.

[loveiswhereeveryoulook]

If angry cleaning could be any louder, my hosts mother in law would win the prize.

[loveiswhereeveryoulook]

Personal. Trigger Warning for possibly graphic details.

I wish I didn't have to be out here like this. It pains me because he was close to getting better but I didn't trust the possibilities. I feel I should have, and I should have let go and integrated but it's times like these that I was scared of. The times where he goes into a panic. Those times where we both feel violated and dirty and only have each other truly. I couldn't leave him but sitting here out like this, I feel like I'm taking over his life again. All I want is for him to be happy and healthy dammit.

[loveiswhereeveryoulook]

Personal rant. Please ignore if you'd like.

Trigger warning, heavy cursing, mental illness abuse mention. I fucking thought I had integrated but my main alter had some how stuck along, I've never been able to integrate him but since he stayed quiet for so long I thought it was finally over, that I was on the road to healing but no! Fuck me in particular. Fucking hell and he doesn't even care, he finds it funny that I thought he was gone but nope. He was playing hide and fucking seek while I went through personal hell then thought I was all good and dandy. Fuck him. Fuck this disorder. Fuck all the stress it brings me. It's a coping method for abuse but it's the most stressful one I have. I am so fucking done. I'm just glad he doesn't use social media so at least I don't have to worry about him fucking with my shit.

[loveiswhereeveryoulook]

Mornings.

This is starting to piss me off sadly, I woke up at 2 in the morning after getting 2 hours of sleep only because, 1 I was hungry 2 I'm having anxiety over school. and 3 I can't talk about it with anyone because they're asleep or in my head. I swear this shit is getting to be ridiculous.