I always loved The Spider’s Mate Trilogy by Tiffany Roberts so after studying the covers and other fanart I made my spiderboy Deraki here. I adore him and he is the first of I tried rendering on I think he turned out perfect.
Summary: Your leg is fucked, but so are you. (This is probably the last chapter, might pick it back up, idk)
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Parings: Yandere!Logan Howlett x PlusSize!Reader
Warnings: Mentions of past injury with some description, anxiety and stress, mentions of medicine, aggressive dog, manipulation, some yandere aspects, violence, knives, attempted knife play, blood, pv, (Individual warnings per chapter) (Logan is an official warning as approved by the FDA (Food and Drug Administration) because Logan is a DRUG. PLEASE BE AWARE that this will be a NON-CON fic. Do NOT get attached if you do not like non-consensual fiction. I will not change my fic plans because somebody decided not to read the warnings. Thank you)
Tags: @sammyluvsfics
Word Count: 2838 (Find all chapters here)
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Your leg was healing well, considering the crushed bones, enormous scars, and bloody bandages that had to be replaced at least once a day.
It hurt like fucking shit.
You were constantly stressed. The pain in your leg was unbearable when you weren’t either taking pain medications or in a deep sleep after taking sleeping medicine. Then there was also Logan. He was sweet to you, so you didn’t understand why your body rejected him so much. You suppose it was because you naturally couldn’t be attracted to the man that kidnapped you, murdered someone you knew, and then acted like everything was okay.
The bear trap was your fault, you should’ve stopped when he said it was unsafe.
Spilled hot coffee on yourself? You weren’t paying attention.
It was also your fault that the mailman died. Even though it was his three claws that stabbed into the man's throat. But you shouldn’t have whispered ‘help.’
Everything bad that happened, it all led back to you.
And no, there weren’t any twisted mind tricks, or shit manipulation tricks that were making you believe it was truly your fault. It was just literally your fault.
Everything that happened that was bad could’ve been stopped if you were just more careful, but it was hard to be careful when you were walking on eggshells in front of this man. You knew he wouldn’t hurt you, but even if he did, say… backhand you, it would be your fault for provoking him. And that wasn’t easy.
A bark comes from beside you on the couch. The pitch black german shephard was staring at your sandwich, that was the only time Logan ever defended you, because the dog was trained to watch you, and bite you if you’re being an ass.
“Shut up dog.” He didn’t even bother giving the dog a name. He’s settled for calling him ‘dog.’ But the boy still listens, stepping off the couch and moving to lie down in his dog bed upon hearing Logan's angered voice. “You need to teach that dog to respect you.”
“You’re the one that trained him to kill me.”
“No, I trained him to keep you inside and hurt you only if you managed to get out.” He explained for the 5th time this week, you could tell he was starting to get annoyed.
“Well he bit me the other day…”
“Because you raised your voice at me.”
“You were being mean!” Your voice squeaks, and you turn around to face him in the kitchen. He was wearing his white beater and thick jeans, the teddy bear socks you ordered for him were on his feet, keeping him warm.
Was it wrong to admit you still loved and cared for him?
Probably.
But you did. When you had felt his feet on your thighs a few weeks ago because he was using you as a footrest as you two watched Bambi, his feet were absolutely freezing. “Holy shit dude, did you just come inside after walking in the snow barefoot?” You had pushed his feet off your lap, and he eventually let you search online for some socks. It took some convincing, but he eventually ordered the fluffy teddy bear socks. And now he wouldn’t stop wearing them.
You were just happy he was warm.
“Whatever.” You mumble after he doesn’t answer you, but he walks over to sit next to you on the couch. You still had a pillow placed on your lap which you’ve been cuddling all day and night, the word ‘home’ written on it in bold brown letters, making it pretty homey honestly.
“Whatever?” He groans as he sits down.
“What’re you groaning about old man?” You lean forward slightly, and he chuckles, your powers picking up the vibration in his chest which makes you feel fuzzy.
He was so sweet to you when he was in a good mood.
“Come here puppy.” He pats his lap, and you quickly move forward, tossing your pillow to the side to cuddle into him like an actual dog.
The way he wants you to.
