Hello everyone, this is my first time writing about my own experience but it was too good not to share.
I had to get a pelvic ultrasound today for some health issues I've been having. The instructions were to finish drinking a litre of water one hour before my appointment so I'll have a full bladder for the scan. Of course I was Very Normal about this.
My appointment was 2pm, and I was worried my bladder would fill too quickly because I've accidently put myself in rapid desperation mode from my morning coffee and the current heat wave. I started drinking at 12pm, and peed one last time at 12.15. At around 12.45 I had to chug my water to make sure I drank enough.
I could feel my bladder fill as I drank, but honestly not as much as I thought it would. I left the house at 1.30 to take a 20 minute walk to the clinic. At this point I would definitely go pee if I wasn't holding. My abdomen started to feel tight, and I was at a comfortable fullness level I like to get to when I'm holding. I usually listen to music as I walk to places, but this time I noticed I couldn't get as immersed into the music because my need to pee was too distracting.
I was worried my bladder wouldn't be full enough by the time my appointment came along, because I've seen stories of people crying from desperation or fighting for their lives not to wet themselves during an ultrasound. But by the time I checked in I was definitely full. I was fidgety, squeezing my legs together, not in danger of wetting myself but still uncomfortably full.
When I went into the ultrasound room I was instructed to lie flat on my back and pull my pants down a bit. I felt like my bladder was stretched taut, if there was any doubt it was full before there definitely wasn't any now. The cold gel and first few swipes of the wand felt tingly, but nothing too intense.
The tech was sweet and apologetic as she then told me “I'm going to press a bit, I'm sorry, I know your bladder is full.” Here's where the intensity started. Each press sent a shiver from my bladder up to my spine, and at times I could feel my teeth chatter. My mind was blank the whole time, I couldn't think of anything other than the sensations. Unfortunately I didn't see the scan. The tech didn't show it to me and I was too focused on holding it anyway. There wasn't a moment I thought I would leak during the scan, just repeated shots of the good kind of pain.
When the scan was over, I headed to the bathroom. My bladder felt so good, and I was so wet but not from pee. I sat down on the toilet with my clothes on for a moment while answering messages. I considered waiting a bit more, maybe even getting off a little. I stood up with my pants down to check if I had a bladder bulge, but I couldn't get a good angle before my bladder spasmed. I'm talking hand shoved between legs with legs crossed as I almost leaked. It's the type of urgency achieved through rapid desperation that is hard to hold back, so I knew I had to let go. I wasn't looking to wet myself in public. I definitely felt relieved once I peed!
I had to run a few errands after the appointment, but my bladder filled again as I relaxed and wrote this. I was going to hold it, but I just went from ‘ok, there's pee in there’ to tears in my eyes in a matter of minutes. So I just peed. I might be peeing non-stop for the rest of the day, wish me luck.
