#ex junkie

[bellepeony]

Being an ex addict and meeting new people etc is so fucking weird like I was a literal junkie and I don’t know how to communicate without drugs. I try to keep my past secret but my personality is still the same and eventually they have to know that I was an addict and they’ll feel different about me.

[zocainex]

DON'T DO DRUGS!!

I beg you. Never touch drugs. Other than the obvious reasons not to like the fact you're hurting yourself, you can die, & you'll hurt the people around you, I'm gonna tell you about the things that no one else will. When & if you're lucky enough to beat an addiction you will lose & gain some things. After the dopesickness & the withdrawals you will be left with all the emotional damage, physical damage, and social damage. Those "friends" you use to get fucked up with will stop talking to you gradually. They stuck around for the substances, not your company. You gain the knowledge of knowing who's real or not but you will lose your mind bc loneliness will set in. Depending on the drug your were once addicted to, you will sweat & shiver at the name of it coming on the news or opening a drawer only to remember that tin foil is also used for cooking in the kitchen but that was the farthest thought from your mind. You'll feel empty. You'll feel like you're not even that same person anymore & that's true, you're not. You have to find yourself. You'll be faced with people who think you're a buzz kill when you don't want to drink but little do they know that you picked up a bottle when the drugs ran out & drinking was no longer a fun thing but more so a filler/replacement. You'll meet people who will slander drug addicts & say how much of a low life they are right in front of you not knowing you were once one and the path that led you to drugs was very dark & sad. You'll have life long affects of the drugs. You'll be more prone to relapse, depression, anxiety, and many other mental illnesses. If you suffered from these before the drugs then you're gonna face hell. But let me say this. You will feel like you're on top of the world once you find yourself again. You will love being sober just as much as you use to love getting high. You will meet new people & meet people who are actually friends. You will see who was true and who stuck by you at your worst. You will gain freedom, courage, and dignity you thought you lost. You will feel reborn. And last but not least, if you're reading this and you are still battling addiction, you CAN beat it! - an ex-junkie who found her way (roughly 2 years clean)

[base-up]

Anime saved my life tbh

Last summer I was fuckin up so bad like heavy opiate addiction and going to jail. when I came out I deleted fb and insta. All I did was watch crunchyroll and YouTube for 9 months. Fully immersing myself in the otaku gang lifestyle lol I literally cried during a couple shows. I don't think you understand. Before I got back to work I was watching 10 hours of anime a day at least that's like 25 episodes lol in 1 month that's like 700 episodes a month. But for real I would start to think how wack I was but then I remembered that I wasn't a drug user anymore so really I was cooler than my old self who partied all the time. Like I don't even smoke stoags anymore haha I'm so stoked. It took me 3 months of vaping to quit but I did it. I always got money in the bank now. I can actually save bread to travel.(Miami this winter after 5 years lol. I went from weighing 140 last summer to 175-180 since when I checked in January. If it wasn't for anime to put me in another world I don't think I would've stopped using drugs to do the same thing. I'm bouta go back to college and shit too. Like damn how the fuck is life so good. Stay positive cuz let me tell u if I could make it out of the trap anyone can. Change ur number and delete ur social media accounts. I swear u won't have any temptations if u fuck wit anime or books and shit lol.... Idk if anyone's actually gonna read this it was mainly for me u know like I just want to actually see the words written out like damn this shit is actually happening. If u need help I will talk to anyone like even if I don't know you at all. I swear I'm too friendly but now I know how to stay away from the wrong kinds of people

[1409201603072018]

Einmal Junkie, immer Junkie. Scheiß egal wie lang du Clean bist! Es interessiert Keinen, Du bleibst für immer ein Scheiß Junkie!

Icedfire16

[akumaslave]

Cutting the "Special Stuff"

The League of Gentlemen "special stuff" sketches are hilarious, but very on point as a metaphor for drugs.

That is what every hardcore drug user is asking himself. Glad not to have to worry about such things anymore.

[akumaslave]

Easily one of my top 10 favorite songs from the 80's. I was 11 years old when it came out, and now I'm 40 (fuck...) and it has extra deep meaning for me. Funny how things play out.

Alphaville, Big in Japan (1984)

[akumaslave]

Never Let Me Down Again, Depeche Mode (1987)

That particular "best friend" was an asshole and he let me down all the fucking time. Each landing was worse than the last and I was left broken in mind and body. Fuck him.

[akumaslave]

Ashes to Ashes, funk to funky

We know Major Tom's a junkie

Strung out in heaven's high

Hitting an all time low.

Time and again I tell myself

I'll stay clean tonight

But the little green wheels are following me

Oh no, not again

I'm stuck with a valuable friend

"I'm happy, hope you're happy too"

One flash of light

But no smoking pistol

I never done good things

I never done bad things

I never did anything out of the blue

Want an axe to break the ice

Wanna come down right now

XXX

My mama never said anything about Major Tom.