#leaving islam

[the-garbanzo-annex-jr]

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[seraphimfall]

you were taught to hate yourself when you needed love the most.

[riiarichu]

Ramble below, not fandom related unfortunately. If you’re here for CH, HTF, ENDPSTC or UT, please see the tags on my page

Due to current political situations, I feel obligated to mention that NO ONE, regardless of their beliefs or location deserves to die. Don’t take anything below the cut that way, please.

Define “Islamophobia”

Is it: hating Muslims?

Is it: hating islam?

Is it: hating Islamic beliefs?

Is it: thinking that believing in certain Islamic beliefs inherently makes you a bad person?

Is it: being afraid, but not having hatred, of Muslims?

The term gets thrown around as all terms do, so I ponder this often when I see “islamophobes DNI” because am I, by definition, islamophobic because of my hatred for the religion and general distrust/distance for the people who follow it? Because I can’t be friends with someone who believes I deserve to go to hell for an attraction I can’t control? Who believes homosexuality is a lifestyle and or a choice? That thinks that it’s okay to shake around your wife? That “worships” (for lack of a better term at the moment, I know they don’t “worship” Muhammad the way they worship allah) a pedophile? Even if they don’t bring these things up to you, there is no mutual respect since either in the back or forefront of their minds, they still believe these things. Am I Islamophobic for flinching whenever I see a mosque, or a woman in a niqab, or hear certain Islamic names? I mean, I suppose, since the suffix “phobia” implies fear.

They (along with Christians) typically compare homosexuality to smoking when called out. Saying “you don’t want a smoker to smoke but you still love them” except they seem to ignore the fact that smoking is the leading cause of preventable diseases, homosexuality is just having romantic and sexual attraction to the same sex. I mention this because of my own sexuality and simply how openly disgusted and appalled Muslims are by it. And how people are just… okay with Muslims being openly homophobic. I never understood, when Christians do it it’s awful but when Muslims do it, it’s okay?

Perhaps my opinions and confusion on what constitutes as Islamophobia are skewed by my severe religious abuse, but as far as my mind sees it, it’s;

Islam = bad, evil, cons (misogyny, homo/transphobia, acceptance of pedophilia…) outweigh the pros (be kind to others, blah blah blah basic religious stuff)

And

Muslim woman = maybe not bad? Approach with caution, person may hurt you or belittle you, likely conservative, may try to revert you, likely wants you to burn in hell.

Muslim man = Do not go near

Maybe I am Islamophobic since I see a Muslim man and think “5/10 chance he sucks” but that’s literally all I know, that’s all I’ve been shown by men in that religion. Or maybe, just maybe, it’s a man thing and not an islam thing.

Not sure.

Everything I mentioned is something I ponder and furthermore, it makes me wonder if I’m a bad person because of this. I don’t want to have any “isms” or “phobias” but if I do, does it matter unless I actively seek out to hurt others? Does this go for Muslims as well? Do their personal beliefs on these topics matter unless they’re killing gay people and marrying children? Or do some internal beliefs truly define you, regardless of if you hurt others? This got strangely philosophical, I apologize.

[islamic-satanism]

First things first. "Islamophobia" is not allowed here. I completely see the hypocrisy in a page talking against Islam saying no Islamophobia, but you can disagree with a religion and still not see people following it as evil. Ex Christians are allowed to criticize their former religion all the time, without people thinking they hate anyone Christian.

Intro:

I will not be sharing my real name, so just call me Ammar. I was born in an Arab country, but now live in the US. Even though I was raised muslim, I came to resent my faith. It wasn't my "exposure to the immoral west" that corrupted me. It was the contradictions I saw in what I was taught. I was taught that Allah is the only God, and that every one else is wrong. And yet as I went and made friends with people of other faiths, something struck me as odd. Every single person, whether Christian, or Jewish, or Buddhist, or something else entirely, every single person belived they were right. These were smart and kind people I considered as my friends. They each had their own "proofs" that their religion was the correct one, and that the other religious people were misled, by fools or tricksters. And a part of me thought, what if they're the correct ones? What if my Hindu friends have it all figured out, and when I die I won't go to heaven or hell, but reincarnate. What if my mormon or bahi friends are right? Is Islam's "solid proof" any more convincing than theirs?

I didn't leave my religion at that point, however. I had my doubts, but I still believed. My faith breaking moment came upon my realization that I'm queer. I "prayed the gay away" constantly, but it didn't really work. And I failed to see what was so morally wrong with my attraction. I wasn't having kids anyways, why would it matter if I was with a man or a woman? When my Islamic teacher told us of Lot, she had a smile on her face as she talked about their destruction. I asked her what they did wrong, and she said they went against the will of Allah. I know some people interpret that part to be about the raping of angels, but I think it doesn't matter. If the vast majority of a religion believes something, that thing is part of the religion, even if it's not in the texts. This is something I will be coming back to later.

