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[inkless-knight]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Update!!! Ch. 4

Rating: Mature Relationships: Otabek Altin/Jean-Jacques Leroy Characters: Jean-Jacques Leroy, Otabek Altin, Jean-Jacques Leroy's Parents Additional Tags: JJStyleWeek, AU, King and Knight, Hurt/Comfort, King JJ, Knight Otabek, Forbidden Love, Jjbek, Secret Relationship, Aged-Up Character(s), Flashbacks, Lovely dorks in lovely love, JJbekweek, Masquerade, Slow Dancing, NSFW, First Time, Awkward First Time, P0rn with feelings Summary:

Les había costado, pero el rey tendía a siempre lograr lo que quería, se había esforzado porque ambos disfrutaran. Incluso si era en contra del buen juicio del General, a quien los recuerdos todavía le dolían desde la primera vez...

[carolinasousawrites]

Actually wrote something today! Yay!

[carolinasousawrites]

It’s so frustrating!

I have three days to finish feature film script or else I don’t graduate. And I know it’s crap. I don’t mean to say ‘oh, I’m dealing with self-doubt and I think that writing is bad, even though it’s probably fine’. I objectivelly know it’s bad. Because I have characters in a scene with barely any actual presence, no balance between dialogue and action - which makes them talking floating heads.

And I don’t know how to fix this. Because after two years of classes, I’ve written everything but a script.

The steps before getting to the script? Well, I don’t really know how to do them either. I can have an idea and plan aroun it the same way I could two years before, when I wasn’t a scriptwriting student.

My planning skills haven’t developed in the least. I still cannot write an argument, which is a basic skill in this market. I can’t write scene descriptions as drafts. And I’m struggling to push through and finish this film.

Because, right now, it feels pointless.

I’ve studied so much about the theory of writing and so little of its practice. A part of me just wants to get it over with, another part wants to throw this script out the window.

[carolinasousawrites]

I’m tired of my story.

I spent the semester writing and rewriting the synopsis for my class. I just don’t wanna have to do this anymore. I’m 50-something pages into the script, finally getting close to the ending. And all I can think is how crappy everything is turning out because I’m tired of the story, because I can’t seem to balance dialogue and action in a script.

Part of me just wants to print the whole thing and pull my colored pen out and edit the hell out of it. Another part wants to throw it out of my window.

[carolinasousawrites]

There were so many times I wanted to write, but had work to do. Now I have to write, or else the last two years of studying will be for nothing. I know you can't depend on inspiration to get work done, but it's not even that. I'm tired of the story. I spent a semester working on it without any actual script writing. I gave myself two weeks off. About a month ago. I really hope I can sit down and push through to get this done.

[carolinasousawrites]

Feedback on the feedback. Or My passive-aggressiveness is showing.

[carolinasousawrites]

I don't understand my teacher

My teacher: *complains I've referred to characters as 'brother-in-law' and 'father-in-law' of a character who isn't married yet, although that is totally normal in Brazil (when you've been in a long/stable relationship).*

Also my teacher: *isn't the least bit bothered by me making up a word for 'grandmother-in-law'*

[carolinasousawrites]

Papers to write, tests to grade, costume to finish, bedroom to organize. Sometimes I really feel like I can't juggle all of this.