#entry 109

[diary-of-a-people-pleaser]

Entry 109, 6-11-21

I’ve met me at a strange point in my life.

Things just keep getting worse.

I’m losing my cohesion

Why

[oliveontheroad]

September 6th, 2014

Your day was (only choose one) a ruler. a junction. fooling around.

Explain why: Every now and then, I have to check materialism at the door and purge my belongings.

Many are insisting on: control.

No reason to comment on a stupid comment. Hear hear.

A particular directive you find very disturbing: be what others want you to be.

THE RIGHT MOMENT 1. a special condition 2. requires awareness neither: happens without forethought

PERFECT TIMING doesn't exist 1. comes and goes 2. allows spontaneity

A type of social event you find rather uneventful: parties in general - yuck - party small talk is the worst.

Courtesy of my Red Keel's Simple Diary Vol. 2

[queen--catherine]

Nightlog Entry#109: I think I have a problem.

Okay, but seriously. I think I may be a sociopath. Now, before you get any big ideas, remember who I am, and remember my relationships with you. Not all sociopaths are bloodthirsty serial killers. If they were, we'd all be dead. 1 in 25 people are sociopaths. I personally think, after reviewing online test after online test (because those are so accurate, I know) and having reviewed the types, I may very well be a disempethetic sociopath, which means I only have empathy and such for those very close to me. It certainly makes sense for things in the past, where I would look at statistics of people who died and not bat an eye, but cry when a character in a book dies of, say, cancer. I'm looking at you, Augustus.

Just... Listen, okay? Not everyone who is a sociopath is insane. It's just a mental disorder, like being bipolar, or schizophrenic, or having chronic depression. It's different for most people.

So, you may be wondering, "That's neato, why tell us this?" Well, it's because, in my search, I came across many websites that portrayed sociopaths as people who needed to be put in jail, or killed, or in some cases, referred to them as "it". That's a bit of a blow to the self esteem, don'tcha think?

I'm just saying this because I think that sociopathy may be one of the most misunderstood mental disorders to date, because not much is known about it at all, and only recent discoveries prove there's even more than one type, and that's it's not just that guy being a dick.

So, yeah, there's my rant for the day.

[imperfectfemmefatale]

Entry 109: 8- 19- 13:

Let's just say that nothing went right for my first day of high school. I was treated terribly for the way I dress, right from the get- go. Then, I didn't even have my friends to help me suffer. Feeling alone and not ready.

I hate this.

[thecourierofthemojave]

Entry 109

Well, a new day is upon me, a new suit of armor on my back and a new rifle in my hands. This should be one of the most secure trips across the Mojave I have ever experienced. Realized this morning that I was out of Stealth-boys and my Blamco supply is running low. Luckily I still have about 3 gallons worth of water on me. This suit of armor actually makes things feel like they weigh a lot less than they actually do. I may have to make a stop in Sloan along the way to resupply myself. ED-E could have really made a great companion on this trip, cant wait to see him again.

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