Sometimes I go through a time of tiredness, grumpiness, complacency, and laziness. It's those times when I just want to give up everything and fall into a temporary coma, and wake up to find everything fine again. But when I wake up, I'm not fine. When I wake up, the same tiredness and bitterness haunts me, and God doesn't seem to be anywhere. This is me right now. Lord I need you. Even though I feel like I don't need you, I need you. My heart needs you. It's thirsting for something, someone, anything to quench it's thirst. My heart yearns to feel- to be alive again. Help me not to be numb to my surroundings and to you. Help me feel, understand, know, and love again. Only you can do that.