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time started by the alarm
to be first patient
for the doctor's procedure
making trepidation worse.
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D W Eldred

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Glimerless morning
time started by the alarm
to be first patient
for the doctor's procedure
making trepidation worse.
.
D W Eldred
Face sleeper
Cosima has decided to start sleeping ON HER FACE (not just on her tummy, FACE!!!) so if I see it in the night I have to flip her over. I checked yesterday with the health visitors and on the Lullaby Trust website, they confirm she needs to be flipped over if I see her face down because obviously it’s not safe. But she flips right back because apparently her face is really comfortable 🤷🏻♀️ Luckily for me (but stressfully as I now feel like I should be lying awake all night supervising her...) I only saw her face sleeping at 4:45 because after disturbing her she never went back to sleep and nor did I... 💤 I’m therefore pretending 5 is 6 and 6 is 7. Fed her at 6. I’ve been quite strict on not letting her get up until 7 which is when we Start The Day. But I think now 6 will do just fine seeing as she seems to be able to sleep through without a feed from 18:45 until then 😃 It’s a bit much expecting her to go to 7, perhaps. I am going to keep up the Fake Time Charade through the day. Self delusion is a beautiful thing. Have broken the news to the husband because naturally he needs to play along 😬
I woke up too early.
I have been wanting to start dream journaling, so when I woke up early this morning after a particularly bizarre dream, I decided to force myself to get up and write it all down before I forgot it. Unfortunately, by doing that, I woke myself up too much to get back to sleep, so I just decided to start my day.
Three hours later, and I’m already exhausted enough to fall back to sleep, but napping ruins my nighttime sleep schedule, so I have to try and stay awake. It’s funny that my attempts at improving my mental health often result in ruining another aspect of my life that I’ve tried to maintain in a way to improve my physical health.
You know you're up too early when your "Do Not Disturb" is still on
No More Early Wakings :)
As expected, Nathan continued to wake at the 430/500am marks crying, but this time, we let him cry it out. It sometimes took up to 20 mins before he fell back asleep but we were relieved that he was actually getting more sleep in. This continued for 3 days and then he stopped waking up at this time!! It was amazing. I had a baby that was nearly sleeping through the night and I was waking up feeling rested myself! I say 'nearly' because he still had a couple of short crying bursts in the middle of the night, but most lasting less than a minute.
Nathan still didn't shake the habit of crying for a minute when being put down, but it didn't last long before he would nod off to sleep, and when he woke, he would wake up happy while yammering away to himself...such a pleasant sound for a mom to wake up to :)
This was perfect timing because we had a vacation planned a week away and our goal was to have him completely sleep-trained by then.
Sleep Training Updated (a month later): Early waking after sleep training
So Andrew and I have continued to sleep on the sleeper couch. We have decided that this is how it will be going forward and that it was important for Nathan to have his own room. We have continued to have Nathan sleep on his own throughout the night without breastfeeding. This, unfortunately, led me to having my period return for the first time since before pregnancy.
Although everything I have read about sleep training indicated that a sleep-trained baby will be able to fall asleep on his own without crying, our Nathan seemed to still cry whenever I put him in his crib. His cry was nowhere as hysterical as it was at the beginning of sleep training and it only lasted about 30 seconds before he calmed himself down and eventually fell asleep. His crying seemed to be out of habit and maybe he just felt like the crying was part of his sleep routine. Because it didn't last very long, Andrew and I knew it was something that we could deal with.
Nathan would sleep a pretty long stretch before waking (maybe about 4 hours). When he woke, he would cry anywhere from 30 seconds to five minutes before falling back asleep. This would be a bit annoying in the middle of the night since it would wake us, but we refrained from going in his room to check on him.
He seemed to have mastered the skill of falling asleep on his own, and settling back asleep, but he still seemed to wake up very early (even with blackout panels). Sometimes he would only sleep for 9-10 hours and then wake at 5am or 6 am crying. I've previously read that some babies only needed 12 hours a day and since he typically naps two hours a day, I'd assume his early waking was a sign that he was done sleeping. This was brutal for me because I was still so tired but had to force myself to get up and get our day started.
This went on for two weeks until one morning he woke at 430am screaming. I turned to my husband and said "I can't keep living like this". I went back to the internet to see what I was doing wrong. After a bit more research I learned that a well rested baby should wake up happy, not screaming. I realized then that I must have been wrong in assuming his early wakings meant he was done sleeping. He could not have been rested if he was waking up so unhappy. But I didn't get it. Since he learned how to fall asleep on his own, why couldn't he settle himself back to sleep when he wakes in the early morning? Apparently, because he was closer to the end of his night time sleep, he was more rested, and therefore not as fatigued making it less easy to settle himself back down. So the solution was to let him cry it out...again :(
have to clean my room tonight because bright and early tomorrow! kill me I hate waking up early