#emcee rambles

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Who will be the Eurydice to my Orpheus?

The Miguel to my Connor?

The David to my Jack?

The Michael to my Jeremy?

The Penelope to my Odysseus?

Who will be there for me no matter how many times I've messed up and ruined everything? Who'll run back to me knowing I caused all this suffering? Who'll still be by my side knowing all that I've done to myself and the world and hold my hand with nothing but love in their eyes? Even if I turn back? Even if I left them? Even if I betrayed them? Even if I pushed them aside for some stupid reason? Even if it took me more than 20 years to return?

Even though I am truly in the wrong, who will still be by my side? To look me in the eye and tell me it's okay, that it was a mistake and I can change. Maybe one day I can change. Or tell me it's okay and that nothing has changed between us.

Maybe one day I won't look back.

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Connor Murphy is a nerd at heart!! Like seriously! He's canonically a bookworm (not to say that makes you a nerd) and into Shakespeare! Very specifically "Macbeth", as mentioned in the novel he paid attention to their class lesson about it.. maybe a little too much like he said.

He had a list of all his favorite books, he made a reference to "To Kill A Mockingbird" while talking with Evan (at least in the book!)

So in conclusion, Connor is a nerd and that's it.

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POV: You're forced to listen to me yap about Conguel (Connor X Miguel) and how it could've been if it weren't for the many flaws and accidents that came along the way and how it's a little better of a ship than treebros along with details:

(No offense to the treebros shippers but let's be honest, the Connor shipped with Evan isn't the complete and genuine Connor is it? That Connor is a thought of what Evan thought he was like. Not to mention in the novel Miguel said that Connor was "too pure for all of this" which Evan thought was so contradictory to what he thought of Connor so.... But more power to you treebros shippers! I kind of see why'd you like it)

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Y'all know Murphy's law right? Whatever can go wrong will go wrong? What if Connor's life all went wrong because of MURPHY'S LAW!!! But it's just a theory... A MUSICAL THEORY!

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Help I don't know my gender anymore???😭

Like I'm a girl yet I also want to be a boy but I love being a girl yet I also love being masculine and I just find being a boy or being masculine so comfortable. I want to be a boy but I also love being a girl and all things feminine??? I feel euphoric whether I present fem or masc.. but like not in a gender fluid way where sometimes they're a boy or a girl.

Just. I just wanna be both but not like switching between??

I guess that's why my pronouns are she/he?

I kind of identify with the name Emmie/Emmett now ig..

Guess I'll stay a girl for now<3

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Thinking about how Connor kept on drawing Miguel before proceeding to rip the drawing up and throw it away out of feeling the cringe afterwards. Like Connor it's your fault you miss him, you left 😭

(bro Connor did it several times despite always cringing after)

(TELL ME HOW IS HE NOT GAY FOR MIGUEL???)

(THAT'S RIGHT YOU CAN'T!!!)

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BMC and DEH crossover... Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm 2018 Quotev fanfiction..

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Just to clarify the name I go by, emcee, is not in any way a reference to cabaret, just how my initials sound (MC) :3

But I guess y'all can just call me anyone of these names:

Emcee/MC

Emmie or Em!