maddie omg your tags about the au where shitty thinks lardo is a lesbian until he graduates and feel terrible for crushing on her but in reality he's just really fucking oblivious??? YOUR MIND. i need to read 10 fics about this now
YEAH like he obviously doesn't want to ask her her sexuality but she's only ever talked about hooking up with girls (aka college wlw exploratory panic) but he KNOWS he has feelings for her and you can't just make those feelings go away????? especially when its your best bro who you hang out with everyday????
so yeah its just Shitty feeling like shit and going 'oh no am I fetishizing lesbians bc I'm into Lardo?' while Lardo is like 'why has he not made a move its been 3 years? is he not actually into me?' and its very funny in retrospect
I found this account literally a couple days ago and I’ve already set a habit of coming to it whenever I notice I’m being hard on myself. It’s helped a lot with restructuring the way I think. Thank you <333
You are so welcome! And cognitive reframing is the best when it comes to negative self-talk, I applaud you for being your own best-friend and trying to shut that shit down! 🖤
Alright here me out: au where Holster enters his ECON 4001 class and soon realizes that every single student is a guy also named Adam. (Yknow, because it’s econ)
whoops i accidentally hit unfollow when i was trying to hit the ask button instead 🙄anyway i hope you have a wonderful birthday and i'm so glad you exist <333
ahahaha the amount of times i’ve done that is embarassing😬😬 but thank you so much!!! <3Â
My toxic trait is that whenever I get drunk I look through everyone’s insta and snap stories and I start swiping up and responding to everyone because I think I’m so funny and chatty 😔😔😔😔
sijdjsksjdj believe me there are worse things to do when you’re drunk
hiii. i love holsom angst so i’m requesting #10 ‘things you said that made me feel like shit’ for holsom. thank you!
Ooooh, Holsom hours, okay. As a preface, I really do not know how to write angst, but this thought made itself known in my google doc so I tried? I tried.
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Senior year means Adam and Justin know their favorite study spots well. Secretly, though Adam's favorite is their table in Founders. The windows give everything a warm glow in the afternoon, and, selfishly, he thinks Justin looks good in this light. As if picking up on Adam's train of thought, Justin stretches in his chair and shoots him a smile.Â
"Hey, know who you're going to Winter Screw with yet?"
It takes Adam a second to respond since the question is unexpected, but he shakes his head no. "Honestly I haven't thought about it yet."
"Bro, same. I can pull out the spreadsheet when we get back to the Haus and we can look over options, though. Our schedules should be clear."
Adam tries not to grimace when he nods in response. Sometimes he wonders if Justin knows how he feels. It seems unlikely, but Adam wouldn't put it past him. There are so many things that Justin Oluransi knows. It's part of what Adam likes so much about him.Â
Justin knows how to plan for things. The parties come to mind for most SMH teammates, but Adam thinks more about the little things. Always knowing where Adam's glasses are, having strategies for games, knowing when to be there with a distraction or a kind word.Â
He also is just wildly smart. The academic book smarts are obvious; not just anyone walks away from Samwell biology with a 4.0. The analytics come out on the ice for drafting plays and making split second judgement calls. But Justin’s also emotionally smart. Sure, they have a reputation for being oblivious at times, but no one has ever been able to read Adam’s moods with the level of ease that Justin has. It’s a mutual give and take that’s ascended to legend status around campus. Once he picks up on things, Justin’s great about dealing with them, and Adam’s forever grateful for that skill. There’s no one else he would rather be co-captain with; there’s no one else he would trust with the job.
It’s not so much that Justin knows everything, but he knows a whole hell of a lot. He’s got music, art, style (salmon shorts aside), hockey, and humor. It all combines into more than the sum of its parts. And honestly, whether or not he's aware of it, he really knows how to worm his way into Adam's heart and stick there. He knows how to make a feeling that lives in Adam's rib cage; it was new, so new, when they got to Samwell, but it has since made a comfortable home there.
Really, it seems like the main thing Justin doesn't know is how Adam feels. And, because of that, he doesn't know how shitty it can feel to be in love with your best friend who just doesn't love you like that.