You were the puppy, and he was the owner. He told you, followed by your smart ass biting him at every chance you got. He was honestly lucky you still had enough decency to not shit and piss on the floor out of spite.
But for some reason, you grew on him.
“Good girl…” He whispers, holding you close against his chest, not tight, as he wanted you to be comfortable.
He was always warm, especially his feet. It always brought a sense of happiness and comfort to you, even after you two fought.
You look down at the dog, he’s resting already, snores coming from his nose. But you know he’s still watching your every move somehow.
“Are you okay?” You nod, leaning further against him, seeking the most warmth you could as his hand moves under your shirt to start rubbing circles on your back, something he’s learned that you love, considering it makes your face redden.
“I have a question…” You mumble against his chest, part of you hoping he didn’t hear you.
“What’s the question?” You’re quiet for a moment, debating how to ask it.
“Promise you won’t get mad at me?”
“If you think I’m going to be mad, then I’m probably gonna be mad. Ask it.”
“What do you plan on doing with me…?” Your voice shakes slightly, and you begin to pick at your skin nervously when he doesn’t answer. Gently, he sits you up, making it so you look into his eyes. Your faces are just inches apart.
“Are you scared?” He asks, his voice quiet like he’s speaking to a horrified child.
You nod.
You hated to admit it. But you were scared.
He scoffs, shaking his head slightly at your movement. “Why would you be scared of me?” He grins, his hands cupping your cheeks, making you look even chubbier. “I love you, my angel… I wouldn’t ever do anything to hurt you…” He finishes his sentence with a kiss. His lips feel like poison against yours. “I love you.” He says again, his forehead pressed against yours. “Say it back. Say you love me.” He demands, grip tightening.
“I love you too… Logan.” You say his name with venom laced around every word like a snake choking their next meal. Then you had an idea. “Can I please get some water?” A smirk grows on your face, and you rock your hips slightly against him, biting your bottom lip. You’ve never been a seductress, but the growing tent in his pants tells you you’re doing good.
“Of course baby, go ahead.” He lets go of you, and you slowly stand, making sure to make nice sways of your hips as you move into the kitchen, reaching up and grabbing a glass, which you fill with water from the sink.
Your plan was simple. Though you weren’t too sure how it would play out.
You hear light feet behind you, the dog was going to sleep for the night. That makes you worry less. Looking in the reflection of the microwave, you could see Logan was looking away, so you quickly reach over, stealing a knife out of the knife block, shoving the blade into the back of your panties, making sure not to cut yourself, leaving the handle sticking out.
You take a deep breath, and begin to walk back over to Logan who was now facing the TV, both of his arms draped over the back of the couch. His eyes find you, smiling above your glass of water as you take a sip, your devilish eyes on him.
“That’s a different look.” He sits up slightly, but you keep him down by straddling his lap. “Am I finally winning-?” Your lips attach to his, the glass still in your right hand while your left hand gently grabs his jaw.
“You want me Logan?” You whisper, the sound making his hips jerk up against you, and his hands move to your hips. You had to move before he found the knife. His lips quirk into a smile, then he suddenly flips you over onto your back, the blade of the knife cutting your skin slightly, causing your hips to jerk upwards against him, a moan coming from his lips as they attach to the skin of your neck, his body still grinding against yours.
You try to reach behind your back, but it’s almost impossible to lift your body with his fucking boulder of a body lying on top of you.
“Are you lying on something?” His fists move to the sides of your head, then he leans on his forearms, giving you enough room to lift your back up, reach behind your back…
“Logan…” You whisper his name, the smile on your lips gone.
“Yes love?” He sounded so innocent.
“I fucking hate you.” You chuckle a little, then in the blink of an eye, the silver of the kitchen knife disappears in the side of his neck, a gurgle coming from his throat as he looks down at you in confusion, his face reddening and his mouth hanging open slightly before he collapses on top of you. SHIT. He was fucking heavy. It was like an elephant decided to take a nap on your chest. “Shit, get off!” You shout, struggling to move him, having to use your entire body as you manage to slip out from under him, making him fall onto the floor with a loud thump, the knife still sticking out of his throat as you quickly run into his room, grabbing a jacket and his truck keys before darting back out.
