Fear in the Night drabblings
The writing bug has gotten to me, apparently! Here’s a thingy I wrote about Michael and James first meeting.
Context: after the film’s events, Michael has been taken to an asylum, but due to his fragile mental state, he only vaguely remembers everything that happened in the film and is very confused as to why he’s being locked up. Deeming him aggressive after he tried to struggle away from the people trying to restrain him, his doctors have taken his prosthetic arm from him.
1872 words, content warning for referred to ableism
“…Wilson…?
Evans…?
Where… where are you…?!”
The heat licked at the headmaster’s skin, but he would not leave the building until he knew what had become of all of his boys. He kept running through the hallways, his head spinning as they seemed to be going on endlessly. And yet, he would not stop. Not until he knew that his pupils were safe.
…He had already seen too many of them burn to death right before his eyes to allow any more victims of this fire.
Most of the students and teachers were outside. They just didn’t know what had happened to a handful of them.
…So of course Michael had not left the building yet. He could barely see and it was getting harder and harder to breathe, but he would rather die than sit back and wait while the boys that he was supposed to be responsible for were dying in the fire.
…He at least owed them that much after accidentally worsening the flames.
His heart sank as he heard the cries of children. Wheezing loudly, he sprinted towards the door where the sound was coming from, noticing that a part of the hallway had collapsed, the debris now blocking the opening. Things were starting to go blurry as he desperately pushed open the door, using his final energy to shout at the last remaining boys to run outside as if their life depended on it before collapsing onto the floor.
The boys escaped unscathed.
…Michael wouldn’t.
Barely conscious, he felt the flames burn up his body as he screamed his lungs out. It was as if his left arm was being torn off by the heat. He tried to get up, to crawl away, but… as soon as the headmaster tried to move his arms, he made a horrifying realisation.
…He had no left arm anymore.
There was only a stump at his shoulder.
Had it been… amputated…? But how…?
Panic rose as the smoke made it unable to see. His heart was beating faster and faster. The flames kept burning. The screams did not fade from his ears.
All he could do was cry out for the boys that had died in the fire.
Michael froze in place, a feeling of dread rising up in his chest.
…This would be his death.
…Everything went black.
***
“Mr. Carmichael? Mr. Carmichael, it’s okay… there’s nothing to be afraid of, you are safe…”
Michael awoke screaming, the white walls of his asylum cell still not being an environment that he was used to wake up in. He often simply forgot that he was in here now, instead of being at the school.
It was where he should be.
Teaching his boys.
…The confusion had not stopped, not even after weeks of incarceration.
Why… was he here again…?
“…Mr. Carmichael, do you hear me…?”
Michael only heard the voice as if it came from someplace distant. It took him a while to register that the person calling out was, in fact, standing right next to his bed, looking at him.
He could not see that well without his glasses, so he could only make out a blur.
Someone wearing a doctor’s coat.
Dark hair.
Relatively tall of frame.
…Features that all matched… him…
But how? Wasn’t he-
“G- GET AWAY FROM ME, ROBERT!”, the headmaster shouted, his eyes blind with panic as he tried to back off, leaning on his arm. “Get… get away… You… you already tried to kill me… I…”
Not being used to moving without his prosthetic, he lost balance and collapsed in on himself, miserably laying on his cell’s uncomfortable mattress as he curled himself up into a ball, softly weeping. “…I don’t want to die, Robert…”, he sobbed quietly.
“…Sir, I think you are mistaking me for someone else.”
The voice was a bit more clear this time. It… was very unlike Robert’s.
This voice sounded kind. Patient. Perhaps… even a bit concerned…?
Michael slowly stopped sobbing, instead laying still with a vacant expression on his face. “...Then who are you...?”, he muttered quietly.
The stranger crouched down next to him, a serene feeling emanating from him. “I am Dr. James Grey,” he calmly explained, “and I was assigned the night shift for the ward tonight. I heard you screaming in your sleep, and so I decided that it would be best for me to see what was going on. Did you have a nightmare, Mr. Carmichael?”
The headmaster froze up as he heard the word ‘doctor’. He... he had seen his fair share of doctors as of late. One of them had tried to murder him in a conspiracy made with his wife, and the others had only screamed at him for being a ‘criminal’, only to give him medication that did not work.
Michael shivered.
He never wanted to see another doctor in his entire life.
“Please...”, he uttered weakly, trembling. “...I don’t want any more pills... Th- they do not help, they only make me feel horrible...” He began to sob again, trying to cover his face with both of his hands, but of course only succeeding to do so with one. His left shoulder could only muster to move the little stump that was left there.
“I’m not here to give you any medication, Mr. Carmichael, I just wanted to see if everything was okay”, Dr. Grey assured him. “...It was a nightmare, wasn’t it...?”
