"Professor Sylvia Maxis. Oh-seven oh-one two-six-oh-nine. I've been here a week now. This is, uh, highly embarrassing. The keys to what I assume is the master bedroom were... in the desk drawer. This desk [thunk, knocking] that the recorder sits on. Wasn't locked. Slid out super easily. I... uhm. I slept in this beat-up wheelie chair for a week. Because it didn't occur to me to check a drawer. Moving on! There were all kinds of awards and things in that room. Apparently, I'm very good at robotics and computer sciences. Looking at those awards though, including my diploma, makes me sort of... angry. And a little terrified. Sleeping in that bed gave me this bizarre dream, although I can't really remember much of it. Just a lot of numbers.
...
You know... I keep this because I feel like I'm talking to someone. No, somebody. I can't remember his name, or his age, or who he was to me, but I remember his face.
it was a quiet practice today, with just myself, the captain, and dustman present. we did a whole bunch of drills and i spent time with longsword. this entry will be relatively short since i only fought two people.
i did well today, but i’m disappointed i didn’t have many opponents. also, the captain’s health isn’t the best, and i worry about her. she had covid a couple of months ago and is suffering some long term effects (she’s fully vaccinated and wears a mask whenever out, but she’s a teacher and got it from her school). she can’t fight as long or hard as she used to, and has to take a lot of breaks. i no longer think i’ve merely gotten better - i think it may be some time until the captain’s full strength returns, if it ever will.
get vaccinated, wear masks, keep distance. please.
anyone spreading covid misinformation via this post will be promptly blocked.
as for swordplay, i fought single rapier against the captain and did slow motion drills against dustman with longsword. the rest of the time was footwork and guard drills.
i want to practice the italian eight guards that the captain taught today - they seem incredibly useful and gives me new forms to drill on my own. now i know three sets of guards.
the captain taught me some longsword stuff too. a lot of half-swording with that. it’s about moving slow and fluid, which is what tripped me up last time. my fighting style tends to be pretty quick with the rapier, so slowing down with the longsword is a challenge, but a welcome one.
Jordan woke up, bruised, hungover, and chilly. She rubbed her eyes. She sat up, pulling away the burlap blanket and felt a cold breeze.
It was then she realized the following:0
She was naked.
She was in a jail cell.
She had a killer headache.
She covered herself up again in the burlap blanket, the rough cloth brushing against her skin like sandpaper.
"What in the Seven 'ells..." Jordan said aloud.
"Finally awake, are we, Private Kennedy?" a husky voice said. It was a tall Sea Wolf woman in a Barracuda Knight outfit. Jordan Immediately recognised the insignia of a Sergeant
"I... Aye, marm..." Jordan looked down, before asking in a raw voice, "Wha' 'appened ta me clothes?"
"Navigator only knows..." the Sergeant sighed. "We found ye at the Anchor Yard splayed on top of the gull statue making "whooshing" noises and calling out for, accordin' ta witnesses, quote 'ma sweet Emmie baby girl, I miss ye and so does me tongue'."
Jordan froze for a minute, trying to process the words she just heard. "Ah, shite..." she finally replied.
"Shite indeed, Private." The sergeant stifled a laugh before correcting herself. "Can ye even recall what ye were doin' last night, lass?" the officer asked.
Jordan brushed a hand on her short, buzzed hair. "Well, I just came back inta town after a stint patrolling the Northwest La Noscea and the cliffsides 'round O'Gohmoro..".
The night before Jordan and a trio of young men sat around a table in a small dockside bar, the Navigator's Bosom. They were passing around pints of dark beer. After a rough clink of cups, spilling some foam on the table, they all downed their pints in one swig before slamming the cups down. On the table. At once they all cried out with a satisfied "oh!"
"Aye, that 'it the swivin' spot!" Jordan exclaimed, wiping some of the residue from her face.
"Nothin' like that first pint after comin' 'ome ta ease yer troubles." Salulu Pilulu exclaimed, the Lalafellin man remarked before lighting a pipe.
"First cups' always the best one." Bluomwilf added.
"Aye, just like the first woman ye 'ave when ye get inta town too!" A Midlander, Redmond, remarked to raucous laughter from Jordan and Bluomwilf, and a mild nod from Salulu.
"Ye don't 'ave t' get quite so vulgar just because we're in a place like this, Red..." Salulu remarked, taking in a bit of pipeweed.
