feeling so exhausted and sad lately

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feeling so exhausted and sad lately
Me: *thinking in the shower* Mmm, I could really go for Panera today. Been feeling like shit and I could use a treat.
Me: *gets out of shower, hears sizzling in the kitchen* …Mom, what are you making?
Mom: *insert one of my favorite dishes here*
Me: oh! (Well okay, I don’t mind that!)
Me: *puts on various lotions and gets dressed*
Me: *leaves room* Ok, I’m here.
Mom: What?
Me: Is the food not ready?
Mom: Your grandma hasn’t sent up the *insert favorite part of said dish*
Me: ……………………… (Hello darkness my old friend…)
…
The context is that my grandma doesn’t make it anywhere near as good as my mom does. So the whiplash of looking forward to treating myself to some food I like to somewhat settling for one of my favorite dishes to THEN find out that it’s possibly likely going to be a disappointment is just…
I’m tired. I’m tired I’m tired I’m tired I’m tired I’m tired I’m tired I’m tired I’m tired I’m tired I’m tired I’m tired
I'm feeling incredibly overwhelmed by being alive!
I'm so TIRED
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quick question: when did me taking off my coat say "hey I'm not gonna do what you asked me to do"
asking because my mother seems to think four seconds of silence justifies being passive aggressive about going to get a FUCKING CUP
gross // tmi //
I'm in a angry mood, probably bc I can't go to the fucking loo
the depression period has started ugh