#did problems

[your-fallen-internet-angel]

I feel so detached from my sense of self !!

I hate being blurry and not being able to figure out who I am, if I'm a new alter, an old one coming back from dormancy, or whatever :3

I miss someone, but I can't even place who !

I feel like there's something wrong with me and that I'm faking everything I've done !

And I've had basically no human contact all day 💜

Today's been so great so far ! /sarc

Hope you're doing better than me rn ^^

[knitrockbottom]

A meme my wife and I collaborated on for no reason whatsoever (definitely not because we would both forget to do it individually)

[bitt3r-pawz]

Finding fanart of an introject in an art style they identify with: 😺

The artist drew a heavily altered version of the source character so it doesn't look like said introjected at all anymore: 😿

Having to scroll through the entire character tag again and start looking for a different fanart: 🫩

[burningsolarsystem]

Love how one of the biggest reasons I thought I couldn't have DID was because I didn't experience blackouts.

Then proceeded to refuse to consider it after I discovered that PDID is a thing.

Meanwhile, ironically, though I don't have major blackout moments, I do have a few minor ones on occasion.

I can't tell you how many times I might get snapped at for asking a question I just asked a minute ago. Not fun to try to explain "Oh sorry, my brain forgot it existed." So I just laugh it off and pretend I'm not terrified of the fact I don't remember the fact I just asked the same question.

Or I'll be cleaning and suddenly "come to" while walking to return an object I cleaned back to its place and I'll have to look at it and look around to see where I got it from because last I remember I was cleaning a different object. Like idk, what do you mean I cleaned this, since when?

And later in I'll laugh about these moments, but at the time it's pretty terrifying that I can't remember something that literally happened a minute before.

So idk. But at least some things are starting to make sense.

(Sorry for the run ons and bad grammar and stuff, I'm hoping it's not too bad. I'm tired and today was a day.)

[cerealsystem]

Nothing like having people look at you funny when you reference something that happened yesterday like it happened three years ago

[stellichor-system]

Frantically sifting through the brain for alters that can have a reasonable response to things™

[thefluxsystem]

I wish people understood that being a system doesn’t inherently make you feel less alone

We can try to help each other out as much as we want, but, no matter what we do, we’re all still trapped inside the same derailing train

[sistema-jerimum]

*switches*

*liquid in mouth*

*swallows*

Dennis: YOU CAN'T DRINK THAT

Me: WHAT THE FUCK DID I DRINK