"Ah, yer no fun," Redmond added, "Kennedy understands what I'm talkin' 'bout, aye?"
Jordan laughed, "Aye, aye/ Though tonight I think I'd rather spend it with good friends than trying me luck at the Member."
Bluomwilf laughed, "Ye gotta get back in there sometime, shrimp! This is where ye n' I differ. Ye can't keep 'oldin a torch for a lass that's off n' been married for two cycles."
Jordan nodded, "Aye, aye... when ye fall fer a lovely raven-haired byoot 'ard and then lose 'er, I'll listen ta ye, ye fat bastard."
Bluomwilf smiled. "Red n' I were thinkin' about goin to a show tomorrow night. Yer welcome ta join. I 'eard the dancers like performin' fer interested lasses, even willing ta go 'the extra malm or two'." He raised his eyebrows in an overly suggestive manner.
Jordan thought about it for a moment. "May'aps... but I need more drink in me first." She looked out to a barmaid, "Lass! Another round fer the table! On me gil!"
As they drank another round, Jordan said. "Aye, this is what I'm achin' for tonight! Say Bluomwif, let's see if'n I can drink ye under the table."
"Yer already 'alfway under the table, shrimp."
"The only thing that's shrimp-like 'ere is that thing ye call a cock."
Bluomwilf laughed. The Sea Wolf waved the barmaid over. "Two bottles of whiskey and two cups. We're celebratin' this eve!"
An hour later, Redmond and Salulu sat amused. The Midlander was half-asleep from drink and Salulu was having a laugh as Jordan took her tenth shot. She bobbled left to right like a buoy in choppy waters, but, after a second to steady herself, she slurped the last few drops in the shot glass and violently slammed it upside down on the table in front of her.
Bluomwilf, looking about as worse for wear somehow, slurred, "Twelve Dammmit... if'n I grow up with ye... I'd swear ye was a Sea Wolf in a Lalafell glamour....:
Jordan countered, "Enh, ye've always been a lightweight....n' a coward... nex-next round... what number issit?"
"11, Jordan." Salulu pointed out helpfully as he poured whiskey in Bluomwilf's glass.
"Aye 'leven. Gooo 'wilfy"
The young Sea Wolf grunted and took the shot glass. He stared at the glass, concentrating as he brought it to his lips and drank, his eyes shut. Looking at the table, he moved to place the glass down, but missed and dropped the glass on the floor, the glass clinking and rolling under his chair as he leaned back and let out a groan.
"Well," Red piped up. "Looks like the whiskey's swallowed 'im up."
"Wand'rer blesssss me iron liverrrr," Jordan said as she raised her arms to polite applause from the conscious companions.
After sighing in satisfaction, Jordan brushed her fore'ead, "Gods, it's gettin' mighty warm in ';ere." She stood up and, with a wobble that looked like would keel over at any time she stumbled outside.
"Ah, that's nice, " Jordan thought as the crisp fall air his her face. "'Tis a nice sky... I member when Emmie n' I use ta gaze at the stars after we did it in her room... she wore this lovely filly robe and I was in just me britches when we sat on the roof of 'er 'ouse 'n'... *hic*"
Jordan began stumbling up towards the Upper Decks. She wandered the oil lamp-lit streets and found a lit building. Outside a lone young woman stood outside. She was a Midlander, a bit on the short side, but with long black hair and a low cut tunic that advertise ample décolletage.
Jordan took a look at her and let out a long low whistle as she walked by.
"Like what ya see, sailor?" the woman asked.
Jordan covered her mouth with her hands. She swayed from the momentum for a bit until she settled and said, "pardon.. S'not polite ta be catcallin', but yer a byoot... a sight fer me sore eyes."
"I can make a few other things sore, if ya 'ave the gil, missy." the Midlander woman replied with a wink and a wave of her hand, making a point of showing her beautifully painted, but short nails.
Jordan stopped for a moment and reached into her pockets. "I shouldn't but. enh, just got me pay, I can live a little."
"Why don't we step in, 'ave a drink, and a nice talk. Just us gals," the woman giggled and as though using conjury, beckoned Jordan inside, the Lalafellin woman easily pulled in behind her.
In a small parlor, the woman poured Jordan some brandy in a glass over ice. "This is a nice one, Flight of the Fish Gull, they call it. 'Ave a drink."
Jordan looked a bit nervous now, having sobered up a tad. "Aye, looks good. What about you?"
