#ex love

[me-and-mistakes]

Alte Chats...

[mesutbahtiyarolacak]

Belki bir daha hiç görüşemeyeceğiz. Belki aynı şehirde, aynı sokakta bile yan yana gelemeyeceğiz. Aynı havayı, aynı güneşi, aynı denizi içimize çekemeyeceğiz. O hüzün dolu gözler, sonbahar yaprakları gibi düşmeyecek yüreğimize. Bir bir, damla damla…

Belki son nefesimizi verirken aklımıza düşmeyecek, kimsesiz ve yapayalnızken tebessümlerinle ısınamayacağız.

O huzurevinde, düşen yapraklarda anımsanmayacak, kelimelerin parlattığı çakıltaşlarına bile hürmeti keseceğiz.

Senli hiçbir hayal belirmeyeyecek, hiçbir rüya karanlıkların arasından sıyrılamayacak, hiçbir ses o kabuktan içeri giremeyecek.

İleri geri itilen bir yetim gibi sokakları adımlayacak, enkazların arasından sızan bir duman gibi nefes almaksızın hayatın bitimini bekleyeceğiz solgun gözlerle.

Gözyaşlarımız hiç damlamayacak yanağımıza, kalbimizin atışını hiç hissetmeyecek, her iç çekişimizde bir kere daha öleceğiz belki de….

Biz belki hiç biz olmadan, belki hiç yaşamadan , belki hiç ölmeden öleceğiz…

Yaşanmamış günlere…

Yaşanmamış yıllara…

Yaşanmayacak hiçbir an’a….

[songofsoulss]

I'm afraid ex love, I started to hate ...

[breakuppoetry]

[amoonmadeofflowers]

I regret everything I gave to you

There's a TikTok trend right now where someone asks

the girl,

"if you were in a room full of all the women he has ever loved,

do you think he would go to you?"

And I have seen so many versions.

Sad. Happy. Unsure. Sarcastic.

I wish this had been a trend when we were dating;

maybe I would have noticed earlier that I was never someone you

would run too

I probably would have ignored the truth as I so clearly did for the last

year of lies you so graciously gave to me.

I made a joke to my best friend that I would never be the one you

would go to because your mom would be in that room

But let's be honest darling, I wouldn't even be in the room.

It's laughable because I like to pretend most of the time that

you actually cared about me, at least, right?

Wrong.

I don't think you've ever loved anyone but yourself and, while I hope

you do someday, I also hope you wake up one day and realize

how much I loved you and how much possibility you gave up when

you lost me...

Remember when I told you not to call me when you're 40 and aren't

happy with your life?

Remember when I told you I wasn't the answer to your midlife crisis?

I wish you would. I wish I were.

But that is just the trauma bond talking and you will never

have me in your grasp

ever again.

[schuylerpeck]

schuyler peck / instagram: hiitssky

[solis-xxiv]

dear ‘a’,

I know you don’t really care but I thought it was worth noting that I’ve moved on. Sure, I think about you every once in a while, but I don’t cry anymore. Like I said before, I’ll always love you platonically, and if you ever wanted to be friends, I would say yes in a heartbeat. But I no longer love you romantically. It’s taken me 102 days, but I’ve made it.

I truly hope you’re doing well, A.

With Love,

Solis <3