I wasn't really too aware of Satanism at that point. As I grew up the only real mention of it (other than religious people freaking out and accusing people of being devil worshippers) was my cousin confiding in me that she had a "Satanic Bible" that she was hiding from her mom. I was curious, but not enough to ask more questions. I've been vaguely intrested in satanism ever since, but I've only deeply researched it this year. I'm quite taken with the idea, but wearing upside down crosses didn't seem to apply for me. I mean, muslims don't belive jesus died on the cross, it wouldn't make sense to use that to reble against Islam. I scowered the internet looking for like-minded people. Satanists that shared my experiences and traumas with Islam. Even ex-muslim communities were lacking. So many of them were "Islam sucks but christianity is soooo much better", completely ignoring the valid issues with islam, that Christianity shares . Even worse were the zionist bots spewing hatred against anyone muslim. Just because I don't agree with someone doesn't mean I want their whole race genocided! General Atheist communities were terrible. People posting pictures of ladies wearing the hijab and abaya and calling them stupid or sheep, when no one bats an eye about nuns. And here's the thing! I hate modesty culture. I once threw my hijab out of a car window. And yet I find myself defending these ladies, who never asked for their pictures to be taken and used by some brain dead redditor. I often think of the saying, "Sometimes you have to side with someone you disagree with to defend against someone dangerous." because as much as I hate the policing of women's clothing, I think the racism that is shown in online spaces is much more dangerous. The hypocrisy of critiquing a religion that polices women's clothing, by policing a woman's clothing, makes me sick.

But I am majorly getting off point. The point I was trying to make, is that, I felt like there wasn't an online space for Satanism seen through an Islamic lense. And as I often find myself resorting to, I went, "Fine. I'll do it myself." And so this is my attempt at it. I made a website a while ago but can't get myself to update it, so I decided making a tumblr account might be a good call.

Also, I should mention this. Do I belive in satan? No. Most Satanists actually don't belive in satan either. Being a Satanist (at least an atheistic or non-theistic Satanists, which are the majority) is more of an opposition to religion, rather than an endorsement of one. That is why I'm terming "Islamic Satanism", a movement that opposes (specifically) islam.

Also, I said this in the beginning, bigots this is not a place for you. Opposing a religion and saying that everyone who follows that religion is evil are completely separate ideas.

If you feel offended by anything I say here (and you're not a bigot), talk to me. I'm so serious about this. I love having (good faith) discussions with people with different beliefs, after all, that's the reason I left islam. You can send an ask or dm me, I don't mind.

[this-is-kafiromisia]

Welcome to this-is-kafiromisia!

Inspired by blogs like @thisis-intersexism and @thisisexorsexism , this blog is dedicated to talk about kafiromisia.

What is kafiromisia?

Kafiromisia is a term that refers to the oppression of Ex-Muslims.

The term comes from the slur "kaafir," which is used against Ex-Muslims. The word means "disbeliever, infidel, apostate" etc.

Types of kafiromisia

Qur'anic kafiromisia: certain verses ("ayat") being kafiromisic by nature and it's weaponization. Some ayat include: Yunus 94-95, Al-Mulk 20, Bani Israil 97, Al-Anam 111, Al-Bayyina 6.

Hadithic kafiromisia: certain ahadith (sayings of the Prophet) being kafiromisic by nature and it's weaponization. Some ahadith include: Sahih Bukhari 3017, 6930, 7157.

Fatwa-related kafiromisia: certain fatawa (rulings on a point of Islamic law given by a qualified Islamic jurist in response to a question) being kafiromisic by nature and it's weaponization. Some fatawa include: Islam Q&A Fatwa no. 12406, 811, 14231, 696.

Subcategories of kafiromisia

Kafiroracism: the intersection of kafiromisia and racism. This can have subcategories like kafironoirism (anti-Blackness and kafiromisia), kafirosemitism (antisemitism and kafiromisia); or just be a word of its own.

Kafirosexism: the intersection of kafiromisia and sexism.

Kafiromisogyny: the intersection of kafiromisia and misogyny.

Kafiroableism: the intersection of kafiromisia and ableism. This can have subcategories like kafiroautimisia (anti-autistic ableism and kafiromisia), kafirosanism (sanism and kafiromisia); or just be a word of its own.

Kafirosizeism: the intersection of kafiromisia and sizeism.

Muslimonormativity: the idea that everyone should be Muslims.

Consequences of kafiromisia

In a state level, Ex-Muslims face death penalty and imprisonment. If an Ex-Muslim is a parent, they lose custody of their children. If an Ex-Muslim is married, they're separated from their partner(s). Ex-Muslim men cannot marry Muslim women. Ex-Muslim women may face forced sterilization. And vise versa.

In a public level; Ex-Muslims face social boycotts, isolation, domestic violence, sexual assault, bullying, verbal harassment, torture, honor killings, vice versa.

You can check Wikipedia's page or Exmuslim.org persecution page for more information.

