I hate it when people call me a 'fictive'. I am not a 'fictive'. I am a part. I am a dissociative state that was introjected from a fictional character because I was using fictional media to cope with the shit I was going through as a kid.
And stop fucking telling me what terms to use. Yes, I will use 'dissociative states' and 'parts', no, it is NOT dehumanizing myself.
I occasionally still see pro-endos (and others) say that "DID is still very underresearched!! We can't know if endos are valid or not because plurality is also underresearched!!"
I don't think dissociative researchers are gonna waste their resources trying to determine if endogenic systems are valid or not. Many I've heard have said that endogenics are just fallacies and even then, with extensive research I've done about 'endogenic adjacent' things, none of them have supporting conclusions or ideas about endogenics that prove validity.
All of the resources that endos use in medical textbooks are all regarding to spiritual and ritual practices in cultures that have no relations to 'plurality' in the sense similar to CDDs and what endos claim.
cw : abuse mentions under the cut, please continue with caution
"We can't know if DID is trauma caused or not!!" Except we do. All DID cases so far have been caused by trauma, and the ones without have been outright explained as factitious or malingering.
No, a dissociative researcher isn't gonna purposely have a child under the age of 9-10 be extensively abused to result in the child not having integrated states and ending up with the disorder just to prove it is indeed trauma caused.
Each DID case proves the disorder has relations to trauma, just because trauma is 'vaguely' mentioned in the DSM-5 doesn't mean it isn't caused by it.
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder has dissociative aspects, and (Complex) PTSD has ties to DID and is inherently linked.
All clients that have been diagnosed with DID have all had a history of trauma that prevented their states from integrating properly, and this is only going for clients who actually do turn out to have the disorder. (As misdiagnosis occurs, some people are misdiagnosed with DID and they might actually have BPD and Dissociative Amnesia, etc...)
DID is researched, not to the point where we can just do whatever the fuck with it and throw a diagnosis at anyone who matches the symptoms instantly, but it isn't underresearched except for in some areas that aren't as necessary to research and understand since those are least prioritized.
I will gladly call out the harm and bullshit they spout in my shitbox when they do so, because I find it amusing that they dedicate their own time to do their ableist mockery of DID and trying to "defend" it by sending hatemail and threats to DISABLED and DISORDERED individuals who are traumatized.
I have "free-time" to point and laugh, and ramble on my own blog. But other than that, I have way better things to do.
I don't care if I'M added to the "plural blocklist", because I can handle harassment. But I don't want MINORS to be posted on there. I don't want vulnerable people on there. I don't want others to be harassed by those same assholes.
Plural-Blocklist is causing a bunch of harm to many pwCDDs, even without malice, the supposed group they're handing out accounts to block to are really prone to harassing minors and people who are traumatized.
Stop posting minors and traumatized, disabled people on your blocklist page. If you aren't ableist, then actually be NOT ableist and instead block and move on.
No, this does not open the gates to harass me. I am apathetic to harassment, BUT I personally would not care if I were to be attacked by people who throw the concept of a disorder away into a dumpster.
For being 'anti-harassment' you really do like to spam slurs and tell people to kill themselves in their asks AND even breaking their own boundaries for using science and believing in it over a made-up term from an anti-DID movement.
Having Dissociative Identity Disorder is strange because why was I diagnosed with a rare disorder and now I can't live normally without people going like 'omg do you like.. have fictives' or 'im endogenic' or 'did isn't real' or a bunch of misinformation being spread about it.
Like... worry about my seizures rather than if I have introjects or not. And get a fucking job in the real world rather than moderating an 'endogenic' discord server.
Maybe this is all just my experience within the 'CDD community', but I've always noticed that people seem... appalled that I have parts who are not queer or are seemingly 'heteronormative'.
Keep in mind, I am a trans woman and in a sapphic relationship.
I have parts who present as straight, cisgender men. (Such as... C.J)
It is not my fault that I have parts who are straight and cisgender., not saying that people are claiming it IS my fault, but I feel like the looks I get seem that way.
Endos think having a bunch of parts is some fun game when in reality, it isn't.
The amount of suffering that me and others have had to go through to split this many is absurd, and yet it's a competition for them, a fun little game to achieve the
"maximum score."
This isn't a game of flappy bird to get the highest score possible with your parts.
I'm haunted by how many dissociative states I have. I'm haunted by the fact that they exist.
