#ex moose

[riiarichu]

Ramble below, not fandom related unfortunately. If you’re here for CH, HTF, ENDPSTC or UT, please see the tags on my page

Due to current political situations, I feel obligated to mention that NO ONE, regardless of their beliefs or location deserves to die. Don’t take anything below the cut that way, please.

Define “Islamophobia”

Is it: hating Muslims?

Is it: hating islam?

Is it: hating Islamic beliefs?

Is it: thinking that believing in certain Islamic beliefs inherently makes you a bad person?

Is it: being afraid, but not having hatred, of Muslims?

The term gets thrown around as all terms do, so I ponder this often when I see “islamophobes DNI” because am I, by definition, islamophobic because of my hatred for the religion and general distrust/distance for the people who follow it? Because I can’t be friends with someone who believes I deserve to go to hell for an attraction I can’t control? Who believes homosexuality is a lifestyle and or a choice? That thinks that it’s okay to shake around your wife? That “worships” (for lack of a better term at the moment, I know they don’t “worship” Muhammad the way they worship allah) a pedophile? Even if they don’t bring these things up to you, there is no mutual respect since either in the back or forefront of their minds, they still believe these things. Am I Islamophobic for flinching whenever I see a mosque, or a woman in a niqab, or hear certain Islamic names? I mean, I suppose, since the suffix “phobia” implies fear.

They (along with Christians) typically compare homosexuality to smoking when called out. Saying “you don’t want a smoker to smoke but you still love them” except they seem to ignore the fact that smoking is the leading cause of preventable diseases, homosexuality is just having romantic and sexual attraction to the same sex. I mention this because of my own sexuality and simply how openly disgusted and appalled Muslims are by it. And how people are just… okay with Muslims being openly homophobic. I never understood, when Christians do it it’s awful but when Muslims do it, it’s okay?

Perhaps my opinions and confusion on what constitutes as Islamophobia are skewed by my severe religious abuse, but as far as my mind sees it, it’s;

Islam = bad, evil, cons (misogyny, homo/transphobia, acceptance of pedophilia…) outweigh the pros (be kind to others, blah blah blah basic religious stuff)

And

Muslim woman = maybe not bad? Approach with caution, person may hurt you or belittle you, likely conservative, may try to revert you, likely wants you to burn in hell.

Muslim man = Do not go near

Maybe I am Islamophobic since I see a Muslim man and think “5/10 chance he sucks” but that’s literally all I know, that’s all I’ve been shown by men in that religion. Or maybe, just maybe, it’s a man thing and not an islam thing.

Not sure.

Everything I mentioned is something I ponder and furthermore, it makes me wonder if I’m a bad person because of this. I don’t want to have any “isms” or “phobias” but if I do, does it matter unless I actively seek out to hurt others? Does this go for Muslims as well? Do their personal beliefs on these topics matter unless they’re killing gay people and marrying children? Or do some internal beliefs truly define you, regardless of if you hurt others? This got strangely philosophical, I apologize.

[sweet-nothing26]

This past month i lost two of my closest friends which i have considered to be so close to my heart and for the first time in my life, i have truly understood the heartbreak that comes from ending a relationship with another human being whether it's platonic or romantic. As taylor swift has emphasized before, friendship breakups can be just as intense as romantic ones and it was until this month that i truly understood what she meant.

My friends or shall i say ex friends, challenged me amid a silly misunderstanding to bring out something that i bring into our friendship since they have to endure the looks of judgements and the outcast treatment for their association with me. An atheist, someone who doesn't believe in the abrahamic god (how dare she), someone who doesn't have a religion to guide them in this life, someone who lacks a moral compass, as they claim. In 2024 i made a pact with myself to STOP over explaining my stance. This includes but not limited to, my morals, my values, my beliefs or lack thereof, my identity, my whims, dreams...etc especially to someone who will never ever open their mind to accept a perspective or pov other the one their communities feed them regularly. Trying to humanize myself in a society that will forever paint atheists and non believers in a bad light since its beginning is a mistake and a waste of time, energy and my mental sanity.

For me, i thought friendship was about accepting the beautiful and ugly parts of your friends and seeing their imperfections as little quirks that just makes them who they are. I was wrong. I think this was a lesson for me to continue being a loner and never establish any deep relationship with muslims knowing they will drop you the moment they know who you truly are.

