If you know better, you should do better...
A friend of mine said something very interesting to me a week or so ago. She was telling me about her sister, who loves to run scams and get money underhanded and very sneakily. I am sure many of you know about the breach of security that happened a month or so ago with Target. Well my friend's mother was one of the millions affected by it. Her daughter, the sneaky one, tells her "Mom, someone can go into target with a hat on and glasses and take money from the ATM and Chase will give it back to you." She was trying to get her mother to agree to, since after the sneaky daughter took the money out, Mom could file a claim and get her money back. My friend tells me this, and we both agree that this is crazy and she is crazy. My friend then says, " She doesn't even understand how she is blocking her blessing like that." I agree with her at the moment, and didn't think to much of it. But then later on, I saw how it relates to myself.
I knowingly do wrong. I know better, but I do not do better. My boss does wrong. He knows better, tries to justify it, but he cannot. It really makes no sense. My uncle that raped me did wrong. He tried to justify it to me, but it made no sense. We all continued/continue to do wrong knowing it was wrong. We try and justify it, it makes no sense, even though we and make it make sense. It does not. Yet we continue to do wrong.
My boss has been working here at this job for 5 years. He often boasts about it, saying he will not go anywhere. He often gets mad when there are people that is works side by side with, that get promotions that are in the business less time than him. He says he should have gotten that promotion and not them. I often think, "If you were that good, someone would have come to get you already." I think the same about men and some women that are looking to get into a professional sporting team and/or the music industry. IF YOU WERE THAT GOOD, SOMEONE would have come and taken you already. Its just that simple.
I have been at my job for 3 years now. 1 year longer than what I thought I would be. I do wrong here on a monthly basis and have the nerve to wonder why I am still here. The wrong that I do and accept to happen, leads my boss to think that he has something over me. I could very well be blocking my blessing of a new job. I have been thinking about it all day. Well maybe not all day, just the last few hours. I was looking forward to doing wrong today. But I had to stop myself and be more of an honest person. I have to have more integrity than that.
I do not want to block my blessing any longer and curse myself to be here at this job forever like my boss. Just pray for me. As I will pray for all of you. I hope this make some more since.
Just know that everyone needs to do the right thing and not block your blessings! If you are knowingly doing wrong, STOP IT! Even if you can justify it! STOP IT. My boss often tells me that God will not bless you with more if you cannot handle what He has already given you. I want God to know I can handle more. I can no longer block my blessings.
Pray for me as I will for you.