Michael stayed silent. “...The other doctors only call me aggressive when I scream”, he mumbled. “...Why do you care...?”
The doctor seemingly thought about that for a while. “...Because I want the best for my patients, Mr. Carmichael”, he eventually said. “And since I am responsible for the ward tonight... you are a patient of mine. I know some of the doctors here have work ethics that I...” He paused, as if he was heavily considering his words. “Strongly disagree with, but at the moment, you are under my care. So please, tell me... is there something bothering you...?”
Michael stared into the distance. “…When can I go back to teaching, doctor…?”, he asked after a while, not really wanting to answer the question. Everything was bothering him. He just wanted to be back at his school already. Even after the… incident… he had been happy there.
…Ever since he had been locked away within these plaster walls, he had only known panic.
Shards of vague memories and confusion kept coming back to him. It reminded him of his first hospital stay after… after he had been burnt.
…Those memories were something that he never wanted to be reminded of in his entire life, yet it felt as if it was happening all over again.
…Why couldn’t he just be at the school again…?
“Teaching…?”, Dr. Grey asked. “I… I do not know when you will be able to go back, sir… As far as I’m aware, you do not have a discharge date.”
Michael felt his heart sink. He felt sick in his stomach. He turned around in his bed, his back facing the doctor. “…Then there is nothing you can help me with”, he muttered, closing his eyes as his body trembled. “…Someone like me is not worth your time.”
… He just wanted to fall back asleep again. Every minute spent awake in this place was worse than any nightmare.
… He also felt like a burden.
He knew that he was a difficult patient for any doctor trying to help him. And he knew they hated him for it. All his previous doctors had, so why should this man be any different?
…Why did these people hate him so much for something he had no control over, anyway…?
“…You said that you are a teacher, Mr. Carmichael?”
…Michael slowly turned around again as he heard that.
“…Headmaster, technically”, he mumbled. “…Though I do teach my boys Latin…” He closed his eyes, the image of his classroom filled with his pupils appearing before his eyelids again. It was as if he had never been locked up in this foul place, if only for a moment.
“Ah, I see.” Dr. Grey’s voice snapped him back to reality again, no matter how much he wanted to hold onto his imaginations. “…Well, if I ever come across one of those scientific Latin names again, I’ll know who to turn to if I don’t understand them.” The doctor chuckled for a moment, before clearing his throat, recomposing himself again. “…That was only a little joke, of course, you don’t have to translate anything”, he assured Michael. “Don’t worry, I’ve got my terms all memorised.”
A light began to shine in the headmaster’s eyes as he sat up. “…Could I…?”, he asked hesitantly, knowing that he would probably not be granted the favour. “I… I love translating.”
Dr. Grey seemed surprised by that question. He stayed silent for a while, but then smiled. “…If that would help to soothe you, then I do not see the harm”, he said. “…I’ll see what I can do when my shift’s over, all right?”
Michael stared at the doctor, not believing what he just heard.
Dr. Grey… was being kind to him.
“…Thank you…”, he stammered, his lips trembling. “…Thank you, doctor…”
The doctor smiled. “Think nothing of it, Mr. Carmichael”, he said, before standing up again. “…I’d better go and check in on the other patients too now, but it has been a pleasure to speak with you, sir.”
Michael tried to reach out for him, but instead only his shoulder stump moved. “W- wait…”, he stuttered, fearing the prospect of being left alone to his thoughts again. “You… you will come back to check on me again, won’t you, doctor…?” He stared at the man with pleading eyes, wishing he could simply cling on to this man, the only one in this godforsaken asylum who had seen him as a human being, not a deranged patient. “I don’t like… the other doctors…”
Dr. Grey raised his eyebrows, before giving him a reassuring smile. “I will, Mr. Carmichael”, he said. “Of course I will. And I will see what I can do about giving you something to translate, all right?” He opened the door leading to the hallway, giving Michael one last glance.
“…Good night, sir.”
The headmaster stared at the ground for a while as he sat there all alone again. He did not know what had just happened. It was all a confusing mess for him.
…There was a little something in him that felt happy after this conversation, though.
Something that wanted to get to know this doctor better.
He let out a yawn, closing his eyes as he pulled his bedsheets over him again.
The bed was cold and uncomfortable.
…It couldn’t be any more unlike the bed he was used to.
He let out a sad sigh as he was reminded of how much he missed home once again.
…There was a slight silver lining now, though.
He knew that there was someone in this place who genuinely wanted to help him.
…It was a comforting thought as he drifted off to sleep again.
“…Good night, doctor…”, he mumbled, holding his blanket.
“…Good night.”