And your stomach turns.
He’s standing there. Perfectly fine.
He stands in front of your exit, his fingers wrapped around the handle of the knife, and he yanks the blade out, blood only gushing from his neck for a moment before you watch as the wound closes in just a few seconds. It takes a moment to realise he’s looking at you now, his key ring around your pinky finger as you stare at him in fear.
“No… Logan- Just hear me out-” You stutter as he approaches you, picking up the knife he threw to the floor as his walking becomes faster, backing you against a wall.
“What the fuck was-”
“I’m into knife play…” You spit it out as if it was a true confession. No, you weren’t into it. Or at least you’ve never tried it.
“You’re into knife play?” You nod your head. “Yea I knew that wouldn’t kill you.”
He stares at you for a long moment before speaking again.
“Well that’s good to know. Get in the bed.” He demands, taking a step back so you could manoeuvre into the bedroom. “Come on, clothes off.”
“Logan-”
“Clothes. Off.” He repeats, pointing towards the bed with the kitchen knife, and you finally listen. You watch from the bed as he lodges the knife between the crack of the door and the wall, pulling the door slightly to see if it could budge, and it doesn’t. “Knife play, huh?” He checks, moving to the bed and pulling your legs closer until they are hanging over the bed, and he settles himself between them. “Sounds fun.” He tells you, then suddenly reaches into the bedside draw, pulling out a pocket knife, flipping it to reveal a sharp blade. “Let me just make sure it’s sharp enough.” He grunts, lifting your arm, drawing the edge of the blade just barely over your forearm, and it easily leaves a paper like cut, making you wince. “Perfect.” He grabs the back of your thighs, and throws you further onto the bed, quickly crawling between your legs, the knife positioned on your stomach, keeping you still.
“Logan-”
“Shut up you fucking liar.” He growls, pushing his lips onto yours as he uses the knife to pull your panties aside, flipping the tool to rub your clit with the handle.
“Shit-”
“No, I said shut the fuck up.” He stops, and his eyes stare into yours.
Now you have a decision.
Let the asshole hurt you, and possibly walk away without getting fucked.
Or give into your desires.
The option wasn’t hard to decide.
“Sorry… daddy…” You moan, rocking your hips slightly, searching for some friction.
If you were going to be stuck here, you might as well enjoy it. But you weren’t too sure he would ever get over the knife kink after he was done with you.
“Daddy, hm?” He smirks, and you feel his body because less tense, less angry as he lies on top of you. “Stay still angel.” He tells you, putting the knife to the side for a moment as he pulls his shirt over his head, and your eyes stare at his body. It was like looking into a bag of freshly baked Hawaiian rolls. You might’ve made it a joke about wanting to bite him before. Being his ‘puppy,’ but now you really wanted to bite him. To taste him between your teeth.
Savour him.
“Mm… Please Logan…” You moan his name. You weren’t sure what had come over you, but now you wouldn’t be able to resist him. You need him.
“Begging too, I like it…” He reaches down, unbuttoning his jeans and removing his belt, tossing the belt to the side before tugging down his jeans slightly, and pulling out his cock, red and angry, already leaking precum. You wanted to just wrap your lips around him, feel him and taste him in your mouth, take him deep down in your throat. “Should see the ways your eyes are growing… Now you definitely look like a fucking puppy.” His lips attach to your throat, biting the lobe of your ear and tugging slightly as his hand rests on your waist, his other arm on the bed, being careful not to crush you this time.
His hand moves, lifting your waist slightly, and you take the hint. Wrapping your legs around his waist and he hooks his finger in the lace of your panties, pulling and breaking it easily before ripping them off completely and throwing them aside.
He pushes into you without any warning, not wanting to waste another second as his lips never leave your skin. You were slightly jealous, but you couldn’t even voice it, the only sounds that came from your throat were the pleasured moans drawn out by the thrusting of Logan's cock into your cunt, giving you to time to adjust as he ruts into you like a starved dog and you’re in heat. You loved it. It felt amazing. You’ve let plenty of larger men fuck you, but barely even thirty seconds into allowing Logan to fuck you, you already felt brainless. Jumbled words of desire, a few ‘daddy’ies and a couple ‘feels so good,’s all leaving your lips as he slams his hips against yours, his hands eventually gripping your thighs and spreading you further as he moves your legs to rest on his shoulders, you barely even notice the movements. Then he forces himself into you harder, his cock lathering your walls with your juices as he makes you cum, your eyes rolling to the back of your head as you let him use you like a doll.
