Aaaah the life of a martial artist... it’s not just your body that rolls all over the place, your ego and self-confidence ditto... I went to a very nice “big boost - queen of the world” to a “wtf... forget about even considering doing your 3rd kyu two months from now” moment in just a few minutes.
The UP: sensei tells me in all seriousness “umakunatta desu ne...” (you’ve become really good) when watching me being nage on yokomen uchi ikkyo. I was so surprised that I did a “come again?” gesture, because I was sure I heard him wrong and he had to repeat himself. I hope he didn’t see me blushing...
The DOWN: when it was time for some free training, I wanted to go through the four immobilization techniques, sitting form, because they are on the menu for my next test. 1) I couldn’t remember the leg work AND the hand work on nikkyo, omote and ura, 2) my knees were killing me after 6 minutes. How am I supposed to go through all of them in a row?? My sempai tried to comfort me, telling me that they never ask for the four of them, but I was really feeling bad. The only good thing is that I came out of there with tons of tips and hints from my sempai (and I should write them down) but seriously... I was not a happy camper at the end of practice.
The good news is, my ego is back to its deflated self, where it should be and remain!