#elilalolu

[orb-weaver-uncle]

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[rabbitloser]

Hi! I know I'm kinda late to the game but I'd 110% donate to help you afford a binder, if possible! I'm ftm/nonbinary and your blog has provided me a lot of happiness & hope when I've been down... Long story short I really respect you, I love your blog, and if you're willing I would love to show my gratitude by helping to at least lower the cost!

You guys... Really, really... Have no idea how happy you're making me. I had to stpe back and breath because I was flapping so hard oh my god, I really got emotional and it made me cry, I had no idea someone would be willing to do such special thing for me, and even it's more than one person. Ahhh!! How could I even say thank you enough.I'm feeling like it'd be a huge bother if I say yes to this but part of me is also saying "but if it'd be a bother, why would they say anything about it, jude??", and now I'm just here... Smiling. I can't stop smiling, I actually think I need help hfddsadhsgf.

[fantasy-boards]

I lay on my floor crying again… shaking. Searching for inner strength and coming up empty. My eyes burned and my mouth was dry as I sucked on air that seemed to keep getting thicker and harder to breathe. I tried to leave again but ended up leaning my forehead against the door, feeling defeated and wishing the Grim Reaper would come for me in all his silky, black glory. ~ Nathan Daniels

Scientist/Student with Severe Agoraphobia moodboard requested by @elilalolu

[sora-iro]

Hi! I really really like your blog. It's made me very happy and calm in the middle of a stressful day. Thank you for that :)

awwwwwh thank you so much for liking my blog<3 

I’m glad my blog helped you and I hope that your day got a bit better :>

[orb-weaver-uncle]

ppl keep sending me ‘autistic pride’ things and on the one hand it’s great we love representation and happy ppl and all but on the other hand a lot of the most painful bits in my life came directly from being autistic/from my family’s efforts to make me look & act neurotypical enough to go out in public and it is. difficult. to watch these thingies without getting many emotions about things I can’t do shit to change.

anyway don’t hit or physically restrain your autistic kids when they’re stimming just because the way it looks annoys you or seems “impolite”, don’t tie kids’ limbs down because they move around too much to fall asleep, don’t force kids with sensory issues to push past them in the name of propriety (especially if that means forcing them to hug ppl or otherwise act happy about unwanted physical contact), keep in mind that saying “omg why don’t you understand [x-y-z social norm]?” or “you must have known that I was feeling [x-y-z emotion], why are you lying?” are not helpful ways to teach a kid to communicate with you. there are a million and a half more things to add to that list but i think that’s enough blatantly emotional oversharing for tonight, yes? yes. if you’re autistic pls stay alive, i have too much anger & internalized shame to say nicer things abt autism for now but ily very much and please stay alive.

[orb-weaver-uncle]

Sometimes you gotta have a deep conversation with a squirrel.

[orb-weaver-uncle]

For trans day of visibility, here's a pic of me being visibly trans. Remember that trans ppl deserve respect regardless of how well they pass!

[orb-weaver-uncle]

the one thing I miss from having female hormone levels (that’s terrible wording and I’m sorry to anyone it offends) is the ability to cry easily. ok maybe I don’t miss it since I often teared up when I got really angry or stressed and that was humiliating but. Tactical crying was useful, y’know? Not crying-to-get-attention-or-pity or w/e, but like if you had a really stressful day or you’re reading/listening to something really sad or you just feel really mournful and frustrated so you just kinda take a few minutes in private to cry about it a little bit? That sort of emotional expression is just... gone. Maybe it’s just been re-routed and I’ll find it again? Emotions are still there in full, but yeah. idk. Hormones are weird.