Shrimply in love with Ibara and Jade

20 . They/He/Crow/Eel/Void PFP by @konanyeh Follow from @shrimplymoray Currently Into : IkeVil, TWST Jade Leech and Ibara Saegusa Selective Self shipper, OC n AU creator, simp Proshippers DNI

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* ‧̍̊˙· 𓆝.° ｡˚𓆛 Welcome to the Sea 𓆛˚｡ °.𓆞 ·˙‧̍̊

Hello, my name is Moray, but I also go by Crow.

I'm genderfaun, and use He/They/Eel/Crow/Void pronouns.

I'm 20 years old, bday being 22nd of May

I'm an mainly an artist and (not active) writer!

My PFP is Jude Jazza with my personal pride flags (edited by me)

I've done stuff for many fandoms, mainly Enstars, Mairuma, MadCom, FNAF, CrP and Oso-san! My current interests are TWST and IkeVil

My faves are: Victor, Jude, Ellis, Ibara, Nagisa, HiMERU, Kanata, Jade, Floyd, Azul, Lilia

You may see me post my OCs with the tag #Moray OCs, they are:

Enstar Ocs: #Usutsui Kurosu, #Azazel Yado (Azazel is part of a fan unit with my friends, I will tag them in case i share art of the entire unit, called MetMòór) #??? "Shiiro" Wakashi (part of the fan unit CiR×CeN), #Tadano Hidori, and #CγBƎR unit

TWST Ocs: #🌿Fern belladonna (Sona), #🐦‍⬛Crow Yuuia (Yuusona), #🪶Nicholas Caraatu, #💎Bruno, #🦈Brutus Whitestone #⚓Kamala Trindad #🖼️Maryanne Lirica #⚗️Jim Dbois #🎭Noname Hisaki #☣️Bill Buddy #🍬Reese #💄Tsuki Kahdi # 🗡️Horbart Jagger # 🐇Daniella Ohare #🕯️ Celio Martinz #🐚Coral Shoore (Sona)

IkeVil Ocs: #🪽Raven Silva and #🪦Uriel

Original Ocs: #Animafia and #Magicaffined

I tend to create AUs for things I like, my Enstars AUs are:

#Fantasy AU, #Demon AU, #Princess Ibara AU, #Detective Mistery AU, #Merfolk AU, #Daycare AU #Friendsim AU (Homestuck X Enstars), #Gods AU, #Umamusume AU

And my TWST AUs are:

#Non human AU, #Mafia AU, #Idol AU, #Cookie Run AU #Cyberpunk AU, #Roomates AU (Sitcom style thing) #Royalty AU, #Soulmates AU, #Special ED AU, #Witch AU _ many more

* ‧̍̊˙· 𓆝.° ｡˚𓆛 Commissions 𓆛˚｡ °.𓆞 ·˙‧̍̊

here is my official commission sheet with prices, information and examples of finished works

The commissions money goes towards my marriage funds and the moving of my fiance

* ‧̍̊˙· 𓆝.° ｡˚𓆛 DNI 𓆛˚｡ °.𓆞 ·˙‧̍̊

Proship/comship enjoyers

Prejudiced in anyway

Uncomfy with Gore art

He/him Arashi enjoyers

HiyoNagi and SilSeb/SilBek shippers

Against the current Enstars Boycott

Homestuck/Vivzie Pop Main blogs

People that instigate drama

* ‧̍̊˙· 𓆝.° ｡˚𓆛 Tags to care for 𓆛˚｡ °.𓆞 ·˙‧̍̊

#Moray Talks - general posts tag

#Wifey Ibanyan - Ibara gushing tag as to not main tag

#Hubby Nyagisa - Nagisa gushing tag as to not main tag

#Wifey Jadey - Jade gushing tag as to not main tag

#Moray Arts - general art tag

#Moray edits - general card edit tag

#Mentally Eel Posting - Rambles and/or simping

#Moray OCs - General Oc tag, followed by specific OC tag

#Moray Reblogs - General reblog tag, mute if u prefer

#Moray Frens - To tag something is from a moot/friend

#Moray commissions - anything related to my commissions, like finished pieces and/or info and reblogs of my commission shit

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sayign i need to wife him up about my irl fiance is so fun

i like referring to him as my wife

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unrelated to usu, i finished 2 lineups of twst ocs yesterday n i am very proud of me bc wiht some of these, i cooked.

but i don't like the art enough to show it rn

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with reworking usu i meant like, the stuff related to his design n to valk

his personality is intact bc not only am i attached to it, but also bc i like how he acts with other people usually

this is all to make him more miserable <3 bc i love-hate him <3

here is he btw

(ignore that i forgor the soles of his shoes)

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hey chat so.... i'm reworking Usu almost from the ground up

so sorry for the valk+ usu fans, he is now an exvalk only

more context n info tba

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i got ibaba as my fave idol bc ofc i did n i got my first dupe of a 5 stars of her <3 we ignore that her FS1 is also my only 5 stars of her-

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cw vent, sorta

lowk think i am shutting down from going outside with my sibling n fiance

i love them but being near both of them makes me exhausted tbh

my fiance is clingy n likes hugging n kissing n resting himself on me.

meanwhile my brother is aroace n either repulsed or just not fond of romance irl

n going outside with both of them made me so tired that i want to be alone, but i can't

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some may think that i was absent most of the day today bc i was spending lots of fun time with my fiance, going on amazing adventures

...

nah we slept all afternoon

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2, almost 3 am, my fiance is long gone in honk shoo mimimi land, n i am missing jadey bc i haven't drawn her in a lil while (a couple of days)

hashtag living the dream

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my lovely fiance is eeping beside me i never been happier teehee

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I didn't like what we had for lunch so I ate very little n now I'm hungry but I'm on the car to the airport

Fucking shit, man...

