Feb 15
one day i wish to become as well known as some of the people in the band of brothers fandom
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one day i wish to become as well known as some of the people in the band of brothers fandom
911 + Text Posts pt204/?
I’m so fucking depressed bros
You know what sucks? Part of me still wants my relationship to work out. Like I've spent over 4 years building a life with someone, got married, we have joined accounts across the board. Had so many plans for the future, near and distant. But I know deep down regardless of what I want I can't be accepted for who I am. There's so many days(everyday) where I hate myself and I don't know what direction to go in because of things I can't do anything about. Some days I wish I never figured it out. And I know that's not right to say because I know eventually I would have had to face this. It just seems impossible for me to 100% except that I'm trans. It makes life so hard. I've lost some family and it's been a key part of destroying my marriage. But that complete and utter depression from knowing that I'll never fully be a man is nearly overwhelming. I've known since about the summer of 2011 (I believe). And it seems that I can never be stable about it. Normally I can wave it off and put in the back of my head and just be depressed about it. Now it seems like I don't have the choice. I can't stop thinking about how much I hate what I look like. It didn't really hit me until I noticed that I haven't really taken pictures and years. Like it's few and far between. I don't even have pictures of me and my friends anymore because I dread taking pictures and having to see myself. I don't really know what the whole point of this long post was about but I'm hoping that since I'm just regurgitating everything that's in my fucking brain I'll be able to get at least a small amount of peace. I'm just really hoping one day I'll accept myself for who I am because this is been eating me alive for so long.
me and my 38 followers against the world ig
I remember when I was a child it felt like I could not find enough yet to read.
I feel like kids who grew up online are inherently better readers because you're using that muscle of literacy in every interaction.
Things have been getting really bad again.