#digitalis collective

[thedigitaliscollective]

Quantify a mothers

Love

On a thousand

Calculators

As i give you the

Story of

Persephone

And the darkest angel

She dared to love

Woefully

Gazed demeter forward

As her eyes looked ever

Shoreward

Thinking about

How many heartbeats

Before she allowed the sea

To have her?

Locked in an ever

Spiraling trance

Offered

Luck no not a chance

For our greiving mother

Summer

Clawing hopelessly through

Time and space

She wondered

Honestly

Who would take her

Chaste springtime daughter

And so deprive

Such a thoughtless world

Contrived

Of springtime

And risk its dying?

Oblivious to her mothers

Cries

Inwardly Persephone could

Not deny

How she had come to love him

A sheepish grin here

Did not give

Gave so much more than

A sear to the couples

Love blooming

Deep in the earth

Tartartus suffered

Not only a flower but under

Loves full and tragic power

As springtime set in

Where it

Had never

This as

demeter considered

The cold day in hell

Her springtime daughter

Would fall under the spell

Of a darkness that never shines

[thedigitaliscollective]

Whoa man, just got out of therapy today, it was rough. Talked about racism and the nightmares I have concerning it. Grew up being the only P.O.C family in an all white neighborhood. They passed around a petition to get us to leave. It was not easy being a kid there. Hate truly starts at home. I have all sorts of friends varying in race and creed today and they all have their own experiences. I’m curious to know what were your experiences concerning race, growing up? Have you internalized any of those messages? Does it still effect you today?

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Hey guys us and our partner @thenightshadesymposium were wondering if any of our fellow systems (you guys) are married and how you negotiated your weddings (if you have a partner system)

We are engaged to our partner system and several of our alters are with several of their alters so we aren’t sure if we should have multiple weddings or just costume changes and how that works with our guests etc. So the question remains, have any of you done this before and if so how’d you pull it off? Do you have any suggestions for us? Thanks in advance!!:)

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I don’t know why anyone would ever want to fake DID. Sometimes i just feel sick. My anxiety, the switching, the constant not even knowing who the fuck we are.

[thedigitaliscollective]

What if dreaming is really waking up in another timeline?

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Watch it dear friends. If you have a question. If you have any suspicions about your past, especially as a system. Watch the ones you actually seek out answers to. Sometimes your curiousity can gingerly take your trembling hand and walk you right off the edge. You may say...nothing ventured nothing gained, but this is a slippery slope especially if you are genuinely unprepared to feel sick every waking moment. You may have even come to a realization. It wasn’t your fault at all. Lies were kept and created behind rotting teeth carefully cultivated so that your victim hood could be bonafied, understood and allowed never to venture outside of your own lips or the individual fated to eventually murder you internally. This is what you risk. Is it worth it just to know you were never wrong about this? Just some advice from one sufferer to another. The world will get that bastard. Dont hurt yourself worse trying to lend justice a hand. Mother universe hears you crying, she will look out for her children.-Ghost

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I have a head cannon where everything is ok. Where life is boring, there’s no pandemic and we feel safe everyday. I have a head cannon where Fritz @the-down-below learns to be a therapist the right way because that’s what we put the body through school for, where Ghost @hauntedgwen doesn’t have to tell lies to protect our system, where everything we touch doesn’t automatically and unequivocally turn to shit. In my head cannon my leg works and I jog everyday, I keep beating my own time. My partner @thenightshadesymposium is happy and they know that they’re loved and the hardest times we come upon is perhaps not being able to agree on how we’re going to remodel the kitchen because that taup just doesn’t go with that beige. In my head cannon i left my ex before we had kids, the kids I have were mine and my partner’s. They are both happy and healthy and don’t have to do without us for days at a time because the pain is too bad. In my head cannon things could always be worse isn’t a motto. We work, our credit is good, we own a home, there was never any abuse. There’s just one thing I wouldn’t want to change and that’s knowing them, my alters because they have steady kept saving my life for years.