#dont think just write

[unjustifiedhatredofnavyblue]

Hate

I hate myself 

But not in the way you might think 

I hate certain parts of my mind

But I still love being me

I hate the way I overthink 

But I love my body 

I hate the way I’m indecisive 

But I love the way I try 

I hate the fact that I’m sad sometimes 

But I love the confidence I have

I hate the way that I’m self-destructive 

But I loved each scar as I dealt it 

I hate the way I think about what others see

Even though I’m completely happy with who I turned out to be 

I hate the fact that I hate myself 

That sentence condemns me, I need help

[sonnie m phillips]

[unjustifiedhatredofnavyblue]

H*ck of a Drug

I’m in love 

With the color of your soul 

Some sort of presence 

That makes me feel whole 

I go crazy 

In all the right ways

I’ve never been so happy 

To be blissfully insane 

Before I met you 

Nothing felt quite right 

But here I stand 

Never been so sure in my life 

I know this sounds crazy 

Especially coming from me 

But I think I’m in love

A twist I thought I’d never see

With you I’m happy 

But all on my own 

You help me along 

But I’m still in control 

Lovers, best friends

And things in between

This mood that I’m in 

Is never before seen 

[sonnie m phillips]

[unjustifiedhatredofnavyblue]

Life Lately

It just seems like life lately isn’t what I want it to be 

And don’t tell me that I should just wait and see 

I’m sick and I’m tired of you thinking that you know me 

I’ve changed and I’ve grown I’m no longer your zombie 

I get so angry thinking of all the years I spent 

In anguish believing I’d always be second best

News flash: I’m not. I’ve found my own self worth 

Even though a few years ago the thought would seem absurd

What an idea, I have my own thoughts, things I want to be 

Funny, I didn’t become the carbon copy you wanted to see 

Right now are just the growing pains, I’m spouting my wings

I am getting closer to the final copy of me 

Yes the journey is painful, I hope that its worth it

There are voices deep down that say I don’t deserve this 

They whisper their nuances and say I should quit 

But as I write these words I know I’m done with their shit

[sonnie m phillips]

[unjustifiedhatredofnavyblue]

Perspectives

Look at my eyes, 

They’ve seen some pain 

But through it all

There’s joy I’ve maintained 

Grab my hands,

They’ve committed some crimes

But I don’t define myself

By past drawn lines

Hear my voice?

It once was gone

But the time spent afraid 

Has built me up tall 

Step on my toes, 

Like you always would 

See where we are?

And you said I never could 

[sonnie m phillips]

[sometimesilikewriting-blog]

The soft ruffles of leaves in the wind tickles my heart, like the sound of skin rubbing together between sheets love...

[sometimesilikewriting-blog]

Thoughts in a fragment flow

Unmistakably mistaken for a Yogi machine. 

I am in Pain Pain Pain, 

Thanks for noticing.

I rush myself into non-attachment and find myself untaken for reality. I can can’t feel please take me with you I just want to feel like I’m part of something beautiful. Please. I’m sober. Right now.

I have the power to reject whatever I want. I am in control of thyself only a little bit until I fall into it again. 

Community.

On a scale of 1-fucked up, does it even matter?

Labels Labels Labels

Come with me into unproductive land. I’ll make you feel guilty for everything. Then we’ll bask in sarcasm and draw smiles on our faces to show the world just how OK we are. 

no no no no no

Negative

Negations

IDA IDA LEFT LEFT

COLOR: BLACK

SOUND: HA! HA! HA!

MOOOOOOOOON

Shine so bright on me while I sleep the night away and dream of my unconscious feelings toward people around me. Absorbing their energies and shit...

I can’t see anything anymore anyway. When did this get so dark? Maybe we unfold as the alignment of present’s harmony unfolds.

Chocolate is nice and I love the self that I am but i can’t handle the unknown sensibility of undertaken norms. Society is important. It’s important to get fucked up.

To do lists rain from the pits of deep grief.

Saying No.