#dogblud

[nefermaet]

LOL

[nefermaet]

“I wanted them to interpret this post that way but intended it to be this other thing” when you first posted about this you said you intentionally lied about it. youre switching up and regardless of which one is true (lying or intending something different) neither makes you sound like you’re in the right for doing that. I understand that they have done terrible things but you need professional help from a different therapist because this is way, way too far. I am worried for your career you need to stop

DogBlud gaslit me for 2 years about stealing my character and was extremely abusive to me in private. She conspired against me. She stalked and threatened me. And you're are worried about the difference between "I lied to my abusers" and "this is how I lied to my abusers"?

Also what career? Last time I checked when I was actively doing taxidermy, people were telling me to kill myself on anon near daily and SAF was getting my business accounts banned. I've never been welcomed in this space at the best of times.

[nefermaet]

you should just post all the dirt you say you have on her instead of joking about calling ICE, that's not okay

I didn't joke about calling the pigs in the first place. If that's how people outside of my brain and this situation interperated it, that's on them 🤷‍♀️

I rightly assumed that Dog would interperate the post that way because of how it was written, but the bottom line is I literally wrote down an inside thought that amounted to [takes a hit of my bong] "what if I sent a bunch of packages of rotten coyote meat to Ependa since Dog is begging me to abuse her?" (which is one of her fetishes 🤢). I wanted them specifically to think the post was about ICE to cause a panic so they would slip up and give me the last bit of info I needed to connect them to conspiracy (which they did so 🤷‍♀️). Besides that, DogBlud has abused and threatened her victims in far worse ways over the years. God forbid that I pressed the evil button in my brain once and stooped to her level long enough to get her and The Werewolf Gestapo to give me the information and exposure I needed to ensure she can't manipulate anyone ever again. People may think I'm a "bad" person for doing it, but the things I and others have dealt with because of her are far worse than an insensitive joke.

I gaslit my abusers into thinking one of them was getting deported for drawing slave porn, porn of a character they stole from me. A character they de transed and turned into fetish bait for a white bitch because that’s one of DogBlud's fucked up kinks. I hate her so much that any backlash I got for this was worth it to know she cannot hide her bullshit anymore. I didn't want to do this, but Dog never should have been in a position where she was so comfortable abusing others. I did what helped me sleep at night. It was a selfish and mean-spirited act, but what they did to me was calculated and evil.

I've published more than enough information on her to prove that she's an aggressor and serial abuser, yet people STILL sided with her or ignored my posts because they didn't want to be involved with "drama," which that bullshit claim flew right out the window the second anyone had a chance to say that I somehow am worst than a racist, fascist, transphobic, ableist, serial abusing, cyberstalker just for making what amounts to a bad joke. The scales still weigh in my favor, trust me. Especially since all this was over some fucking ice cube emojis that represented frozen packages of rotten coyote meat (which I couldn't even send because I don't have any of Ependa's personal information, only DogBlud's).

[nefermaet]

Everyone is obsessed with me omg.

[nefermaet]

Clown Shit 🤡

[blackbackedjackal]

it's strange (sarcasm) to me that the people defending dog and ependa over that ice joke seem to think that you defending yourself, your work, and calling out a racist mob is worse than them trying to literally shut you out of the industry and again, STEAL YOUR WORK. just know you have fans that enjoy your creative ventures and will stick by you.

One of the founders of Iron Circus was accused of something similar in the early 2000s and is also a Black queer person. It took me a bit to make that connection as to /why/ Dog brought that up to me, but considering Dog was there for that whole debacle, I assumed that was part of her playbook. It's the same group of people, just older and less able to hide because of how social media works now. It was easy to ostracize people when the fandom was small, and this part of the fandom happens to be a sector I had unfortunately gotten cornered in. I don't fully understand the context of what all went down back then, but I don't like that at the end of the day, a Black person said their opinions (which tbf were overall insensitive from my understanding, especially therian commentary of "you're not an actual werewolf-idk I don't go there but I have therian friends and I'm like...that's not an issue that needed to be dug into lol) but the fandom held onto the bad things exclusively to oust them from fan spaces, when /some/ of the points brought up I agree were and continue to be problems within that community.

They also keep forgetting, I am not industry. I am indie. My team is nothing but friends and volunteers. I have no budget, only some connections to the industry, mostly through channels that have nothing to do with the furry fandom, so all this does for me is help me figure out who my real friends are online before getting serious about sharing my work. I'd rather deal with this shitstorm of blatant lies I can swat away with a few screenshots, and the people who don't believe me, are willfully ignorant, and don't want to acknowledge their internalized racism (or are call me slurs in private and replacing it with "fascist" in public). Again, typical evil white person playbook. It's the same thing happened to "woke."

"Jackal's a fascist and this won't be tolerated in our community" ='s Jackal is a Black person who won't 'fall in line' and therefore needs to be ostracizes or publicly shamed for calling us out. Like ok? I literally do not want to be around any of you either, and it's far less stress on me for them to out themselves and block me then me fuck around, find out, and get another DogBlud in my inner circles. Basically, yay free block list of people who wouldn't have supported my work anyway, only stolen it.

