sudden intense burst of emotion about closed off, guarded abbie mills who learned early how to survive and how lonely that survival can be
who has lost pretty much the only person in the world she was close to
who has been derailed from her ambitions by a higher purpose she's still not entirely sure she trusts or believes in
and who has been left with only ichabod, this tall, grumpy ball of staunch belief and purpose that's just straight up overwhelming at times
but who is also lost and displaced and focuses so much of that belief in her direction and needs her
to whom she keeps offering up so many little bits of herself that she's kept hidden by rote for so long
and like wow no wonder she freaked the fuck out when they were taking him to quarantine
no wonder she was desperately praying to a god she maybe doesn't even believe in for a sign, for some way to save him
and no wonder [PREVIEW SPOILER] she's crying and devastated and he's apologizing about the idea that he'll be taken too that he will leave her alone again
because she and jenny are mending things and hell maybe she'll develop a trust with irving that might be a distant echo of what she had with corbin and maybe she'll even get back with luke the ball of jealousy in a polo shirt (c) io9 but right now in a very real way
just as much as she is his touchstone in this time, in this new life (maybe even moreso) he is all she has too