051 American Trade Policies
If the reason you are interested in reading this blog is because you want to indulge in reading what my thoughts are on the United States/Chinese Trade Policies, then I would just close this page now and move on. I have no intention to speak about a subject so complex and difficult that in my first days of research I'm struggling. & I thought Geology was hard.
So, anyway, I am sitting in my room, finally on my desk and not the usual spoon chair or couch that I have come to claim as my lazy spots. I have a whole lot of reading, studying, & word looking up to do. But all I can think about is how am I going to do this? How did I get by in Argentina. I mean I seriously close my eyes and think of Argentina, and how little time I feel like I spent on academics, and still managed to do well. I returned to the states to have a jam packed full schedule & I am so exhausted everyday.
I enjoy my classes, especially Geology! Who would have thought & I am highly considering a career in Geology I feel this is the only way that I could justify my love for rocks to society. Plus my professor Dr. Pearson is great! He actually has this way of lecturing that grabs my attention. Today he pulled a jersey shore and ran his head into a globe that hit the wall,in an attempt to demonstrate something to do with long-horn-sheep. (I do not watch Jersey Shore, I only make this claim because it was brought up in class). It was hilarious! I actually cannot wait to tell Molly, all about this over skype and actually show her what happened only she will fully appreciate it and then I will tuurrrrrbus it & she will probably die of laughter! I wonder if that will be considered manslaughter or not. Hahaha
Anyway, I have found that I miss Argentina dearly everyday! Not a day passes when I don't think about Rondeau, Rivera Indarte, La Catolica, La Alameda, Montserrat, Licuado, Empanadas, my host mom, Buen Pastor, Mate, Fernet, Jodas, Studio, Intercambio Cordoba, & of course all of my friends.
I never thought that in so little amount of time someone could come to mean the world to me. Never expected to fall in love with more than one person and to have people who I know are now my family, and will always be there despite all the miles and the HUGE ocean that separates us.
Blah, it is sad that many friendships from before have not survived and that relationships end and get messy and that people walk away and that I too chose to walk away. But the thing is I have a new perspective and I am happy for that. I read once that life gives us not the people we want but those who will make us feel all these emotions and who will ultimately help us become the person we are destined to be. & while some people chose to walk away or I chose to walk away from them I want to thank them for being a part of my life, for being someone who shared their experience with me and who allowed me to share a bit of my life and experience with them. For whatever reason our paths broke off into separate ones but I will always close my eyes and smile because all those experiences helped me get here to where I am today. They all helped me grow and become me.
All the experiences, people, and events changed me and will continue to change me and helped me learn so that I can be the best version of myself that I can be.
Graduating from HS the most incredible English teacher and wisest mentor I know told me, it was all about People, Purpose & Passion, as long as I had these I would succeed and be happy. He knows me well, because today when I get discouraged I always think back to that, to how one person who knew absolutely nothing about me was able to see something that they thought could turn into something great, and chose to invest time, energy and resources in helping someone who never thought she'd be where she is today.
And yet here I am today, sitting in my college dorm room, wondering whether I should sleep now or keep reading. Wondering how long it will take for me to understand the Sino-American trade policies. Wondering how I plan to make it in law school if this is stressing me out already. Yet, one thing I know for certain is, I will get all of this school work done. I will understand the trade policies for better or for worse. & most importantly I know for certain that maybe not today, not tomorrow, or next year but one day I will trade the life of a student for the life an educator and I will make a difference.