Remus felt drunk. They were all drunk, actually. But none of them were as bad as Sirius.
"M'okay, m'okay!" He mumbled when he almost tripped on the way to James's car.
"Get inside the bloody car, Sirius" James instructed as he took a large drag of water. He was the responsible driver after all and he needed to get everyone home.
The Marauders thought it would be a brilliant idea to go out tonight to cheer Sirius up. Especially after what happened with his family over the summer. How he had arrived to the Potter's with bruises on his face.
Effie and Monty went to their friend's house for the evening. So being home alone, the boys had convinced James to drive them into town to some club.
The night turned out to be a disaster instead of a fun evening. James, Remus and Peter ended up babysitting Sirius and preventing him from doing something stupid. They avoided fights and Sirius doing ridiculous shit on the dance floor. They even had to apologise to some girls that Sirius had bothered with his insistence on dancing.
For Remus it had been a confusing night. Stuck between realising his feelings for Sirius were back after a nice summer snogging Grant and hating himself for not being able to stop loving Sirius even when he was acting like an arsehole.
"Come on laddy lad, is not that hard" James tutted as Sirius stumbled inside the back seat of the car.
"I can do it, Prongs! Fuck off!" Sirius was whining.
Although he tripped as he got in and fell on his face into the seat cushions.
"Why do I agree to this, I wonder" James sighed "My parents are going to kill me"
"I'm pretty sure we will arrive before them" Remus nodded trying to convince him.
Sirius continued to whine and moan as he moved on the seat.
"If that wanker remembers how to properly sit in a car" James groaned "Why the fuck is Pete taking too long in the loo?"
"He probably fell asleep in there" Remus shrugged.
James took a desperate breath.
"I'll go search for him" he announced "In the meantime help your stupid friend, will you?" He pointed at Sirius who was face deep in the cushions.
"Ok" Remus didn't want to be left alone with Sirius.
"Are you feeling ok, Moony?" James asked "Feeling sober?"
Remus was mostly tired. He had drunk, yes but he never got that drunk.
"Yeah, don't worry" he replied.
"Drink some water" James said as he shoved the bottle into Remus's hands. "Be right back"
James walked away inside the club and Remus turned to Sirius with disdain.
The truth was that they hadn't been alone since the stupid kiss incident.
Last term, they had been laughing and teasing each other on the last day of school. Then Remus made the stupid mistake of kissing Sirius because he felt there was something there. Big mistake. Seconds later, Sirius pushed him away.
Remus couldn't shake the expression of panic and disgust Sirius had that day.
After that they ignored each other all summer. Until James called Remus and invite him over after what happened with Sirius.
But it was always the four of them. It was the first time they were alone since then. Just the two of them.
Remus sighed and patted Sirius's leg since he wasn't moving anymore.
"Come on, Sirius. Sit down like a proper person"
Sirius groaned but moved. He didn't get far. Just turned his head to the other side and bent his leg.
Remus was losing patience.
"Fucking move, Sirius!" Remus hit his shoulder this time.
Sirius woke up in a start.
Remus helped him up. It was a struggle and it took a lot of weird positions but Sirius finally managed to be seated. He looked dizzy and tired.
"Drink this" Remus passed him the rest of the water bottle.
"Moony" Sirius simply said.
But he obeyed. He drank some water and laid his head back.
More relieved. Remus got next to him in the back seat and closed the car's door.
The silence was loud for a second. Remus didn't know how to be with Sirius after that embarrassment. Even if Sirius was drunk
"Moony" Sirius said again.
"Mmm..." Sirius drank more water. Good.
Silence again. Sirius had his eyes closed but he opened them. Those beautiful eyes of his went directly to Remus. Remus decided to look through the window to avoid Sirius's gaze. But he felt it was intense on him. Burning him.
Remus felt Sirius scooping closer to him. He felt the heat of his body near him. And he smelled good, the bastard. Yes, he smelled of alcohol but also his wonderful cologne. And he smelled of him. That indistinguishable smell.
Remus tried not to move. But he flinched a little when Sirius's fingers touched his hair.
Bum, bum, bum, bum.... His heart was racing and he felt goosebumps.
"Your hair got longer" Sirius whispered. His voice low and careful.
Sirius continued touching it. He was twisting a lock of hair on his finger. Then his finger travelled down his head onto his neck. The second Sirius touched his skin, Remus felt a shot of electricity. A good one. He closed his eyes overwhelmed by all of this.
Remus was afraid his heartbeats were loud enough for Sirius to notice.
"What are you doing?" Remus decided to ask.
And he turned. He turned his head to see Sirius being very close to him. His face was only centimetres to his.
Sirius's eyes looked up into Remus's. Remus felt like he couldn't breathe. He was lost in those beautiful grey gems.
Sirius looked down. He focused on what his fingers were doing which was touching Remus's neck, softly, down to his collarbone then played with the collar of his shirt.
Remus was frozen. He didn't know what to do. He wanted to run away but also stay here forever and let Sirius touch him like that all he wanted. He wanted those hands everywhere. He wanted those lips everywhere. God, it felt so good...
"Moony?..." Sirius finally said in a whisper. He touched Remus's chin delicately.
He is drunk! Remus reminded himself as Sirius leaned closer. Goosebumps were everywhere and his heart was doing weird dances inside his chest. He had properly stopped breathing. He was out of breath.
Remus didn't need air, actually. All he needed was to taste those lips again and even if Sirius hated him for it and it would ruin their friendship, he would die in peace.
Remus was staring at Sirius's lips. But Sirius was also staring at his.
Remus realised how close they had been when James opened the door in the front, making both of them jump scared and Sirius backed away fast enough.
This happened in a matter of seconds. James got in and a second later Peter got into the passenger seat. They didn't notice anything weird.
"Turned out our dear friend Wormy did fall asleep in the loo" James continued saying as if nothing had happened.
"Could you please try and go slow?" Peter mumbled as a response "I don't feel very well"
Remus noticed the poor blond boy was very pale.
James sighed "Bloody hell" he said as he put on the seatbelt "Why do I always have to be the mother of your sorry arses?"
Remus's mind was a true tornado with confusion. He couldn't stop think about what just happened. He didn't imagine it, right? It had been real!
"Let's go home, boys!" James said as he turned the engine.
Remus turned to look at Sirius just to make sure he was real, if he was still there. Although Sirius had his head turned, face stuck to the opposite window, ignoring Remus.
They drove away. Remus was still shocked and confused. He thought nothing could ever happen with Sirius after his reaction to the kiss. He had accepted to be only a supporter friend because that's what he needed now.
But Remus honestly didn't know what to believe. He was still lost in the moment, repeating it on his mind over and over again. Sirius was definitely driving him mad. But whatever that was, Remus wanted it to happen again.