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dawg my phone used to hold battery when charged to 100 from midday to way after midnight.

BUT WITH ENSTARS IN IT IT DOESN'T HOLD FOR 6 HOURS

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i woke up at 6, stayed awake to finish cleaning everything, then fell back asleep

n now that i'm awake again i am ready to take a shower n get ready to see my looooveee

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nagi... i wuv him so much...

hopefully my fiance doesn't mind if i draw during his visit, n doesn't mind if i am insane over my F/Os

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ibara in suki suki hunter! 💞

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Long rambly post about Ibara Saegusa and AsPD under the cut, because I am so very normal about ibanyan

(copy pasted from my Google docs of Ibara Ted Talks, don't mind the grammar)

this may very well end up being convoluted n what not, so like... this is just a glorified ramble i can’t even lie

So... Ibara Saegusa, am i right?

for this, imma take some of the characteristics that are canonical/ heavily implied (looking at u bogie time) and listen them, and make the correlations with AsPD

(For those not aware, AsPD stands for Antisocial Personality Disorder, also called sociopathy, which is a disorder mainly characterized by a lack of empathy towards others, disruptive conduct of some kind, and aggressive or impulsive conduct, between many other factors)

Ibara is shown, in canon to:

Have been abandoned as a child

had misconduct towards people above her (mainly speaking we see this with Ibara towards Yuzuru)

Shows no remorse or guilt over manipulating others

Shown misconduct towards others private life (the information beurau as a whole)

Shows easily irritable behaviour (either shown as a joke, or her actually getting aggresive)

Has issues over her own self worth

there are other things that i may touch more in each point i make but for now, i’m going with these 6

it may seem dumb to note Ibara’s upbringing at first, however, it becomes way more relevant when it is put into perspective facts from developmental psychology, mainly that a children’s personality is only fully developed around it’s 7 to 8 years of age. Ibara was first left in an orphanage, and at a later age, around 10, was put to join the private military camp together with Yuzuru. This is an awful early age for a child to be put into a situation like this. Ibara had no guardian figure that was worth following, and as such, he started at an early age having misconducts. The earliest ones we can find are his attempts to murder Yuzuru in the private military camp.

Even then, Ibara has a history with not exactly legal/ socially acceptable conduct. Be it the canon Information Beareu she formed on ES, her highly manipulative acts, and many other manipulation and lies based actions she has taken. Ibara also shows little to no remorse over the big majority of action she has taken unless she is actively faced with the consequences of said actions (feelign guilt over the Crazy:B confession after Rinne “ruined her plans”). In general, Ibara only actively shows some form of remorse when the opposite reaction from what she expected comes to her meet.

Ibara is shown to be not too difficult to irritate, though it is usually shown as a gag or a joke, with her sending death threats or wanting to kill herself, ibara is actually someone that cannot fully hold her tongue when irritated, which also can lead to situations where she will belittle others (Literally half the time she gets mad at Nagisa she ends up in such a way)

the biggest thing, however, that i want to use as my, between many quotes, “”””“proof”””” of Ibara’s ASPD is her self image.

Ibara holds the idea that she needs to have a meaning in life, a purpose and fulfill that purpose so that she has succeeded. Ibara deals with a great lot of trauma over abandonment, and having no one she could trust or hold on, sometimes due to the external world, other times due to her own aversion of being vulnerable to someone.

With ASPD, the person may fall into 2 ways: following the misconduct of not good examples of caretakers they had in the ambients they frequented, OR doing misconducts and falling into manipulatory behaviour as a way to feel control and gain something from social itneractions that otherless feel non impactful to their life.

Due to the lack of a proper caretaker to be used as a primal example, a person with ASPD may very well not have had the necessary brain correlations to interpret that certain actions are bad and other actions are good.

Ibara, in itself, lacked any proper caretaker as a primal example, and much more was faced with the fact of abandonment as a child, which led to her developing unhealthy methods to cope, such as manipulating other to have some form of gain, much like many did to her during middle school, and when in the face of that not working, relying on legal or social misconduct to get things to go as she planned.

ASPD may have a very low to non existent empathy, due mainly to the own trauma the person experienced, and their need to not view it as a trauma. with ASPD, feelings of vulnerability are scary, and unwanted, so having an upperhand, a control, is important to them. That is why most of them are manipulative. that is why most of them can have aggressive or violent behaviour upon being forced in a vunerable position.

this may very well not be a good analysis, or, also, be just a rambly mess, but at least i put my thoughts into the paper, which is what i wanted