[our-exmoose-experience]

occasionally i'll be browsing the ex muslim tag on tiktok, you know, to find people like me, and i swear the amount of condescending mfers in there being like: "um actually all ex 'muslims' were never actual muslims lmao, learn more and then come talk to me haha" and there's this running joke among these groups of this scenario where they will be talking to an ex muslim and ask them: "how many rakaa in wuduu?" or "how many rakaa in [insert food name]?" and the ex muslim will be like: "um...two?" or something like that and i partially find these jokes extremely frustrating because they never actually show proof of this happening, it's just them making up this scenario for an AHA GOTCHA moment so they can insult an entire group of people and invalidate their experiences like tell me you never met an ex-muslim without telling me you never met an ex-muslim i also find it annoying because it comes with the expectation of someone who left the religion needing to prove they had a good reason for leaving by showing they know every single thing about it

and lastly i always wonder what they would make of me, i have been raised muslim, my dad is an imam, i have had loads of obscure things about islam drilled into my head through my father's violence for YEARS, i go to school in a muslim country so we have religious classes and tests on said religion, and they're here telling me that my experiences are not valid, i was never a real muslim to begin with and so my leaving the religion is a good enough reason for ridicule.

also can i just say the audacity they have to use the ex-muslim tag on their videos is insane, like not only are you wrong and your joke sucks, but you're also using this tag to reach the people you're making the insulting joke about?? get tf outta here with that shit.

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[religion-is-a-mental-illness]

"One need only study the doctrine of Islam—not merely as it existed in the 7th century, but as it exists today—and ask some very basic questions. What, for instance, is the penalty for apostasy? Interestingly, it isn’t spelled out in the Koran—there, apostates are merely promised their just deserts in hell—but it is made painfully clear in the hadith, and in the opinions of Muslim jurists and Muslim mobs everywhere. The year is 2013, and the penalty for apostasy, everywhere under Islam, is death. I have yet to meet an apologist for the religion, however evasive, who could lie about this fact with a straight face. Needless to say, I receive emails from former Muslims who are all too aware of what it means to be a former Muslim. Depending on where they live, these people run a real risk of being murdered, perhaps even by members of their own families, for having lost their faith." -- Sam Harris

10 years, 1400 years, nothing changes.

[sweet-nothing26]

This past month i lost two of my closest friends which i have considered to be so close to my heart and for the first time in my life, i have truly understood the heartbreak that comes from ending a relationship with another human being whether it's platonic or romantic. As taylor swift has emphasized before, friendship breakups can be just as intense as romantic ones and it was until this month that i truly understood what she meant.

My friends or shall i say ex friends, challenged me amid a silly misunderstanding to bring out something that i bring into our friendship since they have to endure the looks of judgements and the outcast treatment for their association with me. An atheist, someone who doesn't believe in the abrahamic god (how dare she), someone who doesn't have a religion to guide them in this life, someone who lacks a moral compass, as they claim. In 2024 i made a pact with myself to STOP over explaining my stance. This includes but not limited to, my morals, my values, my beliefs or lack thereof, my identity, my whims, dreams...etc especially to someone who will never ever open their mind to accept a perspective or pov other the one their communities feed them regularly. Trying to humanize myself in a society that will forever paint atheists and non believers in a bad light since its beginning is a mistake and a waste of time, energy and my mental sanity.

For me, i thought friendship was about accepting the beautiful and ugly parts of your friends and seeing their imperfections as little quirks that just makes them who they are. I was wrong. I think this was a lesson for me to continue being a loner and never establish any deep relationship with muslims knowing they will drop you the moment they know who you truly are.

This is one of the many many beautiful things islam took away from me. The ability to make friends and connect with people. Because no matter what i do, i'm seen as a bad person who you shouldn't associate yourself with if you're a believer. I could lead you to the path of sin and disobedience. A path where you hypothetically question the absurdities that your community has fed u. A path where reason is put before faith.

Some people might say that i should stop victimizing myself and being a victim in every scenario since life is unfair for everyone and i should just stop bitching and moaning non stop. But aren't I a victim in a society where i know there are a hundred thousand people who would want me dead? Aren't I a victim in a society where the law prosecutes blasphemers for using our ''god'' given right to speak freely about the things that hurt us? Aren't I a victim for being named an abomination, a disgrace, a heathen? Aren't i a victim for facing hate crime? Aren't I a victim as a liberal ex muslim woman in a conservative islamic state?

Honestly, i rest my case. I no longer resist the loneliness the atheist path has brought me, not that it's my fault. But befriending muslims is a waste of time regardless of how open or liberal they say they are. Conservative societies are about maintaining status no matter how miserable everyone within these societies is. They shall all paint themselves as obedient straight godly people and can never stray away from that image. Any minor inconveniences that they commit can break that illusion even the ones that don't involve them at all like associating themselves with the supposed heathens. That association in itself takes away that fake status quo and ''god'' knows they can't live with that.