#ellen rants

[yallsfavellen]

"we've been trying for a baby every night!"

I don't need to know you're creampiein' your wife. I don't care.

//ooc: she be ranting abt RANDOM shit.

[shereadsthosemagazines]

listen if ur boyfriend laughs about hitting a cat with his car “it was fine it ran off haha I hate cats” and then says he doesn’t really like or care about people

then

a) I don’t like ur boyfriend

b) I wish you would stop dating men who don’t have empathy towards other people and animals and expecting them to treat u well

c) if he treats other people like that eventually he WILL treat you like that

d) you are not the exception to the rule. you want to be because you want to feel special, and right now he makes u feel that way but it will wear off

[sadsackofellen]

etudes are hard 

[spiderrrling]

Warning, this is a full-blown rant, it's not in the tags because all of this wouldn’t fit in there, I am brutally honest in here and there is a good bit of cursing 

You don’t have to read it and I don’t expect anyone to read it, but I needed to put this out there

As I am writing this I am on a lot of pain medication so I don’t have a very good filter 

Ok so, I don’t really know how to start this, no one’s probably going to care about this in the first place I don’t even know if I care anymore because I have just kinda lost all passion that is Tumblr and that makes me really sad. 

It's partly because I stopped talking to my mutuals or they stopped talking to me, I started getting a lot of hate and even by blocking people or turning off anon for a few days it just came back and people just kinda stopped caring about me which made it really hard to care about everything here 

I’ve cried a shit ton in the past few months because of this, because suddenly I am back to being me, the weird sad bullied girl that I’ve tried really hard to escape but it kinda feels like I can’t and that she’s going to be part of me for the rest of my life and that’s been making me really sad because for once I thought I didn’t have to be here 

I lost one of my best friends on here, they said they cared about me and they pushed me really hard to do what I love and told me they’d support what I did but when I do it they’re nowhere to be seen and that hurts a lot and they’ve stopped responding to my messages and I really fucking miss them not going to lie 

I miss all the people that I used to talk to, I miss being part of this community and actually talking to people and having friends 

I thought I was doing great, I thought people cared and then something happened, I don’t really know what happened, I know I was really stressed about exams and I was depressed from being in pain all the time and I was adjusting to a new medication which made me so fucking sick 

I know that somewhere in there I stopped writing and I know that I regret that so fucking much because I let my anxiety build-up to the point where opening a document made me cry and made me feel physically ill 

Recently I’ve tried to get back into writing because deep down I still love it but when I do post no one cares and it feels like this huge “I fucking told you so” from my anxiety and imposter syndrome 

I don’t know why the hell I am writing this, maybe because I want you guys to know that I am struggling and I need help and that I hate that I stopped caring about everything here and I want to come back and I want it to be the same even though I know that I can’t  

I miss being popular, trust me I know how bitchy that sounds but its the truth and I think its a thing that comes with being bullied, you want to feel special

And I will say that I am extremely jealous of some of my friends on here and it made me push them away and I hate myself so deeply for doing that, so to anyone who I did that to I am sorry

To anyone I might have hurt I am sorry 

I’m not sure if this is supposed to be an apology or a rant or whatever it is, but I do know it is the truth and if you’ve read this whole fucking rant I’m sorry you had to endure the mess that is me 

[ladywaterfall]

im gonna rant for a second

truth to be told, I never liked the g4 blind bags. they are boring. same poses recoloured 500 times in mostly boring colour schemes. and Hasbro always loved them so much, kept pushing them, and idk about other places but here they were overpriced for what you get just cause it's a 'blind bag' and you don't know what you get!! but it's most likely a boring one!! so keep buying them kids maybe you'll get a good one!! or you'll get another pinkie pie but that's just par for the course with g4 honestly so

anyway I know many people like collecting them and that's fine they just really annoy me and they keep taking up space in the mlp shelves here that could be filled up with better stuff

[omgellenlouise]

I’m still pissed

It’s been like a month and a half and I should probably just accept that I’m not getting a text. No. I can’t accept that. At least in my mind I can’t. My mind is screaming but I’m being “cool” on the outside because no one would understand hahaa god I sound crazy. I made fun of girls who’d get all caught up and emotional over a random sexual encounter at a party but look at me on a phone app bitching about some dude who fingered me and clearly regretted it because he and I were drunk. Why did you exchange digits then bruh? And before yall ask, I texted him ONCE. That’s all, and nothing. Not even a “hey last night was kinda cray and I really don’t wanna do it again” But NOPE I HAD TO HEAR FROM THE HOSTESS OF SAID PARTY THAT YOU DIDN’T WANT TO DO THE HOOKUP CULTURE SHIT. I felt so DUMB HAHAHAHAA I ALMOST LOSE MY VIRGINITY I WAS SO CLOSE BUT NOPE. You could’ve told me the truth dude. I get that you were upset with our mutual friend who in a way “pushed” the situation. But again, ya could have told ME. The next morning you could have pulled me away, and talked it out but you didn’t. Listen I wasn’t expecting you to fall for me or ask me out but this man, this is way worse than the “ghosting” shit that people do. You had our other mutual friend tell me FOR YOU. And the worst part is. YOU ARE PROBABLY LIVING YOUR LIFE JUST FINE CAUSE YOU HAVE HAD SEX BEFORE. YOU EXPERIENCED THIS SHIT BEFORE. God I am now even more angry as I write this I can’t even think straight. Whatever I’ll live. I hope the next girl that feels your fingers brings an extra pair of undies and doesn’t have to spend the night commando....✌️

[littlestsunbeam]

I love being pro life for the whole life instead of only focusing on babies because when people ask, “well what do you think about cApItAl PuNiShMeNt?????” I’m just like, “bitch that’s fucked up, too!!!”

[sadsackofellen]

i’m just a whore for all of hamlet