#don'tmindthis

[sadbagofbones]

I feel like we're constantly running away, and we have no idea what from, or what towards. Maybe we've forgotten where we started from, and where we're headed. All we remember, is that we have to run.

And running, is exhausting.

[sadbagofbones]

Why is it that at times we fail to find the joy in things we're supposed to love the most? The career, the people, the life we chose for ourselves? Everyone has that one escape, from all the inconvenience that is life. But is it necessary, now, to have an escape from that escape?

Why are we so inclined towards escaping? We made a choice, we should have the courage to stand up for it when things get tough, right? Then why do we find it easier to run away? To numb it, rather than feel it?

We keep saying, we need a break, we could use a breather, because yes, things get tough and the human stress response kicks in which is exhausting. But, what's a break from the break? Is there a break from the break?

Is it always going to be like this, running away from things we once wished we had?

[kaycstreet]

We were so close as friends this last year, and then you left,

Haven’t heard from you.

Was going to text you Happy Birthday.

But I don’t think I want to hear back from you.

[eyesthattellstories]

Too tired for everything. Reached that point in time when I really just wanted to give up. Huhu please, Lord God, remind me that this is all worth it. :’(

[eyesthattellstories]

Why do I have to explain myself?

My heart is so crushed right now. I used to be so sensitive about other people being mean to me. Nowadays, I always try to keep my cool and try to understand where everybody is coming from. But what happened today is just the worst. Someone just have to be so unreasonably mean to me, judging everything about me and my job. I just can’t. I always try to be positive, not to become the person (who thinks she’s the most useless) who I used to be. But then, here comes this guy who just had to be so cruel to say that I am worth nothing and that I am not worth of my position. It’s just so sad how he is not seeing everything in the picture. Okay lang kung those criticisms were privately messaged. But no. He just have to say it to my face in front of a huge crowd. I mean why huhuhuhu. Tapos wrong accusations pa. How could I not be disheartened about it? My friends have always told me not to become that girl whom others think of as vulnerable and easy to get bullied or smth. But idk. I have always tried my best to fight for myself. It’s just that there is that point wherein I just can’t help it but break down. In my head, the phrases, “Wow, you are really useless, aren’t you?” and “Try to keep your cool. Prove them they’re wrong.” have been battling which leads to loss for words and a total silence. Huhuhuhuhu I can’t explain myself anymore. Now, I just want to lie on my bed forever. I don’t want to face the world tomorrow. Why do people have to be so mean :( 

[eyesthattellstories]

how could (someone like you) be so cruel

[eyesthattellstories]

Ugh I'm so tired of immature fans. DAMN IT. This whole street team thing is not a competition for all of you to claim that you're the official ones. Whether you were the first ones to listen to them or you made the first twitter account dedicated for them-

I DON'T CARE. Just support the band. Why do you always have to get recognition for it? 

[eyesthattellstories]

Faith in humanity increased. :)

Sobrang di ko inaasahan na hihimatayin ako ngayon. O well. Naglalakad lang ako to engg for my class then parang bigla nakong nahilo. Good thing medyo malapit lang ako sa may waiting shed sa Molave so nagdecide akong magstay muna don. Tapos basta kausap ko na lang bigla yung guard at isa pang Ate sa Molave at sobrang inaasikaso nila ko. Thank God sobrang dami pa ring tao na kahit hindi ka kilala e tutulungan ka. :( Sobrang nakakaiyak din yung org mates ko na isang text lang anjan na sila kagad.  Thank you Lord for this day. :'(