Even after the few kind donations from folks on here, I am still way behind on bills, and more car repair costs are going to come sooner than I want. Please if you can donate my paypal email is [email protected]
Thank you. <3
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Yeah.... happens every year it seems. If anyone has any extra bucks laying around It all helps. Idk what else to say really, i always feel bad when i need to ask for help
I wish I didn't need to, I'm just so tired.
Okay, a comment from @kinasecrystal has led me to feel as if i must explain how very much I can't stand AZ. And how very much being disabled/homeless in AZ sucks in any season. And why no contact is best contact with my terrible conservative maga family.
I did not get diagnosed with the autism i very much had until I was an adult. It took ten years of smashing my head into metaphorical barriers until I was able to get actual services that met my needs. And even longer to get a clinic that wasn't gaslighting me over my diagnoses. I have only been briefly employed a few times since roughly 2009. I cannot work because my ability to process information or respond quickly to changes in situations has degraded significantly, and was never that great to begin with. Also: anxiety and meltdowns.
I became fully homeless in roughly 2012. I was living for about a year or so with my toxic, abusive parents! They initially were willing to have me stay with them, and while I thought that my pets at the time (a cat and cockatiel) would be welcome/my parents would be able to keep them in food and cat litter, I found that this was not the case. There were other additional problems most of them centering around my being liberal, and their being incredibly conservative and also kind of racist! A great time was not had by all, and mom eventually kicked me out due to irreconcilable differences in opinion. (I was going crazy trying to find work, and my parents thought I wasn't trying hard enough.)
This resulted in two (2) suicide attempts and two trips to a resource center for the homeless/mentally ill.
In 2013, I end up in a group home, but this does not go well for me, as it's basically a different variation of "get a job. No, you aren't trying hard enough. Any job. Just get a job," that my parents had put me through and resulted in the attempts. Then in 2014 I end up getting kicked out because no job. I had to go to a homeless shelter that would drop you off at a down town resource center for the homeless. I made an effort to find a way to get a job, and services, AND disability, which was not easy the first time nor the second time.
THIS is why I do not want to go through being homeless in AZ again. The first time around drove me near around the bend. That I'm going to be homeless again is a very strong possibility, and I will fast forward many years to explain why.
In 2019: I finally get diagnosed/screened. There is a great deal of drama because the SMI (seriously mentally ill) clinic I am at will not include "autism" in their treatment plan because autism is developmental. They will NOT put the goddamn diagnosis paperwork on file. They are complete asinine dicks to me. But!
I have housing where I pay a reduced rent
I have foodstamps.
I am getting closer to my end goal of Finally Getting Disability and/or SSI.
There are some very stupid problems with my parents that result in my finally, finally, FINALLY going full no-contact instead of partial. (They deliberately wrecked my book cases when I asked them to hold my stuff while I was homeless and also unable to pay for storage. My horrible, mean littlest sister set my cockatiel loose. My very geriatric cockatiel, who was never the most agile flier, IN A NEIGHBORHOOD FULL OF GODDAMN FERAL CATS. My mom decided to be super passive aggressive at me, my dad kept pitching tantrums at me. It was an entire thing, and on top of the my brother was being Super Annoying.)
2020: I think I have most of my shit together, but then: Pandemic. This time sucked less for me because I had moved to a better apartment, Didn't usually go outside or interact with others all that much, I had SSI, and I was doing pretty okay and I had an Emotional Support Dog.
Fast forward: Everything goes fucking down hill in 2024- 2025. I don't have SNAP benefits, and I am having problems with the apartment management who keep trying to evict me for reasons that are a) untrue b) absolute bullshit. (They tried to say my emotional support dog didn't have a doctors note and I'd be evicted over that. They tried to say the apartment was unlivable, when it was just between cleanings and I am terrible at housework because executive dysfunction. Just. Absolute bullshit.)
In 2025-2026, things go absolutely to hell with my housing specialists/the subsidized housing contractors who pay most of the rent. My complex changed hands. So far so good. I am pretty sure I was told that the contractor-company paid my rent to the new owners. HOWEVER the ledger shows that this was not actually the case. I might or might not be required to pay off that rent, depending on if the housing company decides to recognize the debt or not. (They are not going to. They won't answer my phone calls. They won't reply to my emails. THEY WON'T FUCKING RESPOND TO MY CASE MANAGER'S CALLS OR EMAILS.)
