Wait, there's more?! Never underestimate Ellis' words of affirmation's power!
(I have a whole collection of screenshots with words of affirmation from the Ikemen Series' guys, so if any of you want me to share some of them, tell me)
i've been reading ellis route and AURGHHHHH I LOVE HIM
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH
HIM N VIC R MY FAVES (which is so funny. the oldest man there n the youngest man there r my faves. i have range XD)
which makes me think... how old are the crown members? and how old is kate? iirc we did not get an age on the flashback of Vic n Kate meeting for Kate, but Vic was 18, so there is a considerable agegap between them (not really that much of an issue for me since they only actually r into eachother as adults, they just met when Vic as 18 n Kate a child for the first time which happens)
I am still like... chap 11 of Ellis route, so i'm not sure if it is mentioned later how old he is, i just know he is like... Crown's baby n everyone's lil sib
waaahhhh i want more direct info, implied stuff is so hard
Pairing: Ellis Twilight x f!reader
Summary: Your thoughts and feelings torment you more and more, whenever Ellis' vision appears. You wonder if he will ever love you.
Warnings: angst, terrible writing
Author's Note: 👍
Words: 1.4k
For days you felt like this, finished, hopeless, frustrated. You worked as the Fairytale Keeper at Crown, which, in fact, was not something you expected to experience when you thought about your future before the fateful night, but until you learned to live well with this change. Whether you admit it or not, you met new people, saw another side of society and became aware of things you had no idea even existed, cursed people.
— Thank you so much for your help today Ellis!
— It was fun spending the afternoon with you… thank you Y/N…
Throughout your stay at Crown, you ended up spending time with all the boys that made up that organization, but Ellis was the one who caught your attention the most. You wondered why he always seemed so calm despite all the hard work he put in day and night. All this, with a smile on your face. Besides the fact that he was a man of mystery to you, why did he join Crown? Why did he insist on working for Jude? These were some of the many questions you wished you had the courage to ask him one day, but you felt like it was none of your business.
You watched as Ellis waved you goodbye and headed to his room, without even looking back.
— Ugh… — A sigh leaves your lips as soon as the vision of the black-haired man disappears.
'He's always so kind and polite… I wonder if he knows about this… if he acts like this with everyone', your thoughts begin to appear, making your feelings towards the man you had said bye more and more apparent.
It's not like you promised not to fall in love or that you weren't interested in romance at the moment, quite the opposite, it was something you craved all the time, the feeling of being loved, of knowing that someone values and cares about you, to smile at the thought that there might be someone waiting for you at home, to be able to taste what it's like to hear "I love you" from someone else's lips… especially if that person was Ellis.
Walking towards the exit of the castle, you try to clear away the fog of increasingly romantic thoughts that insist on taking over your mind. You knew that all those men were destined to have a tragic, sad ending, that they lived their lives now wondering if tomorrow they would find their last breath. Maybe that's why Ellis never showed any loving feelings towards you. Maybe the idea that he's just worried about your safety and happiness makes you more comfortable than believing that he just doesn't feel anything at all. It was easier to live like this. You had a bad habit of confusing kindness with some interest behind it, and the only thing you were sure of was that this way of thinking was your own ruin.
—Tsk, you're in the way, ya know? The´re busy people who need to pass, princess.
Oh, Jude.
— I'm leaving now, sorry.
—Thinkin' about him again? — A mischievous smile escapes his lips.
— I don't know who you're talking about. Not busy? — You respond, trying to ignore the obvious provocation that man was making. You were already used to it.
You expected any humiliation, insults from that man, but the only thing that welcomed you was a deafening silence. Something you didn't expect, and that scared you more than hearing something bad coming out of his mouth. You didn't know if you should turn your head to see if he had just left or if you should just move on, but curiosity killed the cat.
— What there was? Won't-
— Take care. — He replied.
— Oh! Um…? Be careful… with what exactly? — The answer took you by surprise.
— Ya know. — And so, Jude turned and walked away towards the Crown castle, leaving you alone with these statements.
— Wow…
You had planned to get some fresh air in the city, precisely to try to appease your feelings and thoughts of the man who had been tormenting you all this time. Be careful? With what exactly? For what reason? Wasn't all your caution all this time with the Crown members enough? Was it an attempt to get rid of these feelings as quickly as possible? Because they have a relatively short lifespan due to curses? It was killing you, it was already taking over your body, it was a slow, painful suffering.
Every day you tried hard to give a fake smile that everything was fine when clearly that doubt tormented your life day after day. 'Is it just me that he acts like that?', 'Does he know that I feel something other than friendship when it comes to him?'.
Damn… your eyes were already soaking wet from how much you were crying. Running out of the castle definitely didn't help much, as the other members watching her wondered what had happened to their beloved Robin.
— I'm really an idiot…
Your legs running as fast as they could, the burning already appearing, your feet begging for a rest, but the only thing you wanted was to run, away from that castle, those people, him.
You felt guilty for acting that way, it wasn't his fault that you weren't honest with your feelings… or that you weren't brave enough for not confessing them to him. But what tormented you was the simple question of, if you confessed, would he accept it? Would he say he felt the same way too? Would he hug you and tell you in your eyes that he loves you too?
Well, now you wouldn't find out, as the castle moved further and further away from you. And so does he.
When you arrived in the city, seeing the movement of people somehow calmed you down. The gentle night breeze on the bridge you were on invited you to stop for a moment and enjoy the view, at least for a second. The movement of the waves, the noise of the water colliding with the stone walls, the birds singing nearby enchanted you in a way that made you mesmerized by the view you had access to in this place.
But even though you felt calm and attracted at that moment, your heart still hadn't forgotten why it beat faster and faster, a constant reminder of what it did to you. This bothered you, the feeling of realizing that you didn't have control over your feelings and the way your body reacted to them. Ellis smiled, her heart racing. Ellis greeted you, his lips forming a smile. Ellis praised you, his cheeks flushed. Ellis touched you, your whole body responded to the touch.
It would be a dream to believe that he would feel the same, that he would have fallen in love with an ordinary girl like you. How many times were the two of you alone and spent a long time looking at his lips, giving him a signal to notice… but nothing happened. Sometimes he was really making a fool of you, who knows?
— I'm really pathetic. — You said that louder than you really thought.
Maybe you should take Jude's advice seriously and be careful with Ellis. You wouldn't suffer for him anymore, not after everything you've been through without making any progress. No, you were going to give up, this love wasn't for you. You were going to kill this love. You were going to kill this love. Stepping in a way that reminds it to never return.
It would be difficult to sleep without dreaming about him, in fact it was almost impossible. From the first day you met him, that you saw that smile… you should have run, gone, walked away, and not clung any more and desired even more. You made a mistake and now you are paying the consequences for your actions.
It was late, the moon and stars were a constant reminder that a woman should not be alone on these streets at this time of night. Not even you.
When you finally decided to leave where you were standing, thinking, a man holds your arm tightly, his face exuding hatred.
— Hey you, you hang out with those two guys, don't you?
