#dumbass ranting

[moroneur]

Here's some of my funny google docs comments

[moroneur]

Could you write a headcanon for Leo from ‘Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles’ with a female reader who can transform into a giant white snake?

hiii you have NO IDEA how happy I was to get an ask <3 whoever you are dear anon I LOVE YOU DEARLY!!!

Leo was pretty surprised when you offhandedly mentioned your ‘true form’ during family movie nights. 

Double his surprise when he’s the last one to know out of his entire family. 

“Wait what?! No way you’re a yokai!!” He shouts in disbelief and immediately begs you to transform. Except, that’s not a possibility– you’d break the ceiling if you did. 

Being a big GIANT snake yokai wasn’t all rainbows and roses. It’s why you preferred presenting yourself as a small human. 

But seeing Leo’s eyes twinkle with such amazement and wonder made you want to show yourself to him, so you agreed to show him after the movie.

He could not focus the entire time, already imagining how you’d look like

Once their family decides to take a break, Leo pushes you onto the skate ramp in the common room, excitedly flapping his hands when u transform. 

He is SQUEALING like a fanboy the moment he sees your shiny self. You can distantly hear him shouting compliments at you– you’re as tall as their indoor skate ramp. 

He grabs your face when you lower yourself to hear him better with a shy smile. 

“YOU’RE SO COOL!” Loud volume aside, he’s fascinated with the way light dances across your pearly white scales. He hugs you immediately hehe. 

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Then he starts spouting stupid questions like: “How far do you think you could toss me?” “Is the end of your body considered a tail? Or a hand since you pick stuff up with it?” “Your scales are SO shiny, oh you HAVE to have some sort of routine, don’t you?” “You are SO SMOOTH!! Never put on a cloaking brooch, ever!” "You smell with your tongue, right?! How does that work?" He sticks his tongue out and tries to imitate you.

All in all, he’s your number one fan. 

Gives you the biggest sad face whenever you enter the room in your human form from now on

[moroneur]

being perceived is terrifying

working on something i'm passionate about is fun, but the thought of people I know in real life finding out I wrote or worked on silly little fanfiction makes me feel sick to my stomach. There's something actually scary about your entire being getting reduced to something you're interested in beacuse it feels like you're boxed in. I know I probably shouldn't care about what my friends or family think because, I'm not hurting anybody with this, so it should be a non-issue, but it ISNT, to me at least.

Being harshly judged by people i consider close has stopped me from posting SO MANY of my works, so they just... rot there, in my google docs. If anything, i only ever post anonymously. Soulbond AU is probably the only thing i had the courage to post, but i still get second thoughts about it. What if people dont like it? what if i write it poorly and the story ends up being shit and not good enough to read? I'm not saying im gonna quit writing or posting things, i just needed to get this whole rant out of my system haha..

[moroneur]

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HOW DO I KEEP THE MOTIVATION I HAVE FOR WRITING FROM SLIPPING THROUGH MY GRUBBY GREEDY FINGERS...... HELP ME