They're just a gang of semi-organized of thugs that got outed because I out foxed them. Being racist makes you dumb as fuck, because you consistently undermine and underestimate the target of your prejudice. To them, I'm not even human, just something to entertain them. But also, they literally interpreted the post like how dumb racists would, and got played. Now they HAVE to talk about it, and then people will organically find my posts to show that they're lying. GG EZ

Thank you for the support! I'm giving myself a lot of good mental health space offline as well. I'm actually working on my first community fish tank and I'm getting my plants tomorrow. I'm also going to be able to do taxidermy again, ideally by August once I pickup all my tools.

I will move on, I will heal, I will eventually publish my story. Meanwhile they'll be so obsessed with me so much they can't get shit done, and people completely divorced from the situation will be like "wow, Strawberry Moon is really good Jackal" and that's all I want.

And again, the joke was not about ICE, it was interpreted that way by the community . I am a taxidermist and I was thinking about sending rotten coyote meat to Ependa. I wouldn't do it regardless because I'm not a stalker and that's cause for legal ramifications via harassment. But I just posted it in a way that made them think it was deeper then it was so they would freak out and cry wolf on themselves. Was it ok to joke about considering the current political climate? No absolutely not. But also the interpretation of the post was blown completely out of proportion. Again, I had an evil thought, and any other time I would ignore it and move on, but it gave me the out I was looking for, and I was just ready to wipe my hands of this situation and heal.

Not to mention SINCE this happened I have actively been linking and posting evidence for onlookers to see what was actually going on behind closed doors. It's one thing to see a single screenshot and decide "this is this person forever" but another to see this, and continue to claim that my anger at DogBlud and me lashing out, again, with what was at most was a tasteless joke, is somehow worse than 20+ years of DogBlud's documented abuse and multiple victims. Make it make sense.

[nefermaet]

doesn't matter the reason, there is no excuse for "joking" about calling the gestapo on someone. its a vile, disgusting thing to do that aligns you with nazis.

you've officially maligned yourself with the entirety of the werewolf crowd and it's working through the furries as we speak. to sit here and dig your heels in while at the same time admitting you lied about something so awful, regardless of the reason, while some 500+ people are profoundly horrified by your actions speaks volumes about you at this moment. many of those people were on your side, but no longer.

we do not stoop to nazism, ever, for anything. there is no excusing that behavior.

furthermore, as a silent observer of this feud between you and d0g, and a follower of both of you for years, i can assure you that fuckice alt account that you think belongs to her is not hers. it isn't. i promise you that is not her. but you're too unwell to see that right now. you're too unwell to realize how unwell you are.

please go find professional help urgently.

I spent 9 months with DogBlud, I know how her (your) fash ass types lol.

"I would never body shame you" Dog....hunny....this just sad.

This is also the exact same pattern I used to bait Dog, d0g?, (you) into saying my username in the first place, and interesting how this happened at the around same time a pedo, who's gf actually threatened to get people deported, called me out. Like attracts like.

This was also the FIRST messages I got before I closed my inbox day 1. Crazy how my alt account was targeted immediately following the fallout because I had anon open here but not on blackbackedjackal because I was shadowbanned and couldn't receive messages until suddenly could without an email from tumblr support.

Speaking of, @staff I will be looking into this matter closer since there are only a handful of people working support now. If someone has been abusing their work privileges to harass a queer, disabled person of color by shadowbannning my blog, that's not a good look for PR, and the r/tumblr is already floundering with similar claims.

[nefermaet]

I don't want anyone going after Rex for this whole situation. Not even to be like, "Jackal said this about you." She's a grown woman, she can make her own decisions, and she deserves peace after everything she went through with me.

Rex protected me from Dog on many occasions. She gave me a safe space and a shoulder to cry on when the gaslighting was becoming too much. She gave me a sense of agency and gave me the courage to talk about this whole situation. She's so brave and caring and has an incredibly strong sense of justice. I cannot imagine how betrayed and hurt she feels. Confused, manipulated, and exhausted. I can't even begin to apologize because I knew how badly doing this could hurt her. I wish I could have gotten to her in time to tell what was going on in private (not that would have made it OK to begin with), but I don't blame her in the slightest for lashing out without knowing what the fuck I was doing. I just hope she's getting the comfort and quiet she deserves from all of this.

DogBlud hasn't said anything about Rex publicly in a while because it's part of her tactics, to devalue her targets, but this is how she spoke to Rex in private. First pic is the last thing she said to Rex in DMs when we split creatively March of 2024. Predator behavior. Disgusting.

I can only assume if I'm being stalked, Rex might be a target too. I've been concerned for both of us, but she had protected me long enough. I fully understood what hell I was unleashing by inciting the wrath of trial by Wolf Violence, but enough was enough.