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The Hollander Boyfriend Checklist

The Hollander Boyfriend Checklist Hollanov | Rated: T | Chapter One Inspired by this post by @watermelontuesdays!

Summary:

In a world where Shane & Ilya never hooked up and were only ever rivals and colleagues, Shane does eventually come out (after Scott and Kip’s kiss that changed everything.) He keeps the media at bay by teasing what he’s looking for in an ideal boyfriend.

Ilya starts taking notes.

He’s not the only one. Excerpt:

Shane

Shane’s life was hockey. As soon as he’d learned to skate, he lived and breathed the game. Knew the rules. Understood them in a way that was a head-rush of relief in a world that usually offered him nothing, but stress and discomfort. Hockey helped him carve out a space for himself and he loved it for that.

He knew the love he got in return was always conditional, but over the years he’d convinced himself it was enough. It had to be.

And then he watched Scott Hunter kiss his boyfriend out on the ice, after winning the Cup, and Shane realized not only did he want more…

He needed it.

That place inside of himself where he’d packed away everything that didn’t fit into the world he loved—everything he’d tried so desperately to ignore—cracked wide open and it all poured out.

Aching loneliness.

Bitter jealousy.

A deep, yearning want.

And the worst one—the one that he never seemed to be able to stamp out, no matter how hard he tried: a spark of hope.

Could I have that?

Staring at Hunter, who was fully fucking making out with his boyfriend between declarations of love, Shane didn’t even realize he’d started crying until his mom reached over to swipe a gentle finger down his cheek. He startled, huffing out a laugh as he scrubbed a hand across his face, suddenly aware of how the cheers from the TV were the only sound in the room.

“Sweetheart,” she began and Shane shook his head.

“I’m okay. I’m—” Fine? Happy for Hunter? Any answer would be good enough in its own way, something his parents would accept, but he couldn’t sit there in this moment and bring himself to say anything but the truth.

“…I’m gay.”

Silence fell over the living room again and Shane held his breath. He couldn’t take the words back, wasn’t even sure if he wanted to, but this—this would change everything. Every scenario he’d run through his brain before was purely theoretical. Ready or not, he was about to find out if their love was conditional too.

His dad cleared his throat, leaning forward to brace his elbows on his knees as he dipped his head to meet Shane’s gaze. “Hi, gay,” he said. “I’m Dad.”

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