Becoming a witch was not something I set out to do. Quite the contrary, I have dedicated a lot of my life to the study of spiritual and secular philosophy, yet I have always been naturally critical and a born skeptic.
Looking back at my life now I realize that there had been clues all along. Some of them becoming more obvious in recent years.
I had experienced extremely vivid dreams most of my adult life. Some were prescient with answers to problems or issues. Some involved vivid and seemingly lucid experiences flying, meeting with people who had passed away or experiencing things in ways so vivid that I would awaken and remain disoriented for a few hours. All of this I had always written off as a vivid imagination, though more spiritual friends had long suggested it was something else.
I had also had a strong capacity to predict some things in the near future. Feeling when someone close to me was in trouble, had been hurt or fallen ill were also common events. This I wrote off as my being naturally worried. But there were so many times, in retrospect, that this was extremely accurate despite even having a ocean separating me from some.
There were many other signs that something was going on with me that I just dismissed for years. So what changed?
After moving to Tokyo I started to follow my wife's family spiritual practices, Japanese Shinto and Animism. The more I explored this belief system the more I started to really connect to the beliefs and to the spiritual aspects. This helped me feel like I had found a spiritual belief system that could co-exist with my secular ideas.
Next came ten years of practicing and performing ethnic music. Especially ecstatic music from Central Asia from Kurds and Persians. This music was intended to create trance like experiences and put the musician and listener in touch with the spiritual world. It was incredibly effective. We soon had experiences that were truly moving and spiritual. Sometimes sensing we had entered another level of consciousness.
A side effect of this was that the older incidents began to take hold in the here and now. I had more lucid and predictive dream occurrences. The lucid dreams seemed to become controllable to some degree. I had more instances where I could sense when something negative had happened to those around me. And I slowly started to sense things differently. Feeling something change in both myself and in how I perceived the world around me.
I had studied Wicca and Traditional Witchcraft on and off out of curiosity for years. But I had always left it to move on to exploring something else. I had always felt this curiosity called to me more than other ideas I had read and studied, but I honestly dismissed it as something I would be unlikely to embrace.
The forth time it returned to my attention I decided to dig in much deeper. That is when I started to see that much of what had been going on with me had happened to many others who found their path to witchcraft. The more I experienced, the more I realized that I was becoming a witch. Something I never thought I would say. The skeptic becoming the witch. So unlikely.
Now it is a while later and I am still exploring. I am writing about my chosen path and the elements of other belief systems that make up the foundations and ideas I have adopted. I see the similarities in my family's Shinto faith and in my evolving relationship with witchcraft. I see the magic in the Sufi music traditions that remain a key part of my practice. And I am learning to be able to open myself to more.
So here I am. An Eclectic Witch. A believer of many Shinto, Sufi, Animist and Secular ideas and philosophies. I practice my craft, though I am not very public with my practice. I am still seeking truth and new ideas. I am not religious and likely never will be. And so I am a solitary practitioner and adherent only to my own path as I grow to understand it.
The road ahead seems filled with possibilities. After all, if a skeptic like me can find a spiritual path in witchcraft and unlock so much of who I am, then I believe anything is possible and the road ahead likely takes me to places I could not have imagined before.