I've had to get really serious with my health lately and it feels like I make progress on one thing and a new thing pops up :( I decided a few months ago that ending my life wasn't the answer and that I would have to live. And I still will, despite it all my life is a gift, but it was difficult enough just worrying about the mental stuff, now it's the physical too. I've missed a lot of work lately and though there are a lot of benefits to contract work, no PTO or sick days means lost income. I'll be alright but I'd be lying if I said it didn't worry me.
I'd been chronically stressed for so long so it's no surprise that once I got safe everything fell apart but I was already tired. I'm still stressed but managing anxiety is getting better. I run now, take lots of walks, cut out ultra-processed food, do my own cooking, deep breaths, do hobbies Try to do all the things that are good for you but man is it a lot of work.