On top of that:
Youngest Sister is pulling the same kind of passive aggressive shit our mother did to me, Younger Sister and Little Brother. And is saying the most insane bullshit I've ever heard, racist, antisemitic, homophobic, transphobic ableist shit. Brother is full on Maga, and I can only assume so are most of the relatives in AZ. (And I know I assume correctly because they are fucking batshit insane "christian" conservatives who I really, really can't stand.)
So. I am. Getting. The Fuck. Out. I am getting help from Younger Sister and Brother In Law (mostly promoting/reposting my help request, though sister is also going to help with transportation and making sure I don't get lost two feet from the airport/trainstation/whereever)
My goal is 15,280, with a move out date somewhere near the end or November, but hopefully not too close to the holiday rush.
I don't like asking for help, but today I truly need to.
It's been a while since our campaign received any support, and I would be lying if I said that doesn't scare me 💔
Behind this fundraiser is a family still trying to rebuild their life, a student still trying to hold onto his education, and people who are doing their best not to lose hope.
When donations stop, our struggles don't stop with them. The worries, responsibilities, and uncertainty are still here every single day.
So if you've been following our story, if you've ever felt sympathy for what we're going through, please consider helping us today. Even a small donation can make a real difference, and even sharing our campaign could help us reach someone willing to support.
Thank you to everyone who has stood beside us so far. Your kindness means more than words can express 🤍🙏
https://gofund.me/5cdd060e
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My oldest fandom friend Kristina (not active on tumblr these days but still has a blog over at @myfairprouvaire) has been having a really rough time of it, culminating last autumn in losing her cat Squish, who had taken care of her for eleven years through some very difficult times, in traumatic circumstances. She wasn't looking for a new cat, but a fluffy little kitten adopted her very firmly, and picked up looking after her right where Squish left off. He is a drapey, affectionate cuddlebug, sleeps on her and makes sure she's never lonely, and is very much earning the name of Damiano, which I jokingly suggested in the first few days on hearing about how very daft and affectionate he is. :D
Unfortunately, Damiano has developed some problems with his eyes, and although FIV and leukaemia have already been ruled out, he needs more tests, and it's going to be expensive. Kristina could do with some financial support to try and find out what's wrong and then get it treated. He's already done so much for her and he's only a baby - and he deserves to be healthy and happy and comfortable.
So if you've ever enjoyed my writing or my general ramblings on here, and you have a few pennies to spare, please consider helping my friend and her ridiculously adorable little rockstar of a kitten! She has a GoFundMe here: https://www.gofundme.com/f/hope-for-damiano-fund-his-eye-care-journey which includes more information and a very cute pic of Damiano. (the cat, not his namesake. XD )
I am trying to raise roughly $3,000 dollars to help with expenses while I am off my feet for four to six weeks due to surgery recovery. I had started my new job recently and they do not offer paid leave (luckily I still have a job after my recovery time).
The date of my operation is June 2nd, and I am hoping to earn $850 by that time, with the rest being earned during my downtime.
Commissions are very much open. If you put in a request for a commission at the start of June, especially the quick ones, please give me extra time to get back you (as I will be in pain and on medication).
As always, I am selling a lot of items -- like original paintings, trading cards, comics, books, electronics, etc. I use both eBay and Mercari, links to both can be found in my pinned post.
I am hoping to have InPrnt up and running before then. I also have a RedBubble. (This part will be updated when InPrint is up)
June 2nd to June June 8th:
The start of me being bedridden and I'll be super, super out of it. Mercari and eBay will be closed/set to vacation time during this time.
I'll have some scheduled posts across all socials to keep active but if you want to actually talk to me I will not get back to you until the following week.
June 9th to June 30th:
This is when I'll be catching up on commissions that I did not get a chance to finish prior to the operation. I'll also be answering any messages. Mercari and eBay will open back up. Commissions will be set to a wait list on the 30th.
June 30th to July 7th:
Not as bedridden and I should be back at work by the following week. Most, if not all commissions should be done.
If you know someone who wants commissions, wants cards or items, please pass it along. It is easier to just advertise commissions than it just asking for help with a set goal in mind, but I am in a bit of bind.
Anyway, thanks for reading!