Don't Call Me Mouse
Left standing in the dark
To face the demons alone
The red lights fade to nothing
The screech of tires on pavement
The loss of another
Broken down
Feeling weak
Faking strong for those I love
Numb is all I feel
Day in, day out
I stare at walls
I talk to stuffies
Crazy is what I am
Not knowing where to turn
Needing him to take the pain
Instead, he lit the match
and held it to my heart
My replacement;
Young, fresh, full of life
Flirty, drunk, not full of spite
He called her my name
Now if feels like ash in my mouth
What kills me most?
College girl.
There's no competing
My body ruined by children;
Hers beautiful
My smile dimmed by grief;
Hers full of naughty promises
Thats what he wants
My heart hurts
My stomach a knot
I cant look at myself anymore
And not see everything I dont have
I used to be that girl
17 years ago
How do I give him something I am not?
I am no longer the youngest girl,
For some reason
That hurts my soul.
He says he loves me
He says its true
But how am I what you want
When I am nothing like her?