A few minutes pass, and you weren’t sure when, you weren’t sure how, but you at some point move to sit on top of him, riding him like you had the energy of a twelve year old boy seeing the lego store in a mall,bouncing and rocking your hips like your job was just to fuck Logan, and his hips also rock against yours, his entire dick balls deep inside of you as you both lather what most would consider the most disgusting kisses all over eachother lips, spit and some tears from your own eyes covering eachothers lips as you both slobbily kiss eachother, his own lips eventually finding one of your nipples as he licks and bites it, your hands moving to his shoulders to keep yourself steady before his body suddenly shifts again, now you’re against the headboard, and he’s rutting into you again, the bed shaking viciously while his mouth smothers yours, and your mouth smother his.
Then his constant thrusting seems to get faster, and you feel your stomach tighten. You’re both close, and he doesn’t let up.
“Where, puppy… Tell me where…” He says with emotion laced in his face. You knew where he wanted you.
“Inside… Please Logan, inside…” He moans, his body rippling slightly and you feel his warmth seep through you, covering your walls in white. He thrusts a few more times before pressing another kiss to your mouth, more of a peck, then he rests his forehead on yours. “Does this mean you’re done with your stupid attitude?” He asks, you shake your head.
It's the first in the A Spider's Mate series by Tiffany Roberts!
Named "Ensnared" if you wanna look it up!
(I'm no critic, and I have no interest in that drama.)
SPOILERS BELOW??
To start off, the writing:
The writing is REALLY good. Like, lately I've been burnt out by the carousel POV trend that's in a lot of books, but somehow Roberts POV switching stayed pretty immersive and I was able to finish it in TWO DAYS!! I haven't read a book all the way through in such a long time. Truthfully it could be that it's because she only switched between the two main characters, but I digress
If you are looking for a smut book that jumps right in, then this isn't for you, it's pretty lore-intensive. AND I LOVE THAT! I was really enjoying the dynamic between Ivy and Ketahn. I loved each bit of cultural exchanges, and the imagery that Roberts gave surrounding the Vrix society and behaviors.
The book IS littered with smutty elements here and there that builds heat and tension in a way that I enjoyed VERY much, while the actual smut is more minimal, I wonder if the sequels will have more? (˵ ¬ᴗ¬˵)
If you like monster lover fanfiction then I think you'd like it too! I've only read the first book, but I am so pumped to keep on. (Once I have the money to buy them)
The Vrix:
I loved the take on an alien spider society and biology, loved the slight sci-fi elements being just in the background so far, and my mind is RACING with the possibilities around the rest of the human cast... kind spoiled by seeing the spin-off series only cuz I recognized the names of the characters within the story.
I saw that many reviews kinda criticized the writer for 'trying to make them attracted to an alien spider' but honestly I think if you were going into it just thinking it would be one of those monster stories where the MaleMC can magically morph into a conventionally attractive human man or your average smut-filled fantasy with no fluff you'll be disappointed
but I WAS NOT!! She succeeded in making Ketahn very attractive to a monster lover reader, in my opinion. (and honestly move over IVY IT'S MY TURN!!! jk jk) Ketahn is a sweetheart, even if a bit antisocial (and for good reason imo) the interactions between the Vrix are believable, I can feel how familiar some of the characters are to each other!!
Of course, I'm already pretty used to (and INTO) the chitters and growls, and more animalistic (buglike?) traits of many monster-loving fictions; if you've seen my reblogs of TF fanfics *drools*
And more limbs means more *ahem* (gets shot 37 times for sinful thoughts) and once i actually got to the smut I was already incredibly invested in the pairing hehe I'm having a hard time not impulsively making OCs for this cuz I haven't read the next two books AND THE STORY??? Gosh I just GRRRR haha
