How did your mentality go from wanted to be as thin as possible to wanted to gain weight in certain areas? I feel like I’ll never get to that point where i want to actually gain weight but I want to, I need to.
Ummm simple, recovering lol. you need to want to get better for your self now and future self. you can still be thin and healthy but in order to be that (if you aren’t genetically blessed) you have to be a very active person Wanting to be as thin as possible was very draining and depressing I was never happy with my body even tho everyone else was, that was the main reason I gained followers (bc of my thin body) but I’ve now gained a new audience which I love. after recovering I felt very happy and finally focused on other things even tho I’m super into fitness now it’s just apart of my daily life not my main focus in life the way my Ed was. I would think sm about getting better bc my teeth weakened and my hair thinned out it was bad but mainly my focus was away from my family and I’m a big family person, once I started needing the hospital to function properly. I guess I just felt like a problem and my Ed made me worse so I had to fix myself. I forced myself to get better it wasn’t what I wanted it’s what I needed.
that’s why discipline is my #1 advice.
