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||. NGL ma moot, Thor's best kept secret is his own heart.
He doesn't share who he is and what he's feeling with anyone. Not his family, not his girlfriend/love of his life, not his longest friends, not his earthen allies. Even when he wants to connect with someone (for instance: Steve Rogers), it's an entire ordeal in and of itself just to give that person the bare minimum of the vulnerability they're asking of him. He won't speak of his own hardships, he won't speak of his own struggles. He might speak his thoughts and feelings to you on a normal day, sure, and he isn't the sort to try and hide his broodiness... but he'll rarely, if ever, bring it up first on his own, and he definitely will control the thread of conversations surrounding it either way. He will not talk about what he does not want to talk about, and he will end the conversation with something as simple as standing up if he decides the topic is something for Thor alone to worry about.
Unless a concern ultimately has something or other to do with what the other person/greater whole is worried about, most of the time you will NEVER hear Thor speak of it in the terms of "I, Thor, am worried about this." / "I, Thor, care very deeply about this." (i think the closest he came to that in phase 1-3 was "give up your poisonous dream. you come home." @ loki in avengers and even then,,,,) And you will find that even after months (or in Jane and Steve's case, even 4 years) of near constantly being around this guy that, of him calling you "friend" and seeming to have a good time in your company, that at the end of the day ....you don't really know much of anything about him that you didn't already know or quickly learn when you first met.
You never have. And he shows no signs of giving you those pieces of himself anytime soon, either.
Ironically, he fully believes that his mentions of vague things that are important to him ARE him being honest... because when you don't trust anyone to catch you when you fall and feel you have to do it all on your own, even admitting there is a problem is, in itself, a big deal. Even if you're only eluding to that fact. (Thinking specifically of, in AGE OF ULTRON (2015), Steve Rogers wanted Thor to lean on him after their Wanda visions. Thor...didn't do that, to say the least. And what he did instead was elude to Steve that what he did see in the dream was deeply troubling to him. Enough to need to go find answers elsewhere. And while to Thor that WAS him telling Steve the truth and being honest with his closest avengers companion, to Steve... that was just Thor locking him out. And not giving either Thor or Steve to remain on the same wavelength that they'd been on the whole rest of the movie prior to that. Steve later says "My teammates sometimes keep secrets from me. I was kinda hoping Thor might be the exception....")
Other than that for an actual more traditional secret.... I like to think his family was pretty stringent about keeping the general Asgardian public from knowing Loki didn't have special powers when they were growing up. It's a long-winded headcanon to explain but tl;dr if all royals of the Odin line have powers, and then Loki - "the youngest born son of Odin" - suddenly DIDN'T you wouldn't really want that information leaking out to everyone. For the safety of the family's reputation, but also ultimately for Loki's too.
I don't think he enjoyed keeping this secret and I don't think he ever felt that Loki's "defect" was ever something so wrong that Loki ought be ashamed of it either. Especially since Loki makes up for it in spades by thinking outside of the box and learning magic. And generally just being a fantastic kid that Thor loves dearly. But Thor also understands politics and the importance of public images... ESPECIALLY for his family, so.... he did what he had to do.