This is one of the many many beautiful things islam took away from me. The ability to make friends and connect with people. Because no matter what i do, i'm seen as a bad person who you shouldn't associate yourself with if you're a believer. I could lead you to the path of sin and disobedience. A path where you hypothetically question the absurdities that your community has fed u. A path where reason is put before faith.

Some people might say that i should stop victimizing myself and being a victim in every scenario since life is unfair for everyone and i should just stop bitching and moaning non stop. But aren't I a victim in a society where i know there are a hundred thousand people who would want me dead? Aren't I a victim in a society where the law prosecutes blasphemers for using our ''god'' given right to speak freely about the things that hurt us? Aren't I a victim for being named an abomination, a disgrace, a heathen? Aren't i a victim for facing hate crime? Aren't I a victim as a liberal ex muslim woman in a conservative islamic state?

Honestly, i rest my case. I no longer resist the loneliness the atheist path has brought me, not that it's my fault. But befriending muslims is a waste of time regardless of how open or liberal they say they are. Conservative societies are about maintaining status no matter how miserable everyone within these societies is. They shall all paint themselves as obedient straight godly people and can never stray away from that image. Any minor inconveniences that they commit can break that illusion even the ones that don't involve them at all like associating themselves with the supposed heathens. That association in itself takes away that fake status quo and ''god'' knows they can't live with that.

[asinvisibleasmillard]

So I’ve been questing my faith a lot more now that it’s Ramadan, before this I was practicing regularly and talking about it with friends. But lately, I’ve been feeling confused, maybe God has left me because I haven’t been doing enough for Him, maybe He hates me. I feel like everything is working against me.

I know this dunya is supposed to be a prison for believers but why does having faith make me feel even more trapped, I’ve been feeling depressed because of it.

I haven’t been able to fast yet, so maybe once I do things will change? I have so much grief and guilt about questioning and I can’t even talk to any of my friends about it because I don’t want them to see me differently. But ever since I’ve come to terms with idea that God may very well not exist, I’ve felt such relief and peace, the guilt I had for being alive stopped bothering me.

But I also feel angry, like I’ve been lied to. I know if I brought this up to my parent it would probably be daqan ceelis (forced overseas) for me in hopes I come back better. But staying here isn’t any better, instead i continue to be robbed of my money by my family and unable to form any kind of independence. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life faking, I want to leave this family but as a Somali, it’s extremely difficult.

Can anyone else relate or am I screaming into the void?

[kharakardashian]

like if you’re ex-muslim

[urfavmurtad]

I want to open a museum dedicated to improper-hijab-shaming fanart that looks like it came from DeviantArt circa 2007

[bellapeacock-blog1]

The very first post 😁

This is awkward .. Especially that it is the first post and I know no one is reading , But Anyway ;; I am an ex-muslim arabic girl , I am here - even though I don't have the slightest idea how tumbler works - because I wanted to express myself and share my opinions about Islam with others , and hence I live between Muslims everywhere , the only place to breath freely is the internet . Tumbler is not that popular in my country ; so the chances I get recognized are very very slim (I hope none).. As I said I am arabic so my English won't be perfect but I will do my best , and I'll keep learning every day from you .. Hope somebody is going to like what I post .. ❤❤

[spirituallynumb]

I have 99 problems and they are all due to Islam.

[urfavmurtad]

OK, on the subject of shaking hands, I was gonna make a post about how, when I was in first grade, we had this lovely teacher named Ms Aisha who was an expert at coming up with bullshit to excuse weird and/or misogynistic religious rules. She told us that the Queen of England doesn’t touch men’s hands because she’s too far above them, and since we are also “queens” in our own way, we shouldn’t have to touch men’s hands either. We all had a good laugh about this and went home confident that we were engaging in some grrl-power act by adhering to our patriarchal religious norms. Now I was gonna post about how stupid I was to fall for that one, but out of curiosity I just looked it up and??? SHE CAN SHAKE MEN’S HANDS. IT WAS ALL A LIE!!!

I feel betrayed rn. This is like leaving Islam all over again. What do you have to say for yourself, Ms Aisha, if that is your real name