#electronicink

[electronicink]

Beach Day

I wonder what I must have looked like

That afternoon

Reading in a ball

Hunched over my knees

Intently focused on the kindle

In my hands

What was he seeing to feel like that?

I felt it before I even looked at him

And then I did

And I couldn’t look away

Purely blissful giggles

Bubbled out of me

Everytime I glanced back

And he kept on looking

And smiling

And feeling whatever the fuck it was that makes smiling hard to stop

Because he kept on looking at me

And smiling

And I felt him there

Because I started smiling,

Before I even looked at him.

[electronicink]

I thought you were love

the same way I think 

joy is giggling after smoking a joint

and productivity is the rush of popping an addy

and energy is the push after snorting a line

and happy is the rolling waves of molly

but you were just the same as every drug I’ve ever done to ease my pain.

A place-holder. A bandaid. 

An easy fix to keep coming back to late at night to make me feel better..

But at the end of it all, I woke up.

And when I did, I saw that you weren’t love.

-- Alexandra // electronicink.tumblr.com

[electronicink]

Waiting for the one that wants to read every word I write

as much as he wants to take his next breath.

Because every word I write comes from the place that keeps me breathing.

// electronicink.tumblr.com //

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