i want to go back and breathe in that familiar air. i want to wake up suffocating from my own breath, sunlight peeking through the cracks of my blanket fort. i want to eat breakfast with my eyes still half closed. i want my mother to hold me and warn me of all the things to come. i want to hug her back and tell her how proud i am and tell her how she is my entire heart. i want to stay in those morning minutes forever. i wish i had never left.