"Oh, I've been nursin' a cheap rosé. Ye'd much prefer the brandy, love." The woman smiled and poured herself a glass of wine. Before sitting down quite snugly next to Jordan, letting the Lalafell rest her head on her bosom.
"Cheers 'en, "Jordan said raising a glass and taking a hearty swig.
Five minutes later, Jordan was passed out asleep. The woman stood and smiled as sealed the cap on the brandy.
"Poor sod, well at least she'll learn 'er lesson." The woman took no time grabbing Jordan's coin purse, stripping the young woman and throwing her out on the street. Jordan staggered about the only road she could see before ending up at a dead end.
"Oh, I'm a bleedin' fool I am..." the young woman moaned. She looked up and saw the white stone statue glisten in the moonlight. "Ye's da only one 'oo understands me, tiny bird. Les' fly away from our trubblezzzz..."
"Enh, last I remembered, I was drinkin' with me squadmates. The rest's a blur." Jordan finally answered after thinking on it for a few minutes.
The Sergeant sighed. "Well, he're some loaner clothes that should fit you, Private."
"Aye ma'am. Thank ye ma'am."
"Normally we'd fine you for disturbing the peace n' public indecency-"
Jordan winced. "Aye?"
"But due to your status as a Private in the Knights of the Barracuda, we've decided to discipline you internally. Your immediate superior officer, Sergeant Styrnskoefsyn has already taken responsibility for your action and will be dealing with you as is considered appropriate.
Jordan nodded. She knew six months of Latrine Duty was in her future.
We get back to the car and with my old chemistry equipment and I manage to siphon a significant amount of gasoline. I take the red canister, and she takes her water bottle.
We pour it all over the crop.
“Is it weird that I feel kinda sad killing it?” She says , dumping the last of the gas.
“Yes. Get in the car.”
I use some of the matches dad keeps in the car and light the whole pack.
Je choisis d'écrire cette entrée en français parce qu'apparemment selon mes notes, le français est la seule chose pour laquelle je suis bonne.
Ce quartier était intéressant. J'ai l'impression d'avoir développé un peu la tête fendue.
D'un côté, j'ai découvert ce que signifie s'amuser. Après être rentrée à la maison et avoir mentionné à ma conseillère que mon plus grand regret était de ne jamais m'être amusée au lycée, elle a ri pour la première fois depuis longtemps et a dit: "Je suis tout à fait d'accord avec ça." C'est vrai.
Par contre, j'ai perdu un peu de mon contrôle. Cela fait longtemps que je ne suis pas dans la foule, en ce sens que ces dernières années ont fait de moi une personne à part entière. J'ai toujours été très différent. Peu de gens dans le monde font ce que je fais ou peux faire ce que je fais, et j'en suis fier. J'étais fier de l'aliénation parce que c'était auto-infligé mais amusant.
À l'école, je suis très "moyenne". Mes notes ne sont pas excellentes (elles sont en fait terribles) et j'ai mis un effort moyen. J'essaie d'apprendre à me fondre dans la peau, car le fait d'être un mouton noir semble attirer une attention négative, ce qui n'était pas le cas auparavant.
Je suis heureuse d'être à la maison pour pouvoir redevenir moi-même, mais je suis toujours perplexe face à mon changement. Je n'ai vraiment pas vraiment les mots pour le décrire.
Goodness, I haven't been keeping up with this blog. I'm sorry about that.
I've been getting back into writing lately, that's helped with my mental state a bit. Painting had been fun, too. I've been trying to do that more often. Would you guys want to see my art?
But anyway. I hope you guys have nice holidays. I'll post whatever I get as presents after the holidays are over.
My parents...have been fighting again. The ringing in my ears has whispering behind it at night, I swear.
How have you all been? I hope your lives are well.
my birthday was really fun. i got thoughtful presents all around and spent good time with close friends.
im growing tired though, and even though i’ve always said “i need new meds”, i think i really need new meds. actually. ive been in bed a lot lately too. i lie about not being up late, but i still feel glued to my bed, unmotivated for anything except maybe the new pokemon game i guess.
guess who didnt even say hbd to me though. SAM. what a nut, i expected better, tch.
im going to put in effort until 2:30am-3:30am coding my page and rewriting my relationships and connections.
i want to get that done. it’d be nice for reference.
i’ve been drawing more recently, i hope i can work on my goals. become the person i want to be, become a better person.
not much to update on, but thought i’d